Saturday, May 21, 2005

   it's here.....

i went shoppin yesterday and got 3 new cute dresses. originally we were just looking for something that i could wear under my robe but that works to cause i liked them and dispite the fact that i don't really wear dresses i promised that i would. it is 7:30 and i am waiting on my ride to come and get me. i expect him to be a little late cause that is just the way he is. my friend did a drop by visit. although she really just wanted to use the ophone. she will be moving today into a bigger house slightly farther away. i think later she is recruiting me to help her unpack her things. which i don't have a problem with cause she has packed some of my thing and i aim to get them back and cause she said i could borrow some of her movies. i think i want to borrow her fruits basket. gtg.

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Friday, May 20, 2005

   time to whin and rant

ok so here is the skinny. i can't do this i was trying really hard to lose my weight but u swear everyone is against me and when your friends get together and pull out the cole brownies and ice cream you know it just wasn't meant to be. i tried really hard but there is no way i can stand against that. graduation is tomorrow and i have to go shopping for a dress today. i really don't want to graduate. i am talking with one if my friend that i lost touch with but that might just be because it is 12am and there is nothing else to do and no one is on. i should be asleep cause i have to get up early for practice but i am not able to sleep. i have been playing on a doll maker cause my retarded ADHD bf has been ignoring me for the past hour so he can watch tv, love his queen my ass. and yes that is what he calls me and no it was his ideal. and maybe he won't ever stop but you know what thise would have been the what 5 or 6 time that he has forgotten about me just today.

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

one day left

tomorrow is graduation practice. man i hate it. i don't want tohave all my friends moving around and go to far off places. i will never see some of them again and i can't stand the thought of losing them all. as for me i have been going thru some college books and seeing what classes are offered. i am leaning to early childhood education. be an elementary school teacher. as much as i don't want to be stuck in so getting no where job that pays nothing that is the courses that appeal the most to me. what to do what to do. anyway 3pm+ and i am so totally tempted to steal my brothers candy and soda. not doing it though. would be easier if i was just allowed to walk around alone. no i had to make a promise to an overprotective friend that i would never go out on my own. you have a few run ins with some preverts and you are the one that is in a sense punished. oh well. loves you all.

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

   learning and growing

see i am learning new things everyday. i have to say that it is thanks to all the ppl that try to help me and that i love. so i was out and forgot that i took my bra off. it kinda was digging ^_^;; anyway the bad part was that i was at the mall and kinda bouncing to get my money out of my pocket... the thing that i didn't notice is that i was well umm bouncing.. like boobs. i got alot of looks. i swear i didn't mean to and the guys i was out with looked like they were about to beat some ppl in the head. i got repremanded for not knowing what was going on. oh well i'm learning. in other news i'm going on a diet why cause i want to get back down to my normal 120 lbs. i mean i hate all the extra weight i have gained and even if everyone won't support myin my attempts i am going to get rid of the extra weight. sadly i had to give all my candy and soda stashes to my little brother so i wasn't tempted by them. and it would be so much easier if ppl would stop trying to lure me off with sweets and stuff. in their defense you can't really see the extra weight i have gained and when not watched i am prone to be anorexic. love you all and peace out. *disappears in a puff of smoke* lol that'd be fun.

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

   sleepy.........

and i kicked the side walk to..... i need to sleep but can't vause i am waiting for my cousin and brother to pass out. graduating next thursday and really don't want to. i want to go back in time and never have to face all my friends leaving and me being on my own. am going to do nothing for the next week until i have graduation. just sleep, maybe some time with frinds bf and ehh screw family thay are a pain in my ass, literaly.

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

howdy people

i'm truely sorry for not updating until now but my life has been hell. now that the year is whinding down i have nore free time. i still haven't really figured that much out and i will still be working at things but i feel that i have neglected many people that i love. to all of you i am sorry for that. i don't know if any of you still care but i don't mean it. to all of you that i can tell this to in person i am sorry that i have not been around for you and if you would just listen to me i would try to make it better. to all of you that i can't see anymore i am still sorry.

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Saturday, February 19, 2005

sorry sorry sorry

i have been not only really out of it but really busy. i have my senior projects to do, friends family, and school. i haven't been able to focus at all on anything and today have decided to sit down and try and do this. i am not going anywhere but i might not be able to post everyday. the computer is kicking me and i have to work it out. going to try harder to get things done and still have time for me. and time for me means time on the internet and time with friends. ok so i was not paying much attention to what i was typing so it probably has meany errors. no time to stop and check. sorry love you all. tah.

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Sunday, February 6, 2005

YAY!

i went out for my walk although it was later in the day i still got it. i was at my granny's and went out with my cousins. i went to the park and to the movies. wedding dates was a good movie but i would have still liked to watch hide and seek or bogeyman. oh well. taco bell and back at home at midnight.

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Saturday, February 5, 2005

sunrises and walks

i sat in my living room watch the sunrise over the mountain. you will never get a better veiw then from my house. i was going to go walking but my walking buddy never showed up so i blew it off. i said we would walk in the morning and later i said around 7. i'm thinking that those facts never linked up to mean 7 am. ppl are so slow now a days. i am waiting for the call to say "i'm sorry i forgot" or "they wouldn't let me" or "it's not 7 yet". oh well at least i managed to get some free time on the computer.

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Tuesday, February 1, 2005

sleep is a good thing

after i got home nothing happened yesterday cause i went to bed. a bad day at school left me really upset and jumpy so instead of yelling at everyone i came i contact with i slept. i do have to apologize to those that i did yell at but i can do that.

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