Friday, February 16, 2007

so no real news lately that's of interest. Pivked up the Full Metal Alchemist movie Special Edition a couple of days ago. I already had it fansubbed but wanted the extra features including the artwork postcards. XD

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

   Valentine's Blues

so it's the day before valentine's day so probably no better time then now to write this. Well Valentine's Day for me has always been what I'd like to classify as a Hallmark Holiday. Basically a holiday created by the corporations to cash in on from the general public. You'd think this would just make me ignore the day completely but that's not really the case. I always seem to get majorly depressed during this time of year. It's happened the last 5 or so years and this year is no different. Except for the fact that I feel like I'm more depressed then usual. At the moment I'm putting it possibly down to recent events, see 2 posts below. I think if that had been different then I might have either accepted the day for once, or have just watch go buy with no depressed feelings. But seems that for me it isn't going to be the case. I just really don't know what to do. Oh I've also done a bit of late night drinking again while sitting at the comp. Not today but a few days ago. Anyway here's a poem I came up with that same night after the drinking. Our souls soar amongst the whipsering winds Time seems endless to us A neverending cycle in which we exist The good we recieve out numbered By that which is bad How is it that we allow time to cycle Events repeat that have happened before 10 year, 20 years, maybe 100, even 1000 Before we see it reoccur again But it's a common thing One which we cannot easily ignore The pain and sadness of loss The feeling of being an outcast to society These things never change Hurting more each time they happen Happiness is short lived Only to be crushed again I sit here wondering what I have to do But soon I stop caring Soon I just accept it's the way of life I'm not supposed to find happiness But rather am to remain sad For eternity as the cycle repeats itself

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Sunday, February 11, 2007

Advanced warning

Thought I'd give ya all some warning that I'm probably gonna be putting up some dperessing I hate valentine's day post in the next few days so be on the lookout or not.

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Tuesday, February 6, 2007

  

SO not really sure about myself at the moment. My girlfriend ended up breaking up with me today. Well I wouldn't exactly call it a break up (and I guess I was saying gf prematurely) as we hadn't actually gone out yet and decided to wait till she was back from her trip. Well she's half way back, or to be precise she's finished studying in Japan and is now spending a week or so in Hong Kong with her parents before they come back. Well anyway caught her on MSN today for the first time in 2 months. Thought it was a good thing at first but the line she started out with changed things. For one starting with "Hey David" kinda makes me feel like somethings up, but when she continues with "I know you said a lot of girls just consider you a friend" it was definitely going to be bad. To cut a long story short she told me that she wasn't ready for a relationship which I can easily accept and that we should continue to be friends. Even though I can accept this I can't help feeling a little self centered and feel a bit depressed/sorry for myself. I mean I liked her, a lot, and actually took the step to ask her out which I've never done before. Oh well at least we're still friends.

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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

So as I said in my last post I was going to Big Day Out last weekend. I have to say it was great though I did get sunburnt. Saw some great bands such as Tool, Muse, Violent Femmes, John Buttler Trio and much more. It was an awesome day over all and I had to get a muse T-shirt while I was there. My highlight of the day would of had to have been Muse live as I got to see a lot of the little tricks they use for their music. Ok, on another note here's a question for my female MyO friends: How far are you willing to ruin your dignity in the name of Fashion? You may be wondering what brings on this question so I may as well explain. This morning while on the Tram there was a girl who was wearing a white dress. Might seems normal, but the thing was the dress was practically see-through from the just below the chest down. I mean you could actually see her underwear. I was like WTF. Fashion seems to be going out the window now.

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Saturday, January 27, 2007

so no real new news at the moment. Last night I went to a friends 20th b'day. Had Champagne for the first time ever but never again. Woke up this morning and my mouth was so dry from the champagne that I spent ages drinking various drinks (non-alcoholic) to get rid of the dry taste. Made a new friend at work recently. She's really quite nice, she's australian though her family back ground is malaysian (if I remember right). Anyway seems like a large number of my friends now are girls and from an asian background. Might seem weird that only a few of my friends are male or caucasian, for that matter but I don't mind at all. As for sleeping in the truck, no I wasn't driving I mean I don't even have my license yet. Anyway tomorrow I'm going to Big Day Out which is a music festival.

