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Female Location • A broken paradise in a shattered reality on a desolate planet in a bleeding galaxy in a dying universe Member Since • 2006-04-07 Occupation • Leader of the Suicide Butterfly X-Squad assassin team for Mercury Force by night, but by day I'm a lowly college student... Real Name • Excel
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Achievements • Defending the galaxies from Organization X...Getting into college...Finding the PERFECT man (sorry, ladies, he's mine now, and I'm not giving him up!)... Anime Fan Since • um...9th grade... Favorite Anime • Saiyuki, Hellsing, Angel Sanctuary, Naruto, Fruits Basket, Fullmetal Alchemist, Bleach, Trigun, Death Note, Yami no Matsuei, D.Gray-Man, Chobits, Ergo Proxy Goals • ...To take over the universe!!! And to get a AAA on DDR... And serve Lord Mercury...To own a retarded fish...AND COMPLETE THE ENTIRE SAIYUKI SERIES!!! XD Hobbies • drawing, getting on people's nerves, licking my friends' faces, and other stuff..AND FLYING!!! And obviously defending you UNGRATEFUL humans from Organization X!! DDR is fun... Talents • I draw...I can fly!! I have the ultimate power of annoyance... And I can kick X's butt!! >.< DDR is fun...
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Sorry I didn't post yesterday. I was just so busy! I got my Bleach AMV finished. If you wanna check it out, click the link at the bottom of my post that invites you to step into my video realm. There you can see my other work as well.
Well, last night I broke my record for staying on the phone. Me and Inu talked for THREE AND A HALF HOURS!!! I really had fun. He has shown me that not all guys are perverted freaks who only want to talk about sex. In fact, our conversation turned to that subject for one brief moment, and it was I who directed it that way, and I did that because I found this book in Mantha's desk about great sex, and I was laughing at it, and he asked what I was laughing at. But yeah, mostly we talked about video games, manga, anime, and how stupid our friends can be.
*does the Sunshine Dance of Happiness*
Well, I can't post any of Firefox Conspiracy yet. I haven't written any more on it. I'm going to wait until I have at least five pages written. Sorry to make you wait so long. Also, I will not be posting a poem. Again...Instead, I will be posting the "Ding Dong Song", in FF7: AC style! I found this on YouTube last night. It's so funny! So, enjoy this bit of randomosity!
Excel¤~
¤~~Due to lack of interest, today's quote has been cancelled~~¤
Well, I've started a new Bleach AMV. I'm using the song "Thoughtless", a Korn cover by Evanescence. Amy Lee has a beautiful voice. And the song is beautiful too.
I'm in the middle of doing laundry here on campus. It's my first time to use the college laundry system. I went home the first three weekends. And for those of you who don't know, yes, I'm a college freshman. Please, do not freak out. I've had a couple people be really shocked when they find out I'm in college.
Oh! I've started up another story! I'm using my old title, Firefox Conspiracy, but I'm basing it off of Final Fantsy X. Let me know if you want to read it, and I'll post it as I write it. I don't have much written right now. Two pages in Microsoft Word. That's not a lot. As for my other stories, the only one that's going anywhere is Keeper of the Innocent. It's being written in an actual notebook with an actual pencil. But there's about twenty pages to it, so far. I'm at a bit of a block on it, but I am determined to finish that story!
Well, again, I'm not posting a poem. Sorry to those of you who were looking forward to it. I'll post one tomorrow.
LOVE AND PEACE!!!
Excel¤~
¤~~I'm on the outside, I'm lookin in, I can see through you, see your true colors, cause inside you're ugly, you're ugly like me, I can see through you, see to the real you~~¤
Ok, so now my site's theme is...*dun-dun-DUNH!!!!* EMO!!!! Yep. I said it. Emo. I made my avatar, background, and video. Please do not attempt to steal them. If you steal these items, or anything else from my site, you WILL be HUNTED DOWN and then BEATEN SENSELESS, followed by a nice, refreshing DIRT NAP!!!!
Anyways, me and Mantha just got back from the mall. We bought matching POTC shirts from Hot Topic. I also got fishnet armwarmers and a button that has Cheese (from Foster's Home) on it! We both spent $20 on lipgloss and eye shadow at Victoria's Secret. And I finally got a blue jean mini skirt and those footless tights with lace at the bottom. I'm all happy now! I can look punk! Woohoo!
