Friday, July 9, 2004

   1:17
early and happy. the computer is doing some what better. playing wiith aol's im. i meet people. we are insulting the drugys that live near me.
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Thursday, July 8, 2004

   bad bad bad and sleepy
ok things are not going my way my computer is messing up. it took forever to write my quizilla thing and i nver did edit it properly. daddy made gensing tea and i am not loving it not to mention it burned my lip. i normally don't tan/burn but all my walking today has left my shoulders pink. i am sleep and god does not want me to adopt a demon because i swear evertime i get to that site my computer freezes. i think i will go to bed and just make everything go way. but first i have to wash the dishes which i am hoping that if i stay out of the kict. long enough 1 mom will do them or 2 no one will care. anyway i am going to try to slip off to bed. on the plus side my brother still has not come home.
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Wednesday, July 7, 2004

   toady today
today i was going to post just after midnight but my music, myotaku, and my adoption site froze the computer so i decided to give it a break. i have just finished my walk and for some reason today i just felt liek being out. i walked three times farther then normal and feel great about. i walked down to lullwater down sims, california and peace street and back. i fweel that only shasta will know what i am talking about but oh well. did get second part of story up before the comp. froze yesterday so thats good. my gif is not working so in it's place i will be putting a demon. if i can find one that i like. he will be perment unless he messes up my site.
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Tuesday, July 6, 2004

pg 2
Lying there in my room quietly was one of the hardest things I had to do. I was so ready to get up and leave. I wanted to check to see if my parents were asleep every second. But I knew that is I got up then they would be sure to keep an eye on me to make sure I actually slept. After what felt like hours I finally allowed myself to get up and check on my parents. Their door was shut but I could hear voices. I slowly crept closer to their door. They were awake and they were talking about me none the less. It appeared that my history teacher had told on me about sleeping in her class. I listened only for a little while and then went back to my room. This time as I lay there on my bed at least I had something besides what I was planning on doing tonight to think about. I was able to think of way to get Mrs. K back for telling. Of course the actions that I took against her were all centered on what my parents decided to do to me. If they did little or nothing then my actions would be small. If it was a large punishment or a lecture then it had to be something big. I lay there for sometime after I had bored myself with ways of getting back at Mrs. K. it felt like I had laid there looking up at the ceiling for hours but in truth it had only been about forty five minutes. I get up once again and o to check on my parents. This time they were asleep. Finally I think to myself as I head back to my room and get dressed in my gothic queen outfit. I gaze at myself in the mirror quickly as I prepare to leave my room. I straighten up the clothes smoothing some wrinkle and straightening up the line. I thought I looked stunning and I hoped that everyone else would too. I run down the stairs carefully and slip out the door. I loved the rush I got sneaking out of the house to explore the dark city streets. It didn’t take me long to find a group of people to join in with. The group did not seem to care that I joined and the talked on including me when I decided to jump into the conversation. But like the last time that I was out I soon became bored with the group and wondered off. But this time I was followed. One of the girls from the group decided that she would like to join me. She was really nice but you could tell she was really unsure if it was okay that she was there. She stayed some ways back for awhile. Finally when I was tired of having her shadow me like that I stopped and told her that if she was going to walk with me she needed to be up here with me. A wide smile covered her face as she ran up to me. She introduced herself as Jessica and I smiled back at her. “Hi,” I said sweetly, “I’m Ash.” We talked as we walked and that is where I learned that she was new to the town and did not know here way around. I took to this shy girl quickly. Though I was not the kind of person you would think would be proper to teach a sweetie like her how to act in my city at night I taught her what I could. We wandered the city for sometime and then decided that it would be best to head back to our homes. I walked her to her intersection and we made plans to meet the following night. I watched her walk off and started to head home. On the way I passed the same bar from a few nights back. Again I stuck me head inside. It was really crowded tonight just as it had been before. I look over all the people. There is something weird about some of them but I can’t put my finger on it. Some look up from their drinks, which by the way are this really thick dark red looking color, yuck, and gaze at me. Someone in one of the dark corners catches my eye. I can’t say why but for some reason I have this dais-vu about him. I seem to be drawn to him but I shake the felling off and continue home. Again after leaving the bar I feel as if I am bring followed but this time I don’t let it bother me. I get home at about four thirty and go to bed. Again in my dreams a pair of beautiful silver eyes haunted me. The dream lasts all morning and I am tired as if I had really been running like in my dreams. I play it off telling myself that it is just from going out. I get up and go about my day normally. I do everything thing that I can to kill time so that the night will come faster. Only Alice, one of my closest friends, notices that something is a miss about the way that I am acting. She presses a little trying to find out what is wrong. She excepts my excuse that I just need sleep because I haven’t been getting any due to nightmares and doesn’t ask anymore questions. She did not seem to really believe me but she drops the subject seeing that I don’t want to talk about it. We went out to the mall and just explored until the sun started to set and then at Alice’s request we ran home. Alice is an innocent that was scared to death about the stories that had been going around about all the people that had been found dead hurt on just gone missing. She was determined to get home before the sunset so nothing would happen to her. She acted as though she thought there were monsters out in the dark. I was happy to run her home because she was my friend. I left her at her door and promised that I would run home. And I did run at least until her house was out of sight and then I calmly walked to my home. I got home at around eight forty five. Mom was in the kitchen finishing up dinner and dad was in the living room watching the most recent foot ball game. Wash up mom yelled to me as I entered the house. Dinner will be done as soon. Sure I yelled as I continued to my room. I sat on my bed and waited for supper. As I lay back from boredom I begin to slip into sleep. I did not realize that I was sleepy until it became hard for me to hold my eyes open. I finally let myself fall asleep knowing that soon mom would wake me up to eat and so there was no chance that I would sleep all night. In my dreams I saw the eyes again. Glowing in their brilliant silver color. But this time they did not scare me but they called to me. The eyes slowly widened and I fell deep into them.
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ok about my story this is how i will try to keep it because i took on a story on quizilla at about the same time i will be doing the one here on tuesday thursday and saterday, i will be doing my quizilla stuff monday wednesday and friday. this will keep them both up with out over working my poor brain and will give me sunday off or at least let me use it to catch up maybe if i work it might be a day to get ahead. following the above schedule i will post as soon as i get back on my computer were it is saved and off the big computer.
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   wahhh....
my computer is freaking out on me. it's not right. why is it going so slow. i had to go to the big computer. that put me within range of my mom's comands.
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Monday, July 5, 2004

