Sunday, November 27, 2005

first post
Okay now I like my friend Cat and all we've been online friends well it'd been 2 years then we took a few months break cause I got mad at her for leaving my neopets guild. Then I got over it and she sent me a neomail then we started talking again through msn. She always wanted to use aol and I hate aol im cause I have to use internet explorer to surf the net. We did use yahoo and I liked it but then she claimed it started downloading things on her comp. So she stopped and well she started again. So I chose to get it again and talk to her. I've always thought at 17 she was way too young to be drinking and who knows what else she's been doing. I'd lay even money that she's not been a virgin in years! The way she talks I'm surpised she has as many friends as she does. Though she never told me now I suspect she does drugs too. Since she said at a party she was at last night they were snorting.
She has a friend she's known for years. She was planning to move in with her when they graduate this year. Her grandfather has a house she can have so she can live there and go to college. They get into a fight over who gets the big room and who gets the little room. Her friend gets miffed when she's told she has to have the little room and says they aren't going to move in together anymore. Then she tries to tell me that they still aren't talking weeks later. She claims its on something else. Something her friend wont tell her. That they only fight and her friend wont tell what the problem is. I don't much buy that but...

Well she's told me about her dating. One guy she wanted to date but their last names were the same and found out later they were like long distance cousins removed or something. So she gave up on him. Then had another guy hat was like heavy into drugs and had weird friends that he let call her on her cell. It wasn't good so that relationship died out. Then she started dating this guy that she was excited about. Though he kinda looked like a nice guy from the pic she sent me. But he was also 15 years older than she was and she was 16-17. I also agreed with her friends that saddly enough he looked a little like an excon. But she claimed he wasn't and he wouldn't like hearing this. My thought on that was don't tell him! She also said he had Yugioh's Yugi's birthday. Well that was months ago well when we started talking again through msn she told me she broke up with him. When I asked why all she said was that they had two different dreams for the future! My best theory on that he finally showed her he wasn't as sweet and innocent and pure thoughts as she thought he was and wanted to go all the way on night and she didn't. Then she says she met a new guy and shes now 18 and that their date went so well they ended up in a porn store afterwards. But that any future dates have to be made through his secreteries as he's shy. I think she even broke up with him but its hard to tell with the few details she gives me but that's kinda the impression she gave off.

Well yesteday she told me that she had a wonderful time. Well no bad or ugly type smiley faces I assumed that that she meant that litterly. Then she says she was being sarcastic. She did appoligize knowing that just typing that didn't express that. But if it had been me I'd have used with that like an eye rolling one of sad one or touge out one or something to express the meaning.
Anyway she told me she was hurting herself and that she wasn't trying to kill herself but all her friends think she needed theropy and needed a mental institution. Well I didn;t have a clue as to what she was talking about so I was working on my fan fiction and wallpapers and just let rattle on and basically ignore her for the most part and let her rattle on let her get it off her chest. Well it must have finally dawn on her when I refused to comment on anything she said that I didn't have a clue as to what she was saying cause she asked if I knew what she was talking about and I told the truth I didn't. She admitted that she was a cutter. The type of person who likes to cut theirselves just to feel or something. This was the first I'd heard of it. Today she said that her friends not only think she needs a padded room but called the cops to talk to her. Well apparently she never said what happed only that she wasn't home they didn't find what ever the reason they were called too bad cause the left and never talked with her. She had like 4 or 5 friends that she had to break up with cause of it and cause they want her to check into an institution. I do feel she needs help too but she said she did talk to her mom and they agreed to see a theropist. To me that's all that counts. She's getting help. What more can you ask for.

I'm not sure if its funny or sad. She and her first friend get into it and decided not to live together now this second one she was suppose to move in with she's had to break up with her. I always did find it stupid that she wasn't even christmas last year and she was already making the plans to move into this house and she wont even graduate till june of next year! At the moment she said she's broke up with them all cause they don't fell just getting help is enough, that she has to be locked up in an institution. Which I still belive is stupidity in action!
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