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Sunday, September 4, 2005


   Hurt.
So this Saturday morning I wake up cuz my best friend Maegan calls me. I was at my dad's house [my parents are devorced & I go to my dad's every other weekend] & people usually don't call me there cuz they all think my dad is gonna eat them or something.

*pauses to try to imagine dad whose like a giant teddy bear who has an odd hobby of collecting guns eating my friends*

Mae was all like "Hey Meggie Mouse[cough cough it's my nick name cough cough] Ryan said he just wants to be your friend." I was a lil shocked & confused. Apparently he never liked me. He lied to me & told this slut Chelsea that he only went out with me cuz I asked & he didn't wanna hurt my feelings. WELL GUESS WHAT!!! BEING LIED TO BY YOUR BOYFRIEND WHO SECRETLY HATES YOU IS GONNA HURT MY FEELINGS!!! I mean really, he says he's my friend, but what kinda friend does that? He also told me that he hates Chelsea & that he'd never go out with her. Once again he was lying & he's now going out with her. I'm used to being rejected & dumped but god, that's just cruel! You don't compliment a girl & date her just cuz you feel sorry for her. I'm not some one's pity trip! I'm a human being!

I'm sure none of ya'll wanna hear me complain about some stupid jack*** from school, but I had to write this stuff down somewhere & when I post things it feels like I'm writing in a diary.

I was upset for like the whole day. I wanted to be more than just Ryan's friend. Even though what he did was completely wrong. I delt with a small twinge of pain in my heart that whole day. The only time I forgot about it was when I was with my sister Donny. But the next morning my ex boyfriend/lover/first love/best friend Matt called me. I hadn't talked to him since Monday cuz he's like in high school & I'm still in jr. high. Matt & I broke up like in April even though we were & still are madly in love. Let's just say we were having "problems" cuz I was hearin' some rumors about him cheating & he was about to be a freshman. He's still like one of my best friends. He's always there for me. He said that he heard about Ryan dumping me & he wanted to know why, [cuz we're still in love & he totally wants to kick Ryan's a** for hurting me.] I told him & he was really pissed off about that. It turns out that Matt & his girlfriend Raven are having some troubles [she keeps glomping this other guy who is pretty hot & Matt's getting jealous] Matt & I had been planning on getting back together but crap keeps on getting in the way. But he asked me if once him & Raven split if I'd go back out with him. Of course I said yes, so I forgot about my new hatred for Ryan. ^__^ Yay! Matt once again brightened my day!




By reading this you probably think I'm a total whore or something.... but I'm not. I swear! lol. I'm a good girl who wears clothes that cover everything they need to & I brush my teeth! lol.

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