Monday, March 20, 2006

   YESH!!!!!!!!
I got my internet back! And a new dell flat screen! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! My happiness is overwhelming! =] Not much is different in hte world of me. I have 2 start going 2 children therapy groups b/c I"M CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol.
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Friday, March 10, 2006

   Neato Frito!
What's chillin' my homie Gs all across the anime lovin' world? I'm glad to be back even though if it's just 50 minutes on the web. I've missed you all so much! Life here in small town Noble, Oklahoma is gettin' better. Sure I hate most of the people here but at least the foods good. For the first time in a long time nothing is going wrong. Do you know how happy that makes me!?!?!? I have a super awesome b/f whose been around for 5 months, great friends, great grades, and 3 months of school left! I can't wait to go up 2 the 8th grade! =] The only thing I'm not excited about is the fact that my bff, Tyler, and my bf, Jake are gonna start driving. SCARY THOUGHT!!! I'm @ school right now in 2nd hour library aide. This morning I got in trouble 'cuz my shirt said "Why don't you go eat a decroded piece of crap!?" and it had a pic of Napoleon Dynamite on it. Apparently CRAP is a bad word. lol. that's gay. I had to turn my shirt inside out and put on a jacket. A few weeks ago we had a jock VS goth fight. Well, more like a jock VS goth debate 'cuz the principal stopped us before we could fight. It pissed me off a lot b/c all the teachers were on the jock side. My bff, Tyler, got pulled aside by some teachers and they BEGGED him not to beat this 1 fag Jimmy Cossey up. I laughed my booty off! [...booty...lol...] I started working out and only eating organtic/healthy food so I'm loosing a lot of weight the RIGHT way. Well, I got nothin' else to say but I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!! Peace out!
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Saturday, January 28, 2006

   I'm back my loves!
yeah so I've been w/out internet for 3 freakin' months! I know, how sad is that? Well anywho, since then sooooo much has happened. In November I went 2 California 2 see my sister's X-boyfriend graduate from the Marines. Cali is so awesome & the guys are hot. Well, my sis's x-b/f came home with us & 1 night he came into my room & asked if he could lay in my bed w/ me 'cuz the coach is uncomfy, I was half asleep & said yes. I went back to sleep & woke up like 20 min. later 'cuz the creep was touching me, then he stared trying 2 take my clothes off. That bastard tried to rape me, but I ran away. Ever since then I've had the police harrassing me, I get looks, & for a lil while I had 2 go to counseling. I still have flashbacks & I get depressed a lot so my moms looking up so places 4 kids my age 2 go w/ these kinda problems. I hate it 'cuz I feel like there's something wromg w/ me. Don't pity me- I was lucky, I got away.

Something awesome happened. The guy Jake I was interested in well, we became best friends & then I asked him out & he said yes. Jake is wonderful. He's still like my best friend. He reminds me of Sesshomaru from InuYasha & Jin from Samuri Champloo, he's the strong silent type. We've been together for almost 3 months now. I found out that I'm his 1st girlfriend. I'm like the only person he ever talks to. He's been w/ me through a lot of crap lately. Even though he doesn't say much, I know he cares. I really love him.

I look in the mirror now & look back 3 months ago. I have really changed. Almost all my smiles are fake, besides when I'm with Jake. It's mostly b/c of what that guy tried to do to me. I made a new friend, Samara. I met her the day b4 I went to Cali @ the Safe School Summit. She's really kewl. That guy Trent is now a total jerk! He stopped hanging out w/ me & started haning out w/ stupid popular kids. he's in my 4th hour class now & I sit across from him & he's always really mean. It's almost to the point that I hate him. well, that's all the new stuff that comes to mind so I'll se ya'll later in life!
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Tuesday, November 1, 2005

   No Excuses
Hey peeps what's goin' on? Sorry I haven't been on in forever. Thing's here are gettin' f-ed up. It's like people look at me and say I have a perfect life, that's only how I make it look.

Last week on Wednesday Super Freak broke up with me. We had been goin' out for a lil' over a month. He said it was because we had only known each other for 2 1/2 weeks before we started dating. He also said that there are other reasons but he won't tell me them, he said that we'd go back out, just not now. He avoids me, he refuses to talk even when it's like a conversation about music. It really sux 'cuz I was starting to really like me & a couple of days b4 he dumped me he told me he was in love with me. I want him back but then I remember that he left me 'cuz of a stupid reason & that he avoids me. In a way I don't care.

The same day that Super Freak dumped me one of my really good friends, Chad, told me that he was moving to Moore [a town far away from here.] That day I cried, but not because of Super Freak. I wanted Chad to stay. But I guess no matter what I say he's gone.

