myOtaku.com: Mew Wem

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Birthday
• 1987-10-23
Gender
• Female
Location
• New Zealand,Ak
Member Since
• 2003-09-16
Occupation
• Summer Girl Friend
Real Name
• Gin and Coke

Personal

Achievements
• Greening my site
Anime Fan Since
• Does it matter?
Favorite Anime
• I'm not sure
Goals
• Maybe get an apprenticeship...
Hobbies
• Painting pictures, painting models, painting in my head...
Talents
• I bet I could have an anxiety attack on command.

myOtaku.com: Mew Wem

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

I feel LOVed

My mum emailed me from HK!!

Then she got an international sim card so she could text me!!

I feel LOVED!!
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Today has been so hectic though, I hardly even ate because I was busy helping out for International Cultural Week.

We had the fashion show today...and well...kinda disastrous.

Tomorrow is the food fiesta.

Thursday is the cultural art competition. At night it the mosaic night unfortunately we've only sold 10 tickets so far :s
Even more unfortunately I've been put in charge of selling these aforementioned tickets : /

Friday is the performances.
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I just can't wait til the weekend, I can rest...destress and meet this potential escort.
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Our English class has been busy trying to decide what movie we're going to study this year.

I think about half want to do The Matrix which actually has a lot of symbolism and biblical references so it wouldn't be too difficult to write about. (if one knows what to look for)

Or Love Actually >:(

eeeeewwww.....I don't see why that can be considered at all.

Stupid crappy romantic comedies are all infernally inane.

I need more ideas. Good ones preferably.

I had one but I stupidly forgot what the movie was called, even what it was about. I just remember thinking how meaningful it was-_-

ah well...life...how...ironic.

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Monday, June 14, 2004

Well, lately two of my boy-crazy friends met a new guy they want to take to the ball.

Unfortunatley they already have dates (I wonder why).

Unfortunately guess who gets hassled to take this lovely new guy?

Me.

>.>

There is no way I'm taking a guy I don't know, especially if I hear that he has sick dreams about girls he's never met before.

J was saying that he dreamt about her and Lil. Apparently he dreamt he was holding a gun (a phallic symbol) and then went through a door and saw both of them in mini-skirts....toples...

Now, take note. This guy hadn't seen J before....eww and they want me to take him o_o

pfff, just to spite them I've decided to borrow one of my brother's friends.

Yea, I know a bit weird, but it seems he might say yes. I'm going to meet this guy in the weekend so I hope all goes well and I'll have an escort to the ball.

Take that all of you people who think I'll go stag..

Shite, computer dying...post later

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Sunday, June 13, 2004

You held my hand and watched me hurt...

*sigh*

I miss my mum.

We didn't go to bed til about 1am then she woke me up at about 5am to say goodbye then texted (which woke me again) at 8am to say goodbye.

I really couldn't care less about my dad going in or out. In fact I don't even notice. But I miss my mum.

Well...it seems dad brought back all of the movies that...person who did Totoro, Laputa, Spirited Away, etc, etc. Yea, I have the entire lot of movies they did.

Unfortunately (why is there always something crappy?)it's in Japanese with Chinese subtitles.

I don't understand Japanese.

I can barely read Chinese.

@_@

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I must say that this new Harry Potter movie is probably the best I've seen so far. But the best part was the trailer...oooh...they played "The Ecco Song" by Blur ^.^

Although my day had to be ruined rather ironically where I found two of my other friends with two other guys and one of them is none other than my Ex...*sigh*

I am ashamed to admit the only thing I could say was "fancy seeing you here..." then looking away and walking off.

Can't say he did much better in the conversation department, I do believe I might have heard him mumble a "hey".

Oh yes, I love awkward moments. Even more ironic, just last night I was debating with him about his lack of self-esteem.

Yes...that was particularly who I was complaining about in my last entry. I could never, ever understand the low self-esteem...never.
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As for the ball, I now have a dress, purse, necklace and shoes...I don't think I'm missing anything. Plus he DIDN'T get the g-string (thank you!!) because the dress material wasn't satiny like some other dresses I had tried.

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Saturday, June 12, 2004

bloody...stupid...crappy

I would love nothing better than to get a nice, stable new computer and then take a sledge hammer to the PC.

After four times of stupid error windows flooding the screen and four horrible waits to restart I've given up and decided to freeze my fingers off in my brother's room.

Anyway, tomorrow will be quite the occassion. My friends and I have booked sixteen tickets to see Harry Potter, all because one of the people in our group is HUGE Harry Potter fan.

I'm not all that excited but I just thought it's kinda funny that this many of us are going for the sake of one.

It's...sheep like...
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okay, I've found a fine difference between modest and gut wrenchingly annoying people with low self-esteem.

I understand modest.