   better better better
so after a long shower i feel a little better. i will go out in the rain tonight once mom and daddy go to bed to get the remaining kinks out. my music thing finally added linkin parks breaking the habit to its video list my brother has gheaded off to my aunt and mom got attacked by a swarm of bees. today just got drasicly better.
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   unnnn....
mom is on her way into my room to make me give the phone to my brother. then bug me. my whole body aches from the beating i got yesterday and the fact that i forced myself to walk today even though i hurt all over kind of didn't help. that stupid dog on my street attached me and tried to bite me so i had to kick it but i don't think it will mess with me again. have to do my brothers dishs because i fell asleep last night and forgot to do mine. but at least i am making progress with my room work outs and stories.
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   weee.....
the fourth was so fun. i added a story to here. an rpq to quizilla. got to go over to granny's my sister did forget me though. ate big lunch at granny's. then when to play with my cousins. the boys wrestled and i got to watch the beat each other up. then we played cards and had a james bond tournament. we jjumped on the trampoline and played on a gaint slip in slide. no one told me to bring a bathing suit so i went in pants and a tee until i got welled at by granny and was made to wear one of my aunts suits. i didn't match because i had to wear a top from one and bottom from another, (she has a larger butt and smaller boobs.) all the boys looked at me funny because i don't think any of them were expecting me to actually play with the little girls on the slide. it was fun. everyone of the adults were laughing at us. aside from a few of my eldest guy cousins friends which were kind of being prevs (one actually had the nerve to grab my butt. unn.. at least my cousins hit him for it)and this little girl that became like attached to my arm it was really cool. there was the getting a little to rough with me that normally happens but it was cool. my uncle almost literally threw me out of my set on the couch so he could sit there and my boys (levi and tim (eldest boy cousins 1 to 2 yrs. my younger))punched me alot for no go reason. one said i need to be tougher and not let guys pick on me (while picking on me) and the other just does it because i was mean to him when we were little. then i got home and daddy let me order my chinese from my restraunt. i piged on the food and ended up with a tummy ache. and thinking over things now i think it is good that i didn't have my bikini because i don't think that i wanted my cousins friend droole all over my good suit. anywho it was cool. i l
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Sunday, July 4, 2004

story
this is for all of you that asked to see my work. mind that it is still a work in progress like most of my work. i will post a little every other day that way it will give me time to work on my quizilla stuff and stuff for my friends as well. it's called a new beginning. tthis will be page one. at the moment i have three pages and will have to work on it to keep regular posts. i advize you to copy paste it onto word or something to read it that way you can read at whatever pase and backread or something that is what i do. well enjoy.

