Saturday, January 22, 2005

Life= crazy. School= busy. Art= uninspired. Laptop= virus-infected piece o' crap.

ARG!
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Whew! It's been a crazy week, and it's only Tuesday.

School started on Monday, but I moved into my dorm Saturday. My roommate didn't show up until Sunday night, so I spent a lot of time over the weekend just trying to figure out what she was like by looking at (but no touching) her stuff. She lived here in the fall, and just hadn't gotten back from the break yet. She seems pretty nice, but is never around. She spends a lot of time with her boyfriend. Suits me fine- more privacy for me.

My laptop is still broken, and may be for several weeks. It all depends on whether the system restore disc I'm still waiting for works. I'm using my roommate's computer (she's cool about letting me use it and her TV, as I haven't gotten one yet) to update.

If only she had Photoshop...

But classes are cool- I'm really liking my painting class so far, even if it is all oils. I've only finished three oil paintings- one was horrible, the other two were great. The only one I of those I have a pic of is this one:



Okay, so it's not fantastic (I don't like the sky color-came out wrong) but it's not bad.

My sculpture class looks to be... interesting, and my Shakespeare class should be pretty cool. The teacher's nice, if a little strict, but I'm confident in my Shakespeare-reading abilities. My teacher last semester was amazed I was a freshman, so that's a good sign, right?

My last class is in about another hour- my Geographic Perspectives class. It's supposed to be all about the Arab-Israeli conflict, so it should be interesting... I hope.

And I'm already meeting WAY more people than I did last semester. I made a total of three friends here last sem, because I didn't live on campus and never went anywhere but classes.

And I'll be coming home on weekends, and be able to visit my friends there. So my life is getting pretty busy already, which will give me less time to sit around and do nothing but play on the computer, so I probably won't be on as much. Sorry!
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Tuesday, January 4, 2005

Oh yeah, I got back about two days ago.

Haven't been on all that much, as my laptop died (this time, it looks like the hard drive's kaput) but luckily I had most of my files backed up, almost everything important, in fact, except our vacation pictures. x.x My dad was going to kill me.

But there's still a small chance of hope that the guy at circuit city was wrong. In order to send it in for repair, they make me do a lot of stuff in order to make sure it really is the hard drive that's broken. One of the steps was to run a recovery disc, but as my computer didn't come with one, I had to order it from HP and because my manufacturer's warranty is expired, and my other two years are with Circuit City, I had to pay $15 for it. (grumble grumble)

Anyways, I have to wait 5-7 business days to get it, which means repair of my laptop is prolonged at least that amount of time. Classes start monday, so I'm hoping it'll hurry up and fix itself.

But I did happen to burn a bunch of e-cards I made onto disc, so I'll still be updating things, but after I run out, I don't know what else I'll put out. I was quite disappointed to see I had dropped off the list of favorite gnomes in my abscence, and I'm still a good 350 sends away from the bottom of the list. *sighs*
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Friday, December 17, 2004

Vacation
I'm leaving for two weeks. See ya! Merry Christmas! And happy new year!
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Saturday, November 20, 2004

Woohoo! My e-cards have been sent 1500 times. O.o
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

I know I said I wasn't going to post anymore for a while, and even if I did still post artwork and stuff, it was a lot less than I usually do. I'm proud of myself.

And for several weeks, I was really good about not even coming to this site.

But there was a slight lull in homework... and I found myself returning. So I guess I'm back, but don't expect too much from me, please. I'm still a college student, and I'm still trying hard to put my studies first. I'm doing better, but I still find myself getting caught up in distractions. We'll see how it goes.
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Friday, October 15, 2004

Goodbye for now!
I think I'm not going to be updating for a little while. This has more to do with schoolwork than anything else, but I just don't feel like doing much anime stuff right now. I think I'm growing out of it.

Of course, I've said that a million times before, and it always passes. We'll see what happens.

The thing that's turning me off anime right now is that I can't do NON-anime things as well anymore. I haven't been dedicating myself as much to realistic art as I should, and I've realized it's becoming increasingly difficult for me to write anything that's not a fanfic anymore. How am I ever going to succeed at these things if anime keeps getting in the way?