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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

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SO recently I've been entralled in Playing World of Warcraft: Burning Crusade so haven't had time to post. ANyway now i do so yay. Just over a week ago I said I was drinking and depressed and all and was gonna try and find out why. Well I think I did kinda. I was thinking about it and I was feeling lonely, well that's the small of it. ANyway I usually check my gf's LJ every couple of days to see if she's updated since she's currently studying in Japan. Well she hadn't updated in over a week so I'm thinking that that might have been part of the reason. Anyway I guess that might make me seem a bit clingy or needy, but She is my first girlfriend and I like her quite a bit. I also don't want to screw anything up when she gets back eary next month. I miss her, and I mean we didn't even get to go on a proper date before she went away so I'm even feeling a bit anxious about that. I'll probably calm down either when she gets back or after that first date...but I'll probably stay a stress ball right now.

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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

the joys of summer

so anyway, summer here in aus a pain. 40 degree days (and that's celsius), leading to massive bushfires. Anyway I've been looking forward to the midnight release of the new World of Warcraft expansion for a good month now, but due to the bushfires there have been massive power outages in different areas of the state. Just so happens that one of those areas happens to be the shopping strip in which the store I'm getting the game from is situated. So chances are I'll have to wait at least an extra 9 hours to get it. Edit: about 3 hours after the original post. Power outages hit here and just spent 2.5 hours with no power. Finally came back on, but spent the first hour reading. Second hour had icecream for dinner because my sis and I didn't want to waste it and had no idea if the power would come back on. Same hour watched the dog bob for ice in here water bowl (entertaining stuff), and last 30 mins back to reading.

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Saturday, January 13, 2007

alcomahol (homer simpson style)

So, I'm tired, bored and drinking alcohol while sitting at the computer. In fact I'm drinking one of the midori illusions I got for christmas. Decided to put the pack in the fridge before and now I'm drinking one. I'm not really that big of a drinker, in fact I almost never drink. WHy you may ask. Well to be exact the free things listed above, when mixed together usually lead to my current mood. Really what should I expect, I mean alcohol is a known depressant. Well I guess there are multiple things that could have led me to being depressed but these 3 things seem to have been the most recent and have tipped me over that edge. SO now going through one of my phases again. Trying to pinpoint the key focus of this phase, maybe I'll try again later when I'm not depressed and can think about it properly. Well back to that bottle of midori.

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Tuesday, January 9, 2007

Pride and Prejudice

SO I've just watched the American film version of Pride and Prejudice. I must say that I would have to say it is probably the poorest adaptation of the book I've seen. First to get why I saw this film, I read the book for year 12 Literature and even with studying it which usually ruins a text for me, it has to be one of my favourite texts ever. I also have to say the best adaptation was the mini-series made by the BBC. So issues I had with this film, or to be specific I had issues with the portrayel of a number of the characters. The main ones being Mr Bennett (too cold and dry but none of the dry humor of the novel), Mr Bingley (made to look like a complete idiot), Mr. Collins (too serious and not played as over the top as his character is made out in the novel), Lydia (not as childish as she should be), and Bingley's sister (who seemed less conniving then the novel). The ones character I did not have issues with was Mr Wickham who was the pretty boy he was supposed to be. On another note it was good how they made it so that almost every major sequence from the novel was in the film, however I did not like how they changed some of the sequences. For one, where Darcy proposes to Elizabeth, it was a lot more sharp and the two seemed to attack each other more with scathing words then is made in the book. There was also a lot less emphasis on conversation. Now in my opinion conversation is what makes the book so great but in this film it seem to make it seem less a factor in development, and tries to avoid it as a source for getting across elaborate emotions, feelings and understanding.

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