Let me see now....Oh! Uh....Nothing else really happened. Hmmmm...I had a weird dream last night. About Aaron. It was kinda scary. I dreamt he was trying to rape me, and he had succeeded in tearing my clothes off, and I ran from my house to his house (which looked nothing like our real houses), and I found his mom (who didn't look like his mom), and I told her, and she yelled at him and stuff.
O.o
Maybe I shouldn't eat chocolate right before I go to bed anymore....
Well, here's a poem. It's about how...Well, you can figure out what it's about! Please leave all thoughts and criticisms in the form of a comment!
"Love Me"
"But I love you."
Yeah? Prove it.
You say you love me,
But you're wasting your breath.
I know what you want.
You kill me, baby.
You kill me with your words.
Stab me with that lie,
Pierce my heart,
Let me bleed to death,
Watch me fade.
Smile when you do it,
Smile so I can die in self-derision.
Once I've died to you,
Once I've given myself up,
Bury me with your goodbye,
Because you love me.
Excel¤~
¤~~Everybody with your fist raised high, let me hear your battlecry~~¤
Yeah, so I talked to him again last night. The guy who lives over 600 miles away. I really like talking to him! Needless to say, I didn't do my algebra homework, but that's beside the point. I got it done a few minutes ago...Anyways, it's great to have a guy friend who you feel you can talk to about anything. I mean, a lot of the time, I don't really care to hear about stupid girly crap. That's why most of my friends back home are either boys, or they act like boys. I hate drama. But anyways, me and dude have a lot in common. We spent almost an hour talking about nothing but video games! Yeah, you're probably like, "Wtf? Is she on crack? Who cares about video games?" Well, I'm a dork, so get over it.
Um, Wednesday, I went to a local coffee house. They were having this contest for local artists to paint the empty wall space. I submitted a sketch of mine. It's in my portfolio. It's the little fairy sitting on the mushroom. Go check it out and tell me what you think! The lady who took it from me was all like, "How sweet! It's so good!" I think I might get to paint it up on the wall! I won't be the only one. They're gonna let several of us have wall space. But it's still an honor to have MY ART on a coffee house wall!
Um, I got my emo kids video done. You can check it out at YouTube. Search the channels for CherryExcel. It'll be the first video on there. I was so happy when I got it done! I've been working on that for about a month now...
Well, sorry, no poem today. It's Friday, so I decided to leave you with laughter. Enjoy this Foamy the Squirrel rant--Naruto style!
Well, there's a guy that I really like. The more I talk to him, the more it becomes blindingly apparent. I actually talked to him on the phone yesterday. The problem is, he's in another state. He did live in my state, but he moved to college. Also, I don't know if the feeling is mutual, but I'm afraid to find out. I've been hurt by too many guys, not all of them were necessarily boyfriends. He's a really nice guy. He somehow knows what a girl needs to hear. And we have a lot in common. It just feels so natural to talk to him, like there's something there...
Oh! I watched a documentary last night called "Thin". It was about women who have anorexia. They would admit themselves into this facility, and they weighed, like, 80 pounds. It really worried me because I only weigh 100. But I don't show anorexic signs. I like food. Junk food, mostly, but its food nonetheless. And I would never even THINK about making myself throw it back up! But I talked to my mom after it was over, and I told her about it, and I think she was a little worried. I just don't want her to worry about something useless like that. She has enough on her mind with my little brother and college tuition and my dad being on the road all the time.
Well, here's another poem. I got some positive feedback yesterday, so I decided I will try to post more poems. Please leave your thoughts. Enjoy!
"Alone"
Searching to find it,
That wonderful feeling,
A lingering gaze,
The playful smile,
Your warm touch,
One last kiss goodnight.
Trying to make rhyme out of reason,
Looking in darkness to find light,
Holding my own,
Alone.
Reaching for a helping hand,
Falling flat on my face,
Stumbling over yesterday,
Waiting for tomorrow.
Hope comes too soon,
Regret comes late,
You have yet to show.
A fleeting glimpse,
An image distorted by rain,
Restores my resolve.
Though I’m tired,
Soaked to the bone,
Dripping and cold,
I’ll find you someday.
This won’t continue,
This hollow feeling,
Through it all,
I’ll hold up.
I’m never alone.
Excel¤~
¤~~My wounds cry for the grave, my soul cries for deliverance~~¤
Well, hey guys. I don't have much to say today. So I'm just going to post a poem I wrote yesterday. Please leave your thoughts and ideas in the form of a comment. Enjoy!