What brought this on? A visit to my high school, where all my teachers wanted to know what I was doing and where I was going and where I was headed. And I didn't have much to tell them. I'm still so lazy and such a slacker. Yet despite all my procrastination and laziness, they still believe in me. Can we say guilt trip? I felt really bad when my English teacher told me how I was going to be big, and how he'd be looking for my books someday.

So I've decided I need to stop taking life so passively- letting things I should hold onto slowly slip by. I want to be passionate about things again, instead of taking such a lethargic view of life.

So I'm cutting out my distractions. I'll still be around, maybe, just not near as much. It really is time for me to grow up.

~ Megumi
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Tuesday, October 12, 2004

I'm surprisingly happy go lucky today. I think this place has been depressing me, because I never write as many sad entries in all my other journals as I do here.

So, what can I say in a happy entry? There's no particular reason for me being happy, but there's no reason for me to be sad either, and I much prefer to be happy.

School is spiffy. Art class is fun, though I'm probably not applying myself as hard as I should. My prof seems to like me, so I get away with it. I don't know why my teachers always like me... I never give them reason to. I'm always lazy and late and procrastinate, all my projects second rate, and never follow due dates. Good lord I'm rhyming... >.<

The only part I haven't enjoyed about art was the nude models. The traumatizing, fat, MALE model, to be more specific. But I already went into that a little. No need to dwell on the past.

So yeah, I was so PO'ed about my overall fanart rating dropping three percentage points, but now I'm just more motivated to make it back up. It's funny, cause everyone called me a jerk... but I didn't even vote on any of Dark Phoenix's artwork except the one picture, didn't leave comments on anything except the picture and my own journal. I didn't leave crap in her journal or guestbook, nor Milkycat's. I didn't slander her as a person or artist, I simply said it must be traced. If she was confident it wasn't, she should have just taken it as a compliment of her copying skills. When I had a problem with Milkycat, I pmed her instead of announcing it to the whole world.

Crap. I'm ranting again. I'm happy. HAPPY. *forces a smile, which ends up only making her look deranged.*

See? This place depresses me. I don't even know why I bother.



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Monday, October 11, 2004

In between yesterday and today, my fanart percentage dropped three points and every picture I've posted got two negative votes each.

I would appreciate it if people who are ticked off at me wouldn't take it out on my artwork. It's a pretty childish way to treat things. It's getting personal, and there was never meant to be anything personal in my comment.
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Saturday, October 9, 2004

Please, don't read. Me venting= not a pretty sight.
Yeah, I really need to calm down right now. I let my temper get the best of me too often, and I always end up saying the exact thing to make whoever I'm angry at angry at me, or more so, if they already were.

As I am right now, I'm ready to go chew out a few people. This is very unbecoming of me, and I need to grow up and get out of this childish attitude that makes me want to retaliate. I've already said too much.

And all these people keep telling me I should watch out, not to tick off Milkycat anymore (is that a threat or something? Is she going to come beat me up and take my lunch money? An online bully?) or that I'm such a jerk, all these people who aren't involved. Milkycat wasn't even involved. I hate that, how people stick their noses in.

AND HOW AM I THE ONLY PERSON IN THE WORLD WHO SEES HOW OBVIOUS IT WAS THAT IT WAS TRACED? I mean, LOOK at it. Seriously!



*Sighs* It's not even about whether it was traced or not anymore. It's about the fact that the artist herself simply laughed it off, but all these people felt like they had to be a "Justice Crusader" or other such nonsense and rail on and on about how much of a jerk I was for DARING to suggest that her art was traced, even though the evidence CLEARLY shows it is.

See, I'm still being childish. I need to not let people get to me so much. I need to get out of this bitter/angry funk I've been in for waaay too long now. I need to let go, and remember that it's okay if people don't believe me, even if I know I'm right.

So sorry, people, for showing such an ugly side of myself. I don't need consoling comments, or any more nasty ones, I just need to post this, get it out of my system, and move on.
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