I am freaking pissed off by people with impossibly low confidence in themselves.

They insist on thinking they're short, fat, ugly, dumb...etc..etc... and are always on about how they're fuggin huge failures and suck because they didn't study for some test or some stupid crap like that.

AAAARGh

I mean seriously. I have tried to deal with these kind of people, but it's just hell frustrating.

Not to mention, say one wrong thing and any progress made is set backwards almost back to the beginning...

Must... kill... these... depressing... people...

=_=

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Brighter side.

I don't have to shop for any ball gear because my dad did it for me. (complicated so don't ask)

He got me a dress, shoes, purse, jewellery and I hope to god he was joking when he said he'd get a g-string because he was worried the panty line would show through the dress.

I'll be getting all this groovy stuff tomorrow. yay

Except I'm sad because my mum is going to Taiwan and HK.

She's rather apprehensive about going because this is the first time she'll be going over seas without the family and is worried about me being neglected. (I feel a lot like a dog sometimes)

Which she's got a right to. Since regularly my Dad will leave me stranded somewhere for an hour without notice and way of contacting him.

Plus I'm also left at home a lot without consideration of dinner and all those usual things.

I'm very spoilt.

Ironic since he tells me I'm his favourite child. Which isn't saying much since my brother is an idiot anyway.

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Thursday, June 10, 2004

HAH~~~~~I"m BAck!!!!!!!!

This is me on the hour long bus ride on the way home today:

I was just sitting there thinking about the fact that I was writing even after finishing my English Assessment in a tumultuously horrifying end, on a bus.

Indeed for the past week...or...perhaps more, I have actually neglected every single one of my journals (three to be exact). And oddly enough the most significant thing I can think of writing is that I lost the ring mum brought me, then found it again the next morning in my shoe(I really don't know how it got there).

During the time it was missing my fingers had felt quite naked and lonely which is attributed to the fact that, even if I find something terribly annoying, I'd be more uncomfortable without it if I had it around long enough. Bascially...I get use to this annoyance. Loose, always shifting on my finger and just generally , down right in the way. But I couldn't be without it.

Time passed and I am still on the bus.

So I considered the boy standing in the aisle with his rather long-lashed, femenine eyes with seemingly plucked eyebrows. It annoyed me that he didn't sit down. There were any number of seats to sit on but no, he chose to stand and study the crowd at the back with the intense blue eyes that were out of place with his genetically tanned skin and dark spiked hair.

Excessive use of descriptions is attributed to my capacity for boredome.

Naturally I hate boredom. I do the stupidest things when I'm bored, in face I even remember the worst things during those times. Right now is how I was dared to ask my Ex to the Ball. She called me a chicken and I admitted to that. Joke or not, I wouldn't ask him to the ball for a piddling little dare consisting of a few words. Do these people not realize I had a nightmare he was my date??!

I was shocked too.

I did not wake up from that dream oblivious to what had happened, or with a warm fuzziness you get from enjoyable ones. No...I awoke with a start....
Quivering...
Shuddering...
Warm but my insides were filled with icy tentacles of goose-bump inducing DREAD!!! Perhaps I'm exaggerating...slightly, but that's not to say that it was pleasant in anyway.

Time continues ploughing on relentlessly. I'm still on the bus.

Sentimentally I think about the kindergarten we're about to pass which I once went to *sigh*...I hated that place...

As usual, I lack a certain amount of appreciation for my past, revelling in it's glorious oddities and psychological trauma, yet filled with pure disdain because I remember it.

I must be totally bored right now.

Over the roar of the bus engines I hear that a lady was seen arrested stealing tampons from the Warehouse. Funny.

I'm hating this. Every despicable moment from the hurt caused in childhood to the peer pressure to bring a fucking date to the Ball. I hate these people. Their norms, rules and society which only serves to delude and control. But just as ususal, as soon as I get angry it suddenly let's out. Like trying to fill a barrel with water when there's a hole in the side about 2/3 of the way up.
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As you may have notice, I'm an incredibly spiteful and unhappy person when riding on a bus.

I feel much better now. Much less thinky ^^

And so glad to be back to my journal. I'm going to try visit everyone tonight.

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Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Yo

Anyway...I won't be coming online to update for sometime. For the usual reason, mostly because I'm about to have an aneurysm trying to burn through another of Douglas Adams books, this time "Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency".

All this so I can do two passage analysis by Monday to hand in. Then be in time to prepare for a three day assessment on the books using three questions about them I made up myself whilst answering them with both mine and the 'the other people's' opinions.

Keep a made up log/diary of my research on the stupid books (good books, but stupid assessment) and try to remember how to write a bibliography.

Meanwhile term break isn't until I think the 2nd of July.

And to answer another person's question whose name eludes me right now...

