Sunday, June 20, 2004

I'm back!
Hi! I'm back from the Philippines. Good times. Too much to say, not near enough little time. Left one of my sketchbooks in Cebu. There were a few really good pics in there too that I hadn't scanned yet. Heartbreaking.
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Tuesday, June 1, 2004

Guess what?
I didn't mention this, but I'm going to the Philippines for 2 weeks on a mission trip. I'm leaving Sunday. And I get a layover in Tokyo, so I'll have been to Japan for a whole 2 hours! :o Exciting. Anyways, so I won't be around for a while... not that I'm on that much anyways... >.>
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Thursday, May 27, 2004

I hate my life...
I'm stuck working for my dad pretty much every day of the summer. I despise it... but what can I do? My parents are really strict, and even though I'm 17, I have to follow their every rule or they come up with excessive punishments. It's my last summer before I go off to college and actually have to grow up and start worrying about money and stuff, and I'm spending all day at work, and when I finally get home at night I'm exhausted, so I shower, eat, and sit around like a zombie until it's time to go to bed. I want to go have fun, but I have no car, and no one to take me places. I'm so sick of this, and it's only really been a week. X.x I'll be lucky if I'm alive come fall.
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Friday, May 21, 2004

Yay!
I gradu-ma-lated today! XD Wheeeeeeeeee! *spins around* @.@

Yeah, I'm all hyped an' stuff. See ya!
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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

The End ;_;



Tomorrow’s my last real day of school, and, quite frankly, it’s scary. I mean, I’m excited- but sad, and a little nervous. I mean, all these people I’ve been going to school with for the past four years, and some of them, for seven... I won’t ever see them on a daily basis again.

Throughout elementary school, I changed schools every year, but since 6th grade, I’ve been in the same school, so I don’t really have anything to compare it to. Everybody’s going away, and it makes me very sad. I think the only thing I regret about high school is not getting to know so many people that I wanted to. All those people in my classes that I only talked to a few times, but they seemed like great people... well, I’ll never have the chance to get to know them now.

I think the saddest thing in the world that we’ll never have enough time to see and feel and know everything.
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Saturday, May 1, 2004

Heh.
Since they put this new feature where it says how many comments there are on your pics, I just realized a lot of my old ones had comments on them. I never check them after the first two day they're up, so I was surprised. One of them was from Milky Cat when we had our disagreement, so I replied to it, but I doubt she'll ever read it now.

But it just reminded me to thank all those people who check up on my art all the time, even when I never update, and who always leave nice things to say about them. ^_^
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Tuesday, April 20, 2004

My crazy life @.@
I've had the busiest week in my life last week, I think. Prom and Antigone, my school play, fell on the same weekend, so I was rehearsing all week for one, and rushing to prepare all week for the other. I decided last minute to go to prom, so it was all a little thrown together,but it all worked out in the end. Antigone went well. I had a small part (Eurydice, Creon's wife, Haemon's mother, Antigone's aunt and future mother in law... those Greeks had some messed up family lines...) and so I didn't have too much to remember, thank goodness, but still, just having to be there all the time and getting costumed and makeup-ed in order to make me look like an old lady was tiresome. Now I'm miles behind in schoolwork and every other aspect of my life. But, I think it was worth it. I had a lot of fun, made some friends.
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Friday, April 9, 2004

I'm Back!
Not that anyone really knew I was gone... I've been on vacation for a week, without any form of internet. ;_; Oh I missed you, my computer. *snuggles*
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Monday, March 29, 2004

Having the "sighs" again...
I'm at a low point right now. You know, one of those times when everything seems so blase, or just plain sucky. So, I might actually post something personal in this poor excuse for a journal.

Why am I so down? It's a lot of things... the fact that I don't have a car, and get stuck at home so often while my friends go out and do stuff... (kinda silly, isn't it? but a lot of silly things can add up to make life sucky) I haven't gone anywhere with friends for weeks. All summer I was busy, going to the movies, the coffee shop, just hanging out and doing stuff, but then school came and my parents get mad at me if I go somewhere on a school night, so I stopped doing stuff. And apparently, all my friends forgot about me. I spend Friday nights, the only night I can really go anywhere, home being depressed. I got tired of always begging for rides and having to ask people to take me everywhere, so I just gave up.

College is bugging me too. I'm already accepted to college, got my scholarships and everything, but I still have to work out where I'm going to live. In addition to having my tuition and books completely paid, I get $3000 a year in scholarship money. If I live on campus, that'll all go to the dorm. No car, and I have to pay for food/living expenses from my imaginary bank account.

The college is about 45 mins from where I live, so I'm considering commuting. Pros: I get a car, I don't have to buy food/ pay rent, cons: I have to live at HOME. Is it worth it? I don't know.

School's being a pain too. We're supposed to do these senior project things, the paper of which was due second quarter, and we're supposed to be presenting now. I didn't do the paper (wasn't worth my time) and now they're suddenly saying if we didn't do the paper, we can't present. I already got points taken off my second quarter English grade for not having the paper, which I was fine with, but the presentation is worth 10% of all 4th quarter grades. That really really sucks. My only consolation is that it's the second semester of my senior year, and it doesn't matter much.

Speaking of senior year, I have no prom date, no prom dress, no money, which means I'm probably not going to my senior prom. I have mixed feelings about this- I'm relieved because it's a lot of bother and stress, but worried I'll regret it. It's kinda sad not to go to your senior prom. I know if I stay home that night I'll spend the whole night rueing it.

What else is bothering me? Oh... the crush. This is going to sound ridiculously silly to most people, because you won't understand my frame of mind. I don't believe in casual dating. At all. I think there's no point in getting into a relationship that isn't serious, and no point in getting into a serious relationship unless marriage is a very real possibility. What am I saying? I won't date until I'm ready to get married. Yeah, I know it sounds strange, but it's a very strong personal belief I have. Saves me from a lot of heartache.

So, the problem really is that even though I choose not to date, I'm still emotionally fallible, and I still have hormones. Needless to say, I've had a crush on a guy for a long time, and there's not a bloody thing I can do about it. He's of the same belief about dating as I am, and freakishly polite about everything. He's super nice, and friends with everyone, but that means I'm no more friends with him than anyone else. It's very frustrating.

Ah well. There's my "sad times" spiel. I think I'll go kill myself now. x.x

(not literally)
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Saturday, March 20, 2004

Moving on...
Yeah, I don't want to make this a rant place or a soapbox... really, I don't. So, on to other stuff.

I'm working on a POTC fanfic, and having a great deal of fun with it. I'm planning on making it a manga someday (hence why I've been posting the Jack Sparrow pictures) it just took me watching the movie for the third time to actually sit down and write some of the story that's been floating in my head.

I wonder if I really should call it a POTC fanfic, because it's about the actual actors, not the characters from the movie... hmmm...

Anyways, when i get enough written to call a chapter, maybe I'll post a link here or something.

That's about all I have to write about at the moment- my life's pretty boring.
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