myOtaku.com: Merik Ishida

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• Yu-Gi-Oh, Rurouni Kenshin, One Peice, Shaman King, Inu Yasha, Yu YuHakusho, Digimon, Beyblade, Naruto, Rave Master, Duel Masters, El Hazard, Zatch Bell, Fullmetal Alchemist, Shinzo, Tokyo Mew Mew, Fruits Basket Chrno Crudsade, Gravitation, Galaxy Angel, A
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myOtaku.com: Merik Ishida

Sunday, July 10, 2005

This is just my feeling about someone who i thought was my friend..i dont care if you read it or not.....~Merik
Sometimes I feel like my life is so worthless its not even worth living for…its people like you who make me feel this way. Its people like you who have made me this way. You’re a catalyst. You live to destroy people. You live to destroy me. Your like an infection. You eat your way from the inside out. You will be my death. Remember that and never forget it you stupid sadistic fucking bitch. You’re like everyone else in the world. You make me sick and you have since I returned to this god forsaken place….this hell….

You think what your doing is the right thing…you think you’re protecting me. You’re not. You’re controlling me. You interfere in my life. Its sickening. Its annoying. What I do is what I do. If I’m going to make a big mistake, let me make it. And don’t say I told you so. In order to be the person you think you are you have to be understanding, NOT an BACKSTABER!

Because of people like you, I don’t trust anyone. I will never trust anyone. You are no longer a “friend” to me. You are one of those I hate. One of those I despise. I will always carry the scares that you have inflicted upon me.

I have five slashes…not all of them were for him you know. One of them is for all the times you have hurt me mentally and emotionally. Bet you didn’t know that huh. All those times I was the extra person when you and Sherri fought. That’s all I was right. Some one for you to run to when everyone hated you. That’s all I am now still right….like I said you aren’t a friend. You use, you hurt, you conquer….that’s your motive….

Like I said, I’m not angry that you were talking about me…but I am hurt. Hurt so bad that I can never trust you. Though, I think you broke the trust barrier a long time ago..

I must ask this question of you though. Why is it you get mad at me for suck tiny things, when it is I should be the one who hates you for everything? You’re a druggie. You use pot. Its gross, its disgusting, it will be the death of you…. Why I give a shit… I really don’t know.. But you see… I disapprove.. But I don’t interfere….

So long…. And rot alone……….. in the depths of hell….

Merik Ishida
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