"Explaining Never Through Impossibilities"
When the Sun in his mighty brilliance,
Changes his direction to rise in the west,
When Pluto in her icy darkness,
Is only a block away,
When the Milky Way in its starry wonder,
Becomes a stage for my feet to dance,
Then I will open my heart to you.
When the snow in sparkling enchantment,
Falls fiery black from red clouds,
When the rain in wet serenity,
Comes up from the desolate ground,
When the flowers in their young merriment,
Spring up in the dead of winter,
Then I will love you again.
Excel¤~
¤~~Sing like you think no one's listening~~¤
Yeah, the title is irrelevant to today's post. I just wanted to make fun of that song. Ok, here's the scoop. After my first tag, I got tagged by several people. So here's 8 more facts! You guys know the rules...
1) I'm a hopeless romantic.
2) I like to make AMVs.
3) I love Billy Martin, from Good Charlotte.
4) I'm a WWE Raw fanatic.
5) I'm skinny, but I don't eat healthy.
6) I secretly like a guy whom I've only met once in person.
7) I procrastinate too much.
8) I'm in the middle of too many manga series.
Now, for those I tag!
~head explody
~burdyshaw
~captin obvious
~Jyushin
~Inu Yu
~ryuklan
~SNIFFLES of DOOM
~Kcrystal
Ok, now on to the good stuff! Um....I haven't done anything of importance today...Yet...I did go hear a motivational speaker guy. I needed a convo credit. I asked Mantha to buy one of his books for me. She got one as well. Let's see...I'm gonna make "emo" my next site theme. There's a story behind it....There's these 2 guys named Adam & Andrew who wrote this song. It's called the "Emo Kid Song". I'm working on an AMV for it. It's frickin hilarious! I've also got a couple of emo icons. And that picture I posted yesterday of Billy? Well, I made it bigger and wrote "Ma Ange Noir" on the wings. That's French for "My Black Angel".
*begins to sing*
"We like to party! We like-we like to party! We like to party! We like-we like to party! DUNH!!! The venga bus is coming!"
*stops*
Yeah, so here's a nice picture for you to enjoy! This old guy ROCKS!!!!
Go grandpa! It's your birthday! We gonna party like it's ya birthday!
Yeah, so now I'll leave you to attempt to imitate this guy in your loneliness. You know you wanna...
Excel¤~
¤~~Due to lack of interest, this quote has been cancelled~~¤
*begins to sing*
"Well I'm not paralyzed, but I seem to be struck by you. I wanna make you move, because you're standin still! And if your body matches what your eyes can do, you'll probably move right through me on my way to you."
*stops*
Man I love that song! Anybody know the title and artist? I just heard it over the weekend.
Anyways, on to the good stuff! I finished my art project. We were supposed to depict an emotion without using facial expressions. I used a girl similar to Tifa, from FF7. I depicted a sense of longing. We had to use paint and felt-tip pens. When I get my camera batteries charged, I'll try and upload it to my fan art section. I'm overall pleased with how it turned out. She's sitting sideways with the wind blowing her hair over her face. There are mountains in the distance, and it isn't quite daylight yet. I'll also try and upload a picture I drew of Sora. It's the picture from the game booklet. Where he's standing in the water holding the stick. It isn't colored, or even shaded...
Um...Oh! I MIGHT post a picture of myself. Maybe. If I feel like it. I don't know...Oh, all right! Stop whining! Here's a picture of me, standing in front of my bed at college. My hair was straightened. And then I did it up anime style! Mantha took the picture.
Yeah, I know I'm not that pretty, so don't remind me. Oh, and the picture is a little fuzzy. I don't know why, though....Oh! Here's a neato awesome pic of Billy Martin! He's my favorite guy from Good Charlotte. He's so hot!
Yeah, that's a really hot picture....
Anyways, I'll leave. I gotta get those pics uploaded to my profile! See you around!
Excel¤~
¤~~It's the anxiety, they say that it's insane rivalry, paranoia's brought me to my knees, Lord please please please, take away my anxiety~~¤
Well, I changed the theme to Kingdom Hearts. Please be sure and watch the video! I made it. I also made the background and my avatar.