There's this guy named Jake & he's Super Freak's best friend. Jake's really hot & kewl but he's Super Freak's best friend AND my best friend likes him a lot. Jake & I are only distant friends but the last Friday I was walkin' home & he was walking with me [I don't know why.] He kept on making this really annoying high-pitched sound with a piece of plastic so I tried to take it from him and we started wrestling for it & he started holding my hand but I pulled away. I feel bad for all of that 'cuz Mae is like in love with him & he's Super Freak's best mate. That night I had a totally bizzare dream with Jake in it. I don't feel like going into detail so I'll just tell you the weirdest part, I kept on trying to kiss Jake. Ever since then I can't get him out of my head & I don't like it. I want him out but sometimes this evil thought keeps crawling into my head telling me that I want him.

Trent forgot who I am. He started forgetting my name & everytime I see him he won't talk. He's changed. Every one's noticed & nobody but his friends Mark & Brandon like it. I've given up on Trent. =-(
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

   James & I..... parents!?!?! A strange incident with a baby...
everything you're about to read is true. Filled with real people, real problems, and real prostitutes. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!



Me: Hey James, what's up? Oh kewl! You got a baby-think-it-over in Home Ec?!?!?! Lucky!

*James is a friend from school who is freakin' crazy! We both have Home Ec & right now all the 8th graders get baby-think-it-overs to take care of for like 3 days, I don't get one yet since I'm in 7th grade, but James gets 1 'cuz he's in 8th.*

JAMES: Oh yeah. It f***in' sucks! It won't shut up!!! Last night it kept on waking me up & I'm getting ready to kill it!!!

ME: ....okay...... weirdo. Hey! I'm the father of Patrick & Alex's babies, can I be the father of yours?!?

*James looked at me funny*
JAMES: I'm not gay.

ME: Fine then! Can I be the mother!?!?

*James gave me an even funnier look*

JAMES: Whatever floats you're boat princess...

ME: Yay! What did you name it?

JAMES: Billiam Perrywickle Randolph XII.

*I got a confused look*
ME: WTF???? Is it a dude or a chick??!!??

*James yelled this. [he's really loud sometimes].*

JAMES: It's a freakin' girl! Her nick name is Elizabeth!!!

ME: Um... okay.... Wait... why the hell Billiam Perrywickle?!?!?

JAMES: 'Cuz it's a beautiful name! duh!

ME: 0.o

*after that we followed our friend Maegan home & then "Billiam started crying so we had to stay there for a lil while until "she" or as James calls her "it" stopped. Afterwords we saw my friend Chockte [most ppl call him Chocky 'cuz his names hard 2 pronounce.] Chocky decided to still "our" baby & it was creepy b/c James ran Chocky down & got "Billiam" back.*

ME: Omigoshness!!! James actually is a good parent!! Creepy!!!!







wasn't that interesting!?!?! Tune in next week when James gets a pubic hair!
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Thursday, October 6, 2005

   Super Freak & Phsyco Freak
Well, it's been like 2 days since I broke up with Brendan *cough cough who's still being a jerk-wod-a-potomis [jerk-wod-a-potomis is my special word..] cough cough* & I ALREADY have a new guy. God, I run through guys fast! But anyways this guy & mine's relationship is a secret. Only 1 other person knows about us & she isn't going to tell any1. We're keeping it a secret 'cuz there's this 1 girl who only flirts with the guys that I like & it makes me mad. I won't tell you the guy's name 'cuz I don't want any of my buddies from school getting on & finding out who it is so I'll just call him by his nickname that we both call him, Super Freak. He's decided to call me Phsyco Freak 'cuz I'm like a crazy phscyopath. Super Freak is awesome!!! He's really quiet though which is strange 'cuz I never shut up, but if you start talking about piercings or certain bands & junk like that he talks a bunch! He's also really skinny & I've got a lot of junk in my trunk if ya know what I mean, he's got red hair [naturally red not dyed like mine] that's short & he keeps it spiked. And he has a lip ring!!! How awesome is that!?!? I like to poke it. I'm pretty sure that he's a pot-head though 'cuz his best friend was suspended from school for having pot in his locker & he always just kinda acts like he's high. He's really calm & he's more like a friend then a boyfriend so when we do break up we'll most likely stay friends. I don't have any classes with him but I still get to see him 5 minutes between evey class & at lunch for 30 minutes so it's kewl. I think we're goin' to the movies this weekend but who knows. Yes! Finally a guy who doesn't treat me like freakin' crap & isn't super perverted!
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Tuesday, October 4, 2005

