Tuesday, July 10, 2007

HOLY CRAP!!!!
WOW GUYS I havn't posted in YEARS! wow, totally sorry bout that XD XD
I've been TOTAlly buisy, so much stuff has gone on!

Oh, and about all that emo sh!t, I'm way over that ^_^

Anyway. School is out for me, but next year I'll be a senior! (Scairy thought, I know)

SO! I Just got back from Origins Gaming convention, and let me tell you, that was the most awsomeness experience ever (Other than Anime Punch)
If any of you ppl went, If you saw the girl in the bright blue wig, that was me ^_^ Please say hi!
Oh, and dont for get to add my myspace!

www.Myspace.com/bane_of_dark

yep.

SO, no on to the more important stuff.

DORKNESS RISING (DIE FOR IT)
Listen up all you D&D fans out there.
You know who my crowd is!
You all play the game, you fought the cows, you burned raped and pillaged the pesants, you've made your DM cry. But now... now its even better... you have NO idea, what you've just gotten your self into.

I am here to invite you into a world where all of your past adventures are re-lived. All of the memories from making fun of the paladin, to trying to kill the bard. (Minimal XP btw)
This is huge people. This is The Gamers II

DORKNESS RISING

The epic movie about Dungeons and Dragons, and ... ThE SHADOW! (dun dun dun)

Join a group of (steriotypical) D&D players as they make their way through a campaign, stand with them through thick and thin, even as they go through their daily lives.
This movie is not out on DVD yet, but if you just post one uplifting note, thats one thumb up closer we have as a step to holding this gp in our hands. I'm offering 1000exp to anyone (wether you've seen it or not) to post a message such as this in their blog, web-log, bulliton, or what ever the fuck it is you people do.

This movie... is a GOD.

(If you want more information about the movie it self, PLEASE dont hesatate to ask!)
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Mortons List, have you heard of it?
Of corse you have, the game thats practically cult status! Why? BECAUSE ITS AWSOME THATS WHY!

Mortons list is a book of subgames and suggestions. How you play, is you roll 1d6 to determine who the table matrix/master will be. The table master/matirx will then roll mortons bolder 1d30 to determine what quest (game ) your to play.
There are also mutations and such, which do things like give you a taboo word! ^_^
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Sunday, March 25, 2007

   Its been awhile... and you probably dont want to know... This may take an hour or more to read....
So wow its been a while, I didn't mean to wait this long before I posted... man do I have a story to tell.

We'll start with work.
Work: I got a job, at Target, on Colerain Ave.
I worked in the food service depeart ment, you know, the popcorn, the pretzels, the fking pizza... (it sucked)So all this random crap happened, and then it got kinda better. So I'm quitting. Why am I quitting:
A month ago I put in a notice that I needed X- day off, and just recently they got back to me saying no.
We thoroughly discussed that my hours are 8-15 per week... this week combined with last week is a total of 54 hours... um, not good!
They kept chainging my time on me... not good either. That and the GSTL (guest service team leader) that I HATE justbecame the new food service TL... so
Thats a summary of past events : P

Now we move on to Home:

So my mom decided she's having a midlife crisis, she feel's she's not in controll of her life, but she is in controll of her hair. So she went out and bought a blue wig... which you can see on me, here:

http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v230/dragonflyer44/Me/

Anyway, today was my aunts b-day, we went to her house, and when my other aunt saw my mom she bout had a heart attack, and she physically assulted my mom. Great. As if we needed more emotional trauma.
And by the way, I'm depressed, insomnic, inlove, broken, selfish, failing, sick, tired, and afraid.
So yea.
There's some seriously bad case of PMS thats going arround the world lately. I dont know if its LBSCBDO or what but... its wreaking some serious havoc.

