Sunday, September 30, 2007

   O HAPPY DAY!

So, today me and my roomy, Mercury Dragon, went job hunting today. I GOT A JOB! Without an interview either! The lady was like, "We need someone for tonight so I'm going to have you come in tonight." That was only because I had work experience in the fast food industry. But yeah, I wanted to go to church tonight but now I can't. Me and my roomy was going to go this morning but she didn't want to get up and I went back to sleep! Anyways, I bought two awesome cds! Ok... well they're awesome to me. I bought Kutless: Strongtower and Hillsong United: United We Stand. Yes, they're both Christian groups. I love both of them! I think I've listened to them nonstop since I've bought them. If anyone is wondering... ...I have turned my life around and gave my life back to God. I really felt convicted about a lot of the things I've been doing. I never let anyone know because I didn't want to feel like a hypocrite, even though I really was. I had become the very thing that I can't stand. I'm sorry for letting you guys think I was someone I'm not. I am a fun person to hang around with!...Don't get me wrong. But I really feel like this is the way it should be. I don't know how I went from one day being on fire for God, and then one day letting that all slip away... But I really feel like God is calling me to do bigger things and to be a better person. :D Well, that's all I have for right now. I'll probably post again when I get off of work... it depends on when I actually do get to get off though. Well, I'll talk to you guys later! :S Chao! Toodle-oo!

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Wednesday, September 26, 2007

   Guess What?!...Guess What?!

Ok, so today has been kinda awful. Ok this morning one of my RAs came to my room to inform us that our alarm clocks were too loud. Which my friend should have been the one to answer but she was just getting outta the shower... because her alarm went off this morning and it took her FOREVER to turn it off... I thought I was gonna have to do it. On top of that, I still haven't got anything from my secret sister! Like everyone else has at LEAST got a note wrote on their white message board!... everyone 'cept me... :`( But that's not really what I was wanting to talk about. Ok, so I have this friend here on campus. Her name is Diana and she's from Guatamala... well, she's made a lot of like Spanish friends... because they all speak Spanish. Well, there's this cute guy and he's single. His name is Alfredo.... um .... don't really know his last name. :( Anyways, and she's really good friends with him. She told me that she would tell him that I like him... I hope he kinda likes me or wouldn't mind getting to know me better. I'm serious, there's been a few guys here that has caught my eye though. He was one of them... but Diana seemed to be surprised when I told her that I thought he was cute. Anyways, I'm going to get to talk to him in Comp. tomorrow. He sits by my other friend, Kayla, who is in high school still. I'll post tomorrow and let you guys know my status! :D Well, I guess that pretty much cover it all. Oh! I was walking to my Spanish class but I didn't get to go to it though. My flip-flop broke like when I was almost to the building! I had to walk all the way back to my dorm room bare footed and by the time I got there it was too late to actually go to class. It sucked so bad!!!!! Well, I now believe that's all that I have to say! Chao! Toodle-oo!

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Tuesday, September 25, 2007

   LONDON BRIDGE IS FALLING DOWN!

Yeah, so I'm soooo exited. Ok, today me and my roomate went to this meeting about London After Dark. Ok I guess it's like study abroad, or London Abroad, and it's gonna be over Spring Break! For ten days we get to stay in London!!!! 12 days in all because of the two days of flying. I'm not 100% sure that I'm going, but I'm like 90%. I just gotta convince my parents that it will be a good thing. Anyways, We will be leaving on March 12th. The first day we will take a walking tour across the Millenium Bridge and we get to see the Tower of London, Tower bridge, and St Paul's Cathedral! Oooo! Ooooo! We also get to go see Stonehenge! Yeah, it's not in London but it's not too far away. The guy said that we couldn't go to London and not see Stonehenge! O and we're going to see it on Sunday, the only day when they let people actually go inside the circle. I believe groups under a certain number actually get to go in the circle instead of just walking around it! Oh, and I think the legal drinking age is like 18 :D Do you know what that means?! teh hee heeee! There's much more that we get to do, but I will post about the other stuff later! I mean, I still have a lot of time to talk about it! Oh, me and Mercury Dragon are going to work at the Waffle House. It isn't the most glamourous job, but hey, I need a job so I can save up for my trip! I'm going to buy like a lot of cameras. Heck, I may even buy a digital camera if I have to! Well, I've been rambling on and on about the trip. You guys are probably getting tired of it already. I say who cares?! Cry me a river! This is a once in a lifetime opportunity for me! Well, I'm really going to go now. Shout out to my homie who keeps on pm'ing herself... you guys may know her as Mercury Dragon! lol. I mean, who pm's theirself? A LOSER, THAT'S WHO. ok... Chao! Toodle-oo!