   HOT PINK.
Ok, I've been trying to get more attention from a certain guy *cough cough Trent cough cough* so I thought I'd dye my hair dark purple. I was so excited about this. I was gonna have purple hair! And Trent kun was gonna love it! Well I got the dye in & everything so when my hair dried I had HOT PINK HAIR! I'm not talking just hot pink, I mean FLAMING hot pink. & it's permnate [or however you spell it!] so now & forever until I decide to cut my hair I have hot pink hair. My dad & grandparents hate it.......... good. Oh & I have a lot of new nick names now b/c of it too, like Pinky, Rainbow, Chestire Cat [I had that 1 b4 just now I seem more like the Chestire Cat], & some ppl even call me The Sexy Pink Mouse. [My original nick name that every1 knows me as is Meggie Mouse.]
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   Trent.
Two weeks ago Trent wasn't talking to me b/c of my ex Brady & b/c Trent had sum problems that he was afraid to talk to any1 about. Sadly enough I gave up on hoping that Trent kun felt the same way I do for him so I started dating sum guy named Brendan. Well, I just dumped him today 'cuz he's a total asswipe. After the 1st day we made out he stopped talking 2 me & he told all his friends who are also my friends that he really likes me. He treats me like f***ing sh*t! We even got into a fight IN PUBLIC & we were yellin' at each other & he told sum creepy midget kid to attack me! Then he called me a bitch TO MY FACE! And now he wonders why I dumped him. Once things went bad for me & Brendan, Trent started talking again. I started going to his house after school again too, but no matter how hard I try he won't get close to me. He stopped playing around like we were friends with benefits. He won't look me straight in the face anymore either. In fact, there's even this girl he constantly talks about. You know the type smart, pretty, super skinny, loves anime, drop dead gorgeous, and she sang in the talent show last year & she was perfect, oh yeah & she's goth & thats the kinda girls Trent kun likes. Oh & there's one more thing that's really important, we hate each others guts. He talks about his feelings for her in front of me & it hurts like hell to listen. Today Patrick asked him if he'd ever go out with me & he said he didn't know. As much as I try to deny it to people, I like Trent.
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Sunday, September 18, 2005

   Secret feelings.
2 weeks ago I went to the school dance with this guy Brady who really likes me. That day he asked me to go to the dance with him and nobody else had asked me so I said yes. Brady's not at all bad looking and he's really nice to me, but I have to admit that he's really perverted. All that week Brady had been hanging around me and my best friends Patrick and Trent. They weren't very happy with the fact of Brady hitting on me all the time, especially since I dated Patrick for 4 months and every one says that Trent & I should hook up. I go every where with Trent and Patrick, school events, the public library [that's where the middle school kids hang out in our town], and friend's houses. I go down the street holding their hands and nobody cares because they all know who we are. Well, after like a month of always being with Trent & Patrick I developed feelings for Trent and every one who wasn't blind could see that Trent & I were getting closer. Every time I walked down the halls at school some one would come up to me and say "You and Trent make a cute couple, you two should go out." That's secretly what I wnat but I'm not sure on how he feels. I've only told one person about my secret feelings for Trent and that's my best female friend Maegan. She thinks that Trent has feelings for me, but she's not sure either. At the dance one of my friends had decided that I was going out with Brady. I didn't disagree because I do like Brady and I was afraid to ask Trent out. When my friend decided that Trent just suddenly walked off. It's been 2 weeks now and TRent won't talk to me nad every time I'm near him he refuses to look at me & he gets all moody. I really miss him! I'm still with Brady and I guess I'm happy, but I still want Trent. He talks to every one else but me & every time I ask him whats wrong his voice gets sad and he says "Nothings wrong." Last Friday he was at the library and I finally had the chance to talk to him. He was acting mad & I've never seen him mad before and it kinda scared me. I asked him, "Trent are you ok?" He looked down at the ground & answered, "No." I tried so hard to get him look at me but it didn't work so I asked him if he was mad & he said no, so then I asked him if he was sad & he said yes. He won't tell me why, but I think it might be because I'm dating Brady. I love Trent. I'm just afriad to tell him.
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

   squeaky squeaky
Me: Hi, how are you today?

Voice In My Head: Oh, I'm fine thanx for asking. How bout you?

Me: I'm just dandy. Hey, I just saw a commercial for the new baby doll called "Amazing Amanda." I totally want one of those!

Voice In My Head: Really? Kewl, well, I've got a surprise for you!

Me: OOOHHH! I wonder what it could be!

*Voice gives Me an Amazing Amanda doll*

Voice In My Head: Here you go!

Me: Wow wee! An Amazing Amanda! This is nifty! Thanx Voice In My Head! You're the best!

Voice In My Head: Of course I'm the best! I'm the one who tells you what to do! C'mon, let's see what the Amazing Amanda does!

Me: OK!

*Grabs one of the toy foods that comes with the Amazing Amanda.*

Me: What do you want to eat for breakfeast Amanda?

Amazing Amanda: Anything you choose for me I'll love mommy!

Me:OK.
*Picks up toy cookie & "Feeds" it to Amanda.*

Amazing Amanda: Stupid Bitch! You don't eat cookies for breakfeast!

Voice In My Head: *GASP* Little girls shouldn't know such language! Now apologize to your mommy!

Amazing Amanda: Suck my d!ck bitch! I'll see mommy in Hell!

Me: You lil m**ther f*cker!
*takes bat and beats the Amazing Amanda into lil tiny pieces.*

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MORAL OF THIS STORY DON'T TRUST TV ADVERTISEMENTS!



I'm sorry if any other the language in this offends you, it's just a lil sample of my sick & twisted mind.


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