Since I cant think of anything else to say about life we'll go on to school... boy is this one good:

So I already told you the stephen/amy situation. And by the way she now has a job, a car, and a boyfriend... see... told you she was a sybuccus.
Anyway. Stevin, (still trying to get over her) who btw drinks, smokes, and stones, has emo issues to a much greater degree than me yatta yatta.
Anyway, he introduced me to his bff Will (also his secret gay lover (bi )etc/)
Will and I clicked right away, and I was SO excited when Steve brought him to school : D wow we clicked. And you know, both of us are dealing with shit etc etc. so we've been talking and we really want to know more about eachother. For the first time I've like opened up, and he's opened up to and its all like omg wtf etc. So then... Stevin confesses his love for me...
I dont know what to do, and I still dont.
Will and I like e/o but then all of us are trying to get over screwed relationships... amaising no?
Will has a past love that he's dealing with, I'm dealing w/ Drew, and Stephen (Steve) is dealing w/ Amy (but on a much smaller scale thank god).
So... yea...
then I find out stuff about steve, and me being SxE- Core
this aint looking good folks.

So it gets better.
Stephen's last day of school was last friday.
He didn't show up, : ( (he's going on an internship, so technically he's still a student, he's just not at fitton anymore...)
Yea... its almost like loosing someone close... not good ><
So... we discuss stuff like wanting to die, cant stand living anymore. Oh dont worry we're not going to kill ourselves or anything, no I wouldn't do that to you. but, we still talk about broken walls, and stuff... Its all very emo really...

So eventhough there's more, a bit more, This really summs it up...
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Taken from Stephen and his blog.
"It's not even the title I'm after, I wouldn't mind if she called me her boyfriend at all while we were together, the title means nothing, it was put there as some form of childish permission for physical things in a relationship. I just want a relationship or a friendship with one person in which I can selfishly call them mine. Someone who I know will call every night, and that I know that when we see each other after an absence, there will be nothing but an embrace that would do nothing more than compliment the moment. I want a girlfriend, sure, by loose definition of the term, but in truth, I want a companion that will walk with me and only me and our friends through this life. Someone I can be open with and let them see the side of me I hide from everyone else. I want someone I can give my love to, the love that I have that clings to the one special person. Instead I find myself wondering what new drug will come close to fillin the void, and how close to death I can get before I stop or die.
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Monday, February 12, 2007

   Please note that the following contains a very graphic review of the movie Hotell Rawanda Mood- depressed, Felling- Disturbed, emotion- angry
So I either forgot to update or I just didn't have time, you pick the excuse.

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So, the happyness is passed. And you'll never guess who I'm mad at!
If you guessed either JJ, or Aaron Molesky, you guessed right!

So remember how a few weeks ago I was sobbing over no more youthgroup? Well my beloved issues are back! And its not about youthgroup this time, oh no.

So have you ever heard of the movie Hotel Rowada (sp?)? Well if you dont know what its about, its about the massacur that happened in Africa not to long ago, I'm not talking about the most recent one, this was maybe a few years before.
The movie centers arround an african gentlemen named Paul who runs a Hotell, hotell Rawanda.

So the basic-basic plot is the Africans are divided in to two groups the Hutu and the Tootee (please let me know if my spelling is defective ^^)
Wanna know why their seperated? BECAUSE their noses are different, yes, at one point the noses of these people were measured and they were seperated because of it.
Well you'll never guess what happened next.
We should name this one after Hitler him self, because this is exactly what happened with the exception of the prisoner camps. Yea the Hutu decided that the Tootee were inferrior so they just started killing them off, now this is very basic, because some other stuff had been going on in the backround- for instance some president guy in Africa had just been murdered etc. So yea
Hutu are killing off Tootee, so this Paul guy starts hiding them in like his house, eventually they all go to his hotell,... it gets better. The whole time (remember this is a filmed movie like Ice Princess not a tv broadcast or something) There are scenes of the dead and people getting killed, shot, women, children, the whole nine yards.

and the radio broadcast in the backround is also graphic, a man constantly raising his voice not commanding but 'suggesting, hinting' that the hutu should pick off the tootee


Meanwhile there are you'know, UN people there "protecting" the Hutu that arent insane, but the UN, France, and who ever else is their soon decides that its too dangerous to stay so they send caravan's to get all the 'white' people out.

So now that you get the idea, I'm going to skip ahead to why I'm really upset.