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Monday, September 24, 2007

   You Lucky People!

I'm tired of people talking about how bad their relationships are or how they think they need someone. I know I have never been in love. AND DAMN IT I WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE! Anyone who has experienced love is so lucky. All I want is to have someone near me that I could have those memories with... It isn't fair... I mean, yeah, I go on like I'm freaking fine about it. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I'm lonely... it just seems like guys want me for one thing... and they usually get it. Well, some do... I'm not a whore or anything like that. I mean, I've never felt like I was every truely in love. I just wish that I could find a guy that I can have those memories with... when I'm actually with him... not just friends. Hopefully my new standards will actually be a good thing. Why do I have to be the one out of all of my friends who never has the boyfriend! Why can't I be the one that a guy wants? Don't get me wrong, I can get a guy's attention... but it's the wrong type of guy! It's always the guy that wants one thing! ...i give up... All I want is to feel loved, like someone actually cares... Why do I have to always feel like this?

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   How Ya Like Meh Now?!

Yeah, so how do you guys like my little boxy thingy? I think it's super cool. I really like meh little picture tho! I'm about to go find a new background and maybe a new avitar! Anyways, I don't know what's going on. Oh OH! We have an opportunity to go to London during Spring Break! It would be so cool to go but I don't think I will have the money to go! But it still would be fun to go tho. Me and Mercury Dragon went to go see Superbad! It was so hilarious. She kinda had a date.... that's all I'm gonna say about that. I was wanting to ask the guy from the coffee shop if he would go with me... but he left before I had the chance to actually talk to him. It's ok. Heck I'm still young and I need to experience things in my life! Well, nothing much else going on. I went job hunting... I'm hoping to hear from Wal-Mart. If I don't hear from anyone soon I will have to take the crappy Waffle House job. My grandma doesn't want me to work there. Why? She says that bad things happen at Waffle Houses. IDK? So Jackey called me at freaking 7 the other morning. We got to talking for an hour of the things we wanted to do to with each other... well, I just listened as he elaborated... :D Well, we finally got our air back on today... Thank God! Oh I need to go get some starburst for my secret sister! Yeah, we have secret sisters on our floor at college. They do things like leave us little notes and every so often buy us candy or something. That's pretty much all I have for today tho. Talk later!

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

   Looking For My Partner In Crime...

Yeah, so as you all know I always have to talk about guys when I post. So to get it out of the way already... here I go. For some reason every guy I talk to I feel like I have a connection to them. Ok, there's this really cute guy I like in my Comp. class. I don't know his name but he's foreign and very cute. Then there's this awesome guy from the coffee shop... I don't remember his name but I have talked to him. We go there everyday and everytime he's working he talks to me... he actually comes up to me and starts the conversation! Then there's Jacob who runs the skate shop. He's only 17, but he's cute. Me and Mercury Dragon went and hung out with him for like 3 hours. For some reason I like talking to all 3 of those guys. There's like 2 more guys that I haven't mentioned though. Right now though I want a guy who wants a relationship. I'm done with having flings. Who cares about drama?! I would have it anyways even if I didn't have a boyfriend! Well, I found out today that I failed my college algebra test so now I have to take the stupid SI class (supplimental instruction) until I bring my grade back up to average. It sucks because I spent a lot of time studying and I asked all the questions I needed to ask... and I still fell miserably. I feel like I put my best out there but my best wasn't even good enough. Oh yeah, my presentation went very good. I think my group was the most organized and best planned out. Anyways, I found out that I made a 97 on my first Spanish test! But I'm going to have a marketing test next Monday and I'm nowhere close to being ready for it. Well, I guess that's all that has been going on. I'm supposed to take my driver's test during Fall break... I need to hurry up and get my license so I can finally get my car! Well, I'm going to go for now. Talk later! Chao! Toodle-oo!

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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

   What's up with These Guys?

