Wednesday, March 16, 2005

I feel as though I've been lied to...
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8:31 AM EST USA

[Subject Meaning]
I’ll explain later…

[Post]
I’m doing a LITTLE better….but not much…I am actually able to eat again. I’m gonna try to eat a cup of fruit every morning and also eat lunch at school (or as much as I can eat of it).
Like the subject says, I feel that Samantha has lied to me. She said she didn’t break up with me to go out with Josh, but ever since Monday, when she gave me the note saying she was gonna break up with me on Friday, she has been hanging on Josh EXCESSIVELY. I’m too afraid to ask anything though…and then there is last night.
I went over to Josh’s house last night. Well, Sam called. Not ONCE did we talk. She continuously talked to Josh. And that’s what I don’t understand. I told her earlier that day that I felt like I wanted to die, and she wanted me to call her whether I was gonna be at Josh’s or my place. Well, she knew I was at Josh’s, but she never wanted to talk to me.
Well, from now on, if Sam or Courtney want to talk to me, THEY will have to come to me instead of me always going to them. I’m getting tired of being the one to go to them.

Other than that, I got READY STEADY GO (FMA theme) on my comp. I think it’s the extended version, not the one from the actual series. And now, every morning at school, that will be the first thing I listen to is this song. I’m listening to it right now.

Well, that’s all for now. Later all.

>>Matt

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

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[Time of Post]
8:17 AM EST USA

[Subject Meaning]
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I don’t feel so good right now…I didn’t eat much last night. I guess the realization of Samantha breaking up with me is NOW hitting me at full force…I basically don’t care anymore. I can’t think straight, I can’t eat, I can barely sleep, and the only thing that I can do to keep my mind of things is playing Final Fantasy IX. And that doesn’t help much…

At least some of you have gone through heartache with a boyfriend or girlfriend. Can any of you please tell me what I can do to at least get my body back on track. I don’t even want to eat anymore, and I can’t stop thinking about Sam…I would really appreciate the help…

>>Matt

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Monday, March 14, 2005

Well, I'm single again...
[Time of Post]
8:16 AM EST USA

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Samantha and I decided (well, mainly Sammy) that we need some time 'away' from each other and some time to see other people to realize our feelings. It'll happen after the 17th, which is our 3 month anniversary.

[Post]
Hewwo! Yep, me and Sammy are broken up. I thought I would feel VERY sad and down due to this, but, strangly, I don't. I just understand what she means by she needs some time alone, and I agree...

I GOT FF9!! YES!!! And I got it FRESH OUT OF THE PACKAGE! wOOt!!

>>Matt

PS: Sorry so short. Cursed teacher!!!
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Friday, March 11, 2005

   Josh and Courtney broke up yesterday...
[Time of Post]
8:10 AM EST USA

[Subject Meaning]
Exactly what it means…

[Post]
Hey all. I wanted to die last night…I realized that I was supposed to be mad at Josh, but not AS angry as I was…I started to cry over at Samantha’s house and soon as I got home, I called Josh. I didn’t talk to him since he broke it off with Courtney, but my first words to him was “I’m sorry”. I started to cry hard, and it took all I had to keep from breaking down…I guess what Samantha said is true…I do have a small crush on Courtney. But I don’t even realize it. And Samanta’s friend, Sherri, who lives in Urbana, she has a crush on me and she never even MET me!…why me?
I’m just glad that Josh and Courtney are still friends. Josh said he won’t be going out with another girl for quite a while, but I doubt he’ll keep true to that. Samantha said she feels that things are going to go even more downhill later today and she said she’d explain later…I just hope she isn’t gonna break up with me…if she says she wants to see what Josh is like, then she’ll have to break up with me. I can’t stand that ‘open relationship’ thing when I feel this strongly for a girl…I know I sound like a selfish person, but still…

Courtney made a myO account! YAYERS! I’m gonna try to find her SN. I can’t remember it…unless it is turned off…NUUUUUU!!!!…yep, it’s turned off…well, I’ll put a link to her site once I find the SN and she activates her site..

Well, that’s all for now…I hope I can pull through this…and I pray that Sam doesn’t break up with me anytime soon…

>>Matt

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Wednesday, March 9, 2005

Just posting some images I found
Nothing big so far...just wanting to post two pics I have. One I edited with Photoshop and the other I found with Yahoo.


~EDIT~ Took image out due to size
>>Matt



THIS IS FUNNY AS FUCK! LOL

If they don't work, I don't know why. Hope it brings your day up some!

LATERS! -smokes the bong with the firby-

>>Matt
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Tuesday, March 8, 2005

Life hates me dearly...
[Time of Post]
8:09 AM EST USA

[Subject Meaning]
Lost phone card, Sam got took off the softball team, and a bunch of other stuff...

[Post]
I didn't get to call Brianna last night as we planned. I couldn't find my phone card. I got pissed off at myself last night as well for not finding it...but I did call Samantha, wondering why she wasn't home that day. She told me that when she went to practice, the coach told her she was off the team 'cause she wasn't giving him 100% so to speak. But she was...and she likes to stay after school to go to the weight room. I may join her on Mondays and Wendsdays, though. Josh'll tag along too. Maybe I can take this weak body of mine and at least make it mediocre strength XP.

Well, while I was talking to Samantha on the phone, she said she wanted me to pay her back on what she did with Josh...yes, that means cheat on her. But, I promised her I won't hurt her or cheat on her and I tend to keep my promises, no matter how far fetched they may be. So, I won't cheat on her or hurt her.