The sceen that killed me the most.
Paul needs supplys... the hotell now has over 800 people, so he and his buddy get in this van and go to some place to get supplys. So their driving along, and well, all of a sudden it gets kinda bumpy, like their driving on rocks, So paul tells his friend to pull over, they must have gone off the road and if they dont stop they'll run right into the river, cuz see its kinda foggy out.
So they stop and paul gets out of the van, so stepping down, he trips, and lands, but something cushions his fall... He struggles and finally sits up...
Dead bodies everywhere... they hadn't gone off the road at all, infact they were pretty well centered in the road, they'd been driving over all these dead bodies... Paul flips out.


So what does this have to do with me being angry at Aaron? I'll tell you what...
Sunday morning I go in to church right? I love my church, not any more, anywho
Aaron kindly informs us that we will be watching the movie Hotel Rawanda, doesn't bother to mention that its extremely graphic, and then he LEAVES to go spend time with the junior high. WTF?
The same thing happens next week...
So have you ever been blown off by your youth leader who has you watching an extremely graphic movie?
Let me know...

Oh and just to add on a few other things

my best friend wont even talk to me

and my driving test is tuesday

Isn't it like supposed to snow?
dang...
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

   Mood= Bitchy- Ready to kill Amy.
So skiing went well, I colided with a pretty hot Snow boarder. I met up with Nick although I should have went with his friend (Who was drop dead hawt) to the back stage hills >< Oh well.
So things were going well... but this week... this week is showing signs of not good ness...

I'll have to wright more later because class is over...
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Oh yea, I'm so not sore... no seriously!
I went ski-ing today! yea thats right suckers... I'm da-bomb...
Hey... whats that look for, I only crashed once, and thats just because a snowboarder like totally P-wned me... like seriously. So I was like standing there and all the sudden I hear this noise and the "Oh snap!" and WHAM-O I'm on the ground and this hot boarder is like "aw shit" and I'm all like "Hey I'm fine" and I am... no bruses... ^_^ Haxxorz!!!

Oh, and I saw Nick (and his TOTALLY HOT FRIEND WHO LOOKS LIKE KYO -no lie...-)
we passed a few times but that was about all... ^_^
Well evein though skipping school is fun, I have to go back tomorrow... o_o;

I burned my mouth on some hot co co... now I remember why I didn't drink it in the first place ><

My dad downloaded season one and two (books) of avitar, so we've been watching it on the comp... its nice ^_^ Poopoocuddlypoops meet the avitar, avitar meed Poopoocuddlypoops ^_^.

LAters

~J-chan
Tomo-Chan
and
Jace ^_^
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Sunday, January 14, 2007

Thanks to----
Thanks to a helpfull hint, I can post a few pictures for my lovely frineds... But if you want all the comments that go with them you'll have to go here:

http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v230/dragonflyer44/Ohayocon/

This one is for ~Daisy~

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v230/dragonflyer44/Ohayocon/HPIM2102.jpg

This one is for Joyce

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v230/dragonflyer44/Ohayocon/HPIM2066.jpg

Tabatha went with us... As Misa Amane <3

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v230/dragonflyer44/Ohayocon/HPIM2064.jpg

There was only one picture of me... and the picture of JJ well... ahem... no comment
There is a story behind this one btw, you shall call to find out ^_^
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v230/dragonflyer44/Ohayocon/HPIM2082.jpg

Sigh...
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v230/dragonflyer44/Ohayocon/HPIM2120.jpg

As for the other 70 some pics... you'll haveto go to the photobucket for them ^_^
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Sunday, January 7, 2007

   CONVENTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111
These are the AWSOME HAWT photos taken in COLUMBUS OHIO at the GREATER COLUMBUS CONVENTION CENTER (east wing) The convention formerly known as OHAYOCON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now unfortunetly the upload didn't work here on otaku... so you'll have to go to my photobucket which is located here. You can just click one of the pics and go to the bar and click next to easily flip through all of them. Here is the url. http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v230/dragonflyer44/Ohayocon/?start=0
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Monday, December 25, 2006

   Merry Christmas
So before I get all cynical etc.
I'd just like to wish everyone a merry Christmas
Or Hanuka (sorry bout the sp)
Or Kwanza (Again, sorry)
Or Winter Solstice (...)