Ok, remember how I said that I went to that Mexican dance last weekend with my friend Ana? Well, I danced with this older guy... mainly because I thought he was just trying to be nice and to help me feel like I fit in... because I was the only white girl there that actually danced. Well, my friend Ana just called me like at 5 and told me that the older guy I danced with actually likes me! They work together. BUT HE'S 40! Does she actually think that I'm going to go out with a 40 YEAR OLD?! But he's really nice... don't get me wrong... but that's a little creepy! Anyways, I ended everything with Jackey. What the hell was I thinking?! My parents would have killed me if they found out that I was leaving that late at night... sometimes that early in the morning to go see a guy. Don't get me wrong, I'm 18 and I can make my own decisions, but this goes beyond the fact that it's a guy. My dad was raised with the conception that we should stay in our own race... and Jackey's black. My dad will tolerate anything BUT a black guy. I'm just glad that I could get out of that situation before they caught up with what I was doing. Ok, college news. Me and my roomate... Mercury Dragon... went walking on Main Street downtown. Well we ran into those two guys. They are cool but sometimes a bit too much to handle. Well, as me and my friend are walking there would be people, guys, that would wave at us and honk their horns at us! I mean... come on!... do we actually look like we're hookers or something! Well, I'm going to go for now! Chao! Toodle-oo!

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Tuesday, September 11, 2007

   So Relieved...

Well, I got to my morning college algebra class this morning. We were supposed to have a test today, but I guess all the morning classes had to participate in some assessment tests. I'm glad that we didn't have our test today because I heard that it was going to be hard, but I still didn't want to take that other test either! Nothing really new. I thought Jackey, the guy I'm seeing, got mad at me yesterday but then he texted me last night and when I asked him about it, he said that he wasn't mad. I'm kinda relieved... he's supposed to call me or text me today. But you guys don't understand. He's not my boyfriend but we do stuff that couples do... even a little more. I don't know what to do though because we're kinda arguing like a real couple and the reason we both decided not to be actually together is because we both don't need anymore drama in our lives. I'm so confused right now. On the other hand, I went to this thing at college with my friend Mercury Dragon. There was a motivational speaker and he was very interesting! I even bought his book! That's a first for me... y'know to buy the books of people I hear speak. But I have a serious question to ask EVERYONE tomorrow so if you could please comment on my post tommorrow! For now I will go. Talk later! Chao!~ Toodle-oo!

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Monday, September 10, 2007

   New Background

Yeah, so I got a new background. It makes me sad tho because they're together and I've never had one of those kinds of moments. Ever. I just hate guys right now. They can all go fuck themselves for all I care. All I want is a good guy who I can be with and care about... but all the good guys are taken and the rest just screw you over and make you believe the shit that comes out of their mouths. College is good. I've been making more friends which is good. I have a huge assignment due Friday and I have no idea what I'm going to do about it yet. Well, this weekend was crazy. I went with one of my best friends to a Mexican dance. I had so much fun and I didn't concentrate on how messed up my life is. I just don't care anymore! The people who just want to know me for their benefit and for their good only can just not fuck with me anymore! I'm tired of being stepped on... and I know I usually bring these things on myself... but DAMN IT SUCKS TO HAVE THAT DONE TO YOU! Yeah, I'm still out of my element a little bit. I'll get over it and break away from things for a while. I should have never gave into temptation, but hell, I'm only human. I'll be fine someday. Right now I just want to break things and scream until my lungs collapse. I don't even know why I'm so angry right now. I'll talk later because right now I think I've rambled on and on about too much. I need to stop complaining about guys. It's not their fault that they were born so stupid and ignorant. Chao.

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Tuesday, September 4, 2007

   Te he he...

Yeah, so I'm not in a great mood. It's just that I was having a happy moment when I was writing the subject. Man, guys are horrible! I don't think I'll ever understand them. They always like to use girls. I don't think I've met a single guy who hasn't tried to take advantage of me. I have a friend who just broke up with her boyfriend. He called her and told her that he still loved her and so they met. They ended up having sex and then after that he told her that he just wanted to remember old times. !...?... what the fuck? After he tells her that he still loved her and wanted to be with her?! He used her just like a guy would. If you're a guy about to comment on this I would be very careful not to make me mad right now. Then there's me. I have this fling with a guy, right? He tells me that he wants to be with me and then the next day he doesn't even want to talk to me. I feel like he's avoiding me for some reason and I really don't know why! The reason I didn't want to have a boyfriend was so that I wouldn't have to put up with the drama, but apparantly just having a fling with a friend isn't much better. I have to deal with the drama that I was trying to avoid. I just feel like telling that guy to take a hike and just move on. I've learned my lesson to move on when it's time. I just don't know what to do. I mean, I've done some pretty good things with him and I don't want to end up regretting it. Yeah, I DON'T LIKE DRAMA!!!!!!

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