Ok, so this weekend I went home to watch my little bro and Jyushin play football. Jy couldn't play, he hurt his shoulder. But he has a cute but....Yes, I was lookin, Jy! I found out that Aaron has a new girlfriend. SHE is the reason he broke up with me! And you know the worst part? SHE'S A NASTY, DIRTY SKANK!!! So both mine and Aaron's wishes will come true. He'll lose his virginity, and he'll catch Gonnocyphyherpalaids! So, I'm totally never EVER gonna even speak to him again. *smiles in self-derision*
Alexander: I told you it was best to forget him the first time. Me: Yeah, well I don't listen very well... Alexander: You know what we should do? Me: Um...Candy..? Alexander: No, you idiot! We should tie the both of them up. Then we should cut off his manhood and feed it to him. And for her, we shall--HEY!!! PUT THAT DOWN!!!
*scuffling noises*
Sorry, guys. Alexander took over for a minute. I tied him back up. Giving form to your anger, naming it, and letting it run rampant isn't exactly a good idea...But it's fun....
Ok, back to my weekend! I sat with the band. Kaye sat there too. We both used to be in band, but I graduated, and Kaye quit. Well, we each took a drumstick from the extra pair, and we played along using the bleacher steps as drums. We made fun of Aaron using lines from "The Waterboy". He doesn't get to play. He has to stand on the sidelines. We also sang "We Are The Champions", Chicken Little-style. We had a ton of fun. Kaye hates Aaron about as much as I do now. For the same reasons.
Um, Saturday I didn't do much, except I went shopping with my mom and her friend. I got these neato awesome shoelaces! They have piano keys on them. Other than that, I did nothing. Well, wait, I started re-reading my "Chronicles of Narnia" box set. ^-^
Today, I went to my grandparents' church. Because it was Grandparents' Day. Then, me and Mantha left at 1 to come back here.
Well, that's all I got! Sayonara!
Excel¤~
¤~~To the praying mother, the worried father, let your children go. If they come back, they'll come on stronger~~¤
Well, last night, I called my old Sunday school teacher. She knows just about EVERYTHING that's happened between me and Aaron. The only things she doesn't know are the nonimportant things. She told me some encouraging things, things I really needed to hear. Then she prayed with me. After that, I wrote in my prayer journal, and then read my Bible. Of course, I've begged for forgiveness for what I've done and said. But when I went to bed last night, my eyes were so red and puffy from crying! I had a big headache too.
Today went a little better. I got the form to drop my Educational Psychology class. I have to turn it in tomorrow. My academic advisor had left for the day. At 4, Sarah, a girl from my CI class, came to me and Mantha's room. She brought Castle In the Sky. For those of you who don't know, that's a Hayao Miyazaki film. It's REALLY good! I recommend you go see it. NOW!!! Anyways, that lasted til about 6:20. Then we went to the Eagle's Nest (a cafe in the student center). We met up with a couple of other friends on the way over. At 7, we went to a faculty recital in the chapel. It was good, and we got a taste of opera. I found out my CI teacher kicks MAJOR BUTT on the organ and piano! Then, since I didn't eat the first time, we went back to the Eagle's Nest. That was at, like, 8. We sat over there for about 40 minutes, and then came back to the dorms. Now, obviously, I'm in my room...
I'm going home tomorrow, after Basic Design. It'll be the first time this season I get to see my little brother play football. Unfortunately, Aaron will be there too...I hope he has to sit out the whole entire game...I also hope he gets his wish of losing his virginity, but that the girl who does it has Gonnocyphyherpalaids, and that he catches EVERY FRICKIN BIT OF IT!!! Smurfy said that come senior prank day, she's gonna throw eggs and baloney at his truck. Eggs because they're funny. Baloney cause it'll mess up the paint job. A lot. *evil smirk* Yeah, I'm being a bit vindictive through other people. Oh well. Aaron better be glad he broke up with me over the phone, because if he'd done it in person, I would've broken his nose, and possibly damaged his genitalia. Yeah, I'm pretty steamed about it. On the phone, all I could do was cry. He better thank his lucky stars...And if he tries to talk to me at the game, I'll probably end up hitting him. So I'm gonna do my best to avoid him altogether. Now, his parents, I'll be nice to them. I love his mom. His dad and I haven't talked much.
Well, I'd better go. I think I'm gonna go and read some Cyanide and Happiness. That always cheers me up. Or maybe I'll visit StickDeath...Hmmm....
LOVE AND PEACE!!!
Excel¤~
¤~~When Life hands you lemons, squirt them in the eyes of your enemies~~¤
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