Or what ever the heak it is you celebrate.


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So things have been a bit better lately... Aaron apolojized and "articulated that he had not articulated well about the set up, and how he was sorry for not articulating things well" You get the picture.
So I forgive him... for now.
Drew... I guess we havn't acknowledged eachother or something, I dont know what to say to him... I visited his house a while ago...

Sakura's b-day party went well, thanks for the Red Bull ^_^ I'm going to need it, I have to work at 8Am tomorrow. >< Not looking forwards to that.

So yea... I had to work Christmass eve... and now the day after X-mass... yay
So I think thats all... I'm hungry...

~Logging out~
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Friday, December 1, 2006

   So damn sorry
So I havn't posted in quite a while... I'm not sorry, I've been dealing with alot. While the lot of you may know I've been going out with JJ, thats been rocky- considering I never wanted to go out with him in the first place I'm just doing it to give me something to do...We're still going out but There's a really really wide ditch between us.

So I didn't turn all my papers in at work so I got a few weeks off that was nice, I re-dyed my hair it looks exactly the same as it did.
Now I'm back at work, its nice but hard, they changed alot while I was gone... I really hate it.

I really need a Psychiatrist... I have way too many issues. Oh yea, and to add onto all the shit thats happening in my life I wont be going to youthgroup any more- Its canceled. That bastard Aaron did it. Not very manny people know him that well, yea he shows up on sundays but he's never there to hang with us on wednesdays! How am I supposed to like(trust) a guy I barely know!?
So when he first came I was like "well... I dont really like him that much... for starters he can beat me in SC2 but thats not very hard..." Then a few weeks after he showed up he made us get rid of the WONDERFULY comfortable couches in the Highschool room, yea they were old, decrepit, and falling apart, but they were comfortable. After that I decided that I didn't like him all that much... he didn't really listen to me much which gods that pissed me off.
Drew convinced me to give him another chance- which I did... and now this...
Every Wednesday for the past 8-9 years I've gone to church on Wednesday's... Its a blast, we would all hang out having fun like playing basketball in the gymn, or some other 'fun' sport (I'm not much of a sports person so I just watch and talk with friends)
It was a place of felowship, a fun time for close friends to get togeather and praise. After about an hour of fun, we'd settle down a bit and have actual youth group we'd discuss a topic- pray, and as our youth tradition followed, we'd all head down to skyline and chat there and then head home.
All of this, all of these memories... Are now ruined... Aaron (damn you) has caved and decided that we will no longer have YG at church, instead we'll be having it at other people's houses, I go to YG to get away from home, not go to sone random persons home.
This is so hard for me to deal with, because this is all I've ever known for the past 9-10 years... I cant just throw it away because some ass shows up and is suddenly incharge... I dont know what God's deal is with this but I've prayed and just so He knows, I'm ticked...very ticked...
And if you actually read this whole complaint... good for you. Congradulations... I'm one hell of a bitch arent I...
Oh and if you want to read further into my hell hole contunue down
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The one person.
I have loved my entire Life.
I've had the biggest crush on.
Would give anything to be with.
Is turning me down, I know I'm a child
and I act like it... sometimes I cant help it but
now that he's moving on... I dont know what I'm going to do, he's the one thing thats held me togeather all thses years, he's the one person that I've been able to tell everything to, the only one I can run to when I'm hurt, or broken... and he's moving on... I have no where else to turn... no where else to go...He'll be gone in a matter of days...He'll leave me- just like that... Why?
does he have to leave?
can't I stop crying?
can't I move on?
did he have to be my best friend?
can't I just grow up?
can't I get a freaking grip?
do I have to go through this?
CANT I JUST TELL HIM THAT I LOVED HIM?
why am I a junior, why cant I be a senior, then he wouldn't have to leave so soon... damn it all...
There's so manny pieces of my heart to pick up... I should start with the small ones... Screw Life.
I Hate Drew.
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