Well, thats all for now. I'll talk to you all laters. Byies!

>>Matt
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Monday, March 7, 2005

My friend needs all the support you can give her....
[Time of Post]
8:32 AM EST USA

[Subject Meaning]
Go to Brianna's site to read about why she needs all the support she can get.

[Post]
I'm not gonna go through how my weekend was like I usually do. Short and simple, it was fun. Now on to what I got to say on this matter...

I am rather disappointed in Henry, and yes, even in Brianna, but not as much as Henry. Henry could of just said no. Same with Bri. But it is natural male instinct to go on with something like that. Right now, I am VERY angry with Henry. By what Bri has told me about him, he was a bright young man with a good head on his shoulders. But now, I dispise him. Even if he couldn't of avoided that, he should've at least used protection! GOD! I wish I could just beat the holy hell out of him right now. I can't even think now. I wish I could go back in time and avoid all of this....

Please Brianna. don't take this personally, but now I hate Henry with a vengeance. But I will be there for you if you need me, okay?

>>Matt
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Thursday, March 3, 2005

Hello everyone...
[Time of Post]
9:11 AM EST USA

[Subject Meaning]
I'm bored...

[Post]
Hey all. Well, my life is crap...Bri is having a depressed/angry/sulky mood right now due to all of the 'marriage' things going about her life, she not being able to see Henry, Josh and Courtney having problems (I'll get to that later.), and me and Samantha having some 'problems' (I'll get to that later as well.) The only thing that is keeping me from beating this comp to nothingness and throwing it out the window is Maddox's website. I'll post the link in my intro thingie. Here is whats going on:

~Josh and Courtney~
Well, Josh says him and Courtney won't last much longer....WHAT THE FUCK WAS HE THINKING TELLING HER THAT!?!?!?!? GOD! I just want to beat him to a pulp and slam him into a locker multiple times! I admit, me and Samantha probably won't last throughout the rest of my high school career. Most teenage relationships don't last. But that is MOST, not ALL! Thats the thing. I like to believe that me and Sam are one of the few couples that WILL last from high school. I'm going to talk to Josh today and explain to him that Courtney does NOT need to hear that JOSH thinks they'll break up. I need to go back to Maddox's site after this post..

~Me and Samantha~
Well, it's not really any problems, I've just knoticed that Samantha rarely goes to me for her problems. She always seems to go to Josh, Courtney, Cassie, Heather, or someone else. I'm one of the last few to hear about it. And then, I do admit, I am jealous of Josh. Why? Cause Samantha asks him to come over a lot and not ONCE has she asked me to come over. And, it seems that she likes to hang on Josh a lot at school. I am ignoring all that, but I'm gonna try to talk to her and ask her why she does that if it doesn't change even the SLIGHTEST bit soon..

Well, I'm glad you all read this as I bitched about my crappy ass life. I thank you for hanging while I whine, piss, and moan about my life. Thankies!

>>Matt
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Tuesday, March 1, 2005

Life is goofy...
[Time of Post]
8:17 AM EST USA

[Subject Meaning]
Well, it's true, isn't it!?

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Well, it looks like Brianna and Henry had some fun. -thwaps Henry and Brianna- Next time...don't let it get THAT far...sheesh!...meh, I can't say anything. Sometimes, I feel as if Samantha wants to rip my clothes off and rape me! O_O...but as the old saying goes: 'You can't rape the willing.'

Yesterday was crap...I went to Samantha's house, but she had to go to softball practice. I didn't mind cause I decided if I could go, I would go...but their wasn't enough room in the truck. I WAS gonna ride in the back, but it was raining. So, I couldn't go...-sigh-

So, I went home and played FF7 for a bit. Here are the characters:
Cloud-Matthew
Barret-Jeremiah
Tifa-Samantha
Aeris-April
Red XIII-Red XIII
Yuffie-Courtney
Cait Sith-Cait Sith
Vincent-Joshua
Cid-Cory

I'm still in Shinra Headquarters on Disc 1. So, it'll be a while before I get to 'Bad Ass' status once again...-sigh-...cursed nieces and nephews!

Well, I'll be going to Josh's house today and then to the college. He's gonna get his butt whooped if he duals me in Dual Monsters (AKA Yu-Gi-Oh! TCG). Here would be my favorite monster team: Red Eyes Darkness Dragon, Red Eyes Black Dragon, Dispair From The Dark, Red Eyes Black Dragon, Blue Eyes White Dragon.

Laters!

>>Matt

PS: If you ever want to talk Brianna, PM me and I'll call you sometime. Meh gotsa phone! ^_^
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Monday, February 28, 2005

Being pulled over by the cops is NOT fun...
[Time of Post]
8:07 AM Eastern Standard Time USA

[Subject Meaning]
My brother got pulled over for speeding Sunday night. All he got was a warning.

[Post]
Hey all. How was your weekends? Mine was pretty good. Got to see Jeremiah, a friend I haven't seen for almost half a year. O_O
But not much really happened...except for the fact that Josh had to help some guy online on how to get help after slitting your wrist. Josh seen the guy do it on webcam. After the guy figured it was stupid, he needed help. So Josh told him what to do. He is still shaken up by it, but I think he'll be okay soon enough.

And about my comment: "My life is uneventful unless me and Sam are alone...o_O"
I get to torture her and tickle her very much when we are alone. So, don't get dirty thoughts kids!

LATERS!

>>Matt

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