The darkness had always intrigued me. It had always been a place of mystery and adventure. A time, were sleep seldom came. Tonight was no difference. I lay awake in my bed. I tried to sleep. Closing my eyes and lying there but it did not help. I got up and roamed my house. I could hear my parent’s television and see the dim light it cast into the hall. I went back to my room just in case they were awake. Again I tried to sleep. I lay there for what seemed like an eternity and still could not rest. It was getting late and I knew that I would have to be getting up early but that didn’t matter. Once again I got up to roam the house. My parent’s television was still on. I silently crept to their door and look in. They are asleep. Dad gives off a loud snore as I slowly close their door. I wonder around a little more and finally decide I will go out side. I knew of all the weird things that a have been happening at night but that just fueled my curiosity more. I quietly walk down stairs. I am aware of all the noise I make. I hear the door creek as I slowly open it. I pray that my parents don’t wake up. I slide out the little crack I make and am gone. I plan to come back when the sun starts to rise and to get a little sleep. This way my parents will never know that I went out. I wonder through the dark streets. It is surprisingly crowded. I slip into a group of people about my age and join in with their conversation. No one notices that I don’t belong. I don’t stay with them long soon I am bored with them and slip out to explore on my own. I walk through many crowded until I find some more deserted one. I wonder happily through them and take in all the sites, sounds, and smells around me. It was great. I loved the feeling of freedom and peace it gave me just to be out there. Just before daybreak I start to head home. As I wonder past I bar I stop to look in. there are many people in there. Some stop and look at me. One guy in particular catches my attention. His eyes mesmerize me for a second but break the steady gaze as someone runs into me. I turn and leave. As I continue the walk home I can’t shake the feeling that I am being watched. I sudden sound startles me and I turn around quickly. Nothing is there but shadows. I turn around and walk a little quicker to my house. I arrive home shortly and open the front door just enough for me to slip in. as I close it I hear a noise again. It is a loud clattering noise. Gazing out the door I see a cat run into the shadows of a near by ally. A cat just knocked over a garbage can I tell myself and slowly shut the door. I went up the stairs and slowly crept past my parent’s room. They were both snoring and the television was still on. They never even knew that I went out I thought to myself as I went into my room and shut the door. I changed into some pajamas so they wouldn’t be able to tell I was gone last night and went to bed. I woke up the next morning to the sound of mom in the kitchen. I got dressed and went down to get breakfast. Did you sleep well she asked as I walked into the dinning room. So she really didn’t know that I went out I thought to myself gleefully. Yes, very, I answered her. I was on able to sneak out for the next couple of days it seemed as if my parents were planning on becoming night owls or something. From what I could tell the stayed up talking most of the night. The caught me up checking on them once. I was able to make up a quick lie and told them that I was having a hard time sleeping. Dad gave me some sleeping pills that the doctor had given him a while back and watched me take hem. The things worked and I was asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. The first night I took the pills was one of the most restful nights of sleep I had ever gotten. I did not dream but that did not bother me because I didn’t dream al that often. The next day dad gave me the pills again and again watched me take them. This time the sleep was not that pleasant, I tossed for most of it in a restless sleep. I had dreams of silvery eyes watching me and of blood. I would wake up in a cold sweat only to be put back to sleep into the same dream. My parents played it off saying that it was just a bad dream and that I had always had them and as true as that was this seemed to be more then a dream. I went a week on the pills dad gave me and then he stopped giving them to me. He thought that they were giving me the dreams and for all I knew they were. All I knew was that they had started the night after I went out and after going out that one night I desperately wanted to go out again and the need to sneak out grew more with each day that I was unable. The night dad stopped giving me the piles again they stayed up all night. When I fell asleep waiting on them and I again had the dream. I was still totally sleepy when it came time to get up but I went about my day normally and was not even tired until about noon. I took a quick nap in my fifth period history class and was wide-awake by the end of school. I went out with some of my friends shopping after school and found a couple of new outfits. I planned on wearing one out tonight when I went out. I got home and went through my purchases. I decided to wear a red and black strapless corset top and a pair of black jeans, which had a red vain design. I would wear my knee-high boots and pull my hair up into a kind of sixties messed up look. I would were my make up dark and my crescent and star pendant necklace. I set my clothes out on my desk and slightly covered them so that anyone snooping would just over look them as just a messy pile. I acted as normal as I could so no one would be suspicious of me. Doing my chores but complaining as I did them. Getting ready for school and whining about having to go to bed even though I wasn’t sleepy. When my parents finally got me to go to be I could tell that they were totally tired and I knew they would be out very quickly.
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