I cut my hair first by flipping my head upside down and taking some trimmings there...just a little. So the back is layered by about 3cms.

Then started laying all the stuff at the front starting from my eyes down to the bottom (bottom being a few centimetres below my shoulder blade). I mostly did this with he aid of a pair of scissors and a mirror for fine tuning.

Basically it's short at the front which lengthens and rounds off to the back it lovely spikey layers.

So...see ya guys around when I get the time to.

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Monday, May 24, 2004

hmmmmmm.......

Sorry about my somewhat loss of sanity yesterday...although I failed to mention that I also cut my hair, strangely enough I like it now better than before.

Anyway, it's mostly the stress of school and so I hopefully won't get too tempted by the interenet. I've pretty much had full on assessments for the past two weeks and in the next two weeks I'll still be having full on assessments.

Sad isn't it? That's the problem with this crappy country. They bring in a stupid new education system which screws everybody.

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Sunday, May 23, 2004

Bright Yellow and Black Spider

According to my book of dreams based on what I dreamt-

Yellow:The sun, buttercups, daffodils: all these images may flash the colour yellow at you in your dream. When you dream of a good, strong yellow it's a message about vibrant energy, about cleverness and intuition. Yellow represents your creativity and your artistic talents and it confirms your abilities. It's a sunsine colour that brings light and laughter into your life. So it's great to dream yellow...

Black:In dreams, black is considered a negative colour which lowers our spirits down to rock bottom, bringing a sense of glom and doom. If black is very prominent in your dream, or if you have recurring dreams with a lot of black in them, it suggests that you're going through a sad time in your life when you feel there's no point to anything. But of course a dream can't be all black, otherwise you wouldn't be able to see any of the other images, so it's important to try to remember what other colours your saw. Even a pinprick of light in the blackness would be significant.....Concentrate on the other colours, no matter how small, because this is the way that your unconscious is showing you how you can lift your mood, giving you hope, revealing the way out of your problems.

Spider: Because many people are terrified of spiders, to dream of them may be symbolizzzing something or someone they're particularly afraid of. However, according to dream lore, a spider may be a happy owmen foretelling luck and good fortune.
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I think boredom does wonders for my health...and I mean that in the most sarcastic way possible.

This was my day:
-slept in
-read half of "Last chance to see" By Douglas Adams and whatshisface Carwine(sp?)
-Fell asleep reading
-woke up again
-tried to bake muffins but upon discovering that we had no muffin tins I put the batter in a cake tin. Now I have a giant tasty chocolate muffin. I never knew I could cook.
-lit a fire...in the fire place
-and for good measure since I was on a learning experience I punched the wall bruised a knuckle and left a mark on the wall.

I have to say the last thing on the list was by far the stupidest thing I've done for quite some time. The last time I did something stupid was a few weekends ago where I, "accidently" burning my finger on a match trying to put it out, setting fire to a paper lantern left over from the lantern festival from a few months ago and learning that finger painting was a much healthier past time than studying for an important assessment to which I only passed because the teacher was lenient.

This has been the first weekend since I can remember where I did not go to the city. I finally broke the cycle of going there. For some reason despite being sick of and hateful of the city I kept going there only because it was convenient for my friends...*sigh*

I dunno...I'm not making much sense right now. I'd go to bed as usual but the afternoon nap has me pretty wide awake.

Boredom has always been my enemy but no...it constantly invades chanting "Veni, Vedi, Vici" or something like that.

I don't think I'll ever be the same again.

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Thursday, May 20, 2004

Crap

Seriously I am getting really bugged lately.

No matter what time I go to bed, which is usually 10:30pm I wake up at 5am.

Five Freaking AM!!!

Then I toss and turn for the next hour until I really need to get up at 6:15am.

It's bad enough I hardly sleep during the night, but I just have to go and wake up at an unholy hour of the morning.

>:^O
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Other than that, the group I'm with SADD (Students Against Driving Drunk, yes I realize that I can't exactly drive yet, but still..),is having a bake sale tomorrow.

Come and support us ^.^

I'm going to bed before the computer dies on me again >:(

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Wednesday, May 19, 2004

Dungeons and Christ Wagons

As much as I'd love to rant about something, I don't have the time.

Mostly due to the sudden increase in the number of friends I have on myO list.

I like to be a good friend and all by visiting everyone's site at least the day after if not the same day they updated...but it's a good thing they usually have short posts.

Unlike moi. Who typed it out on Microsoft word and took and entire page:s (in reference to my last post)

*sigh* but then I remember how I first started and had about three people on my list hardly ever updated.

No matter, it's nice to know people like to come here.
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A good place to try learn short hand is alysion.com.

Or go and buy a book.

It's sad, our school use to teach it, but not anymore. It would've made life so much easier.

Well, this was a boring post. I think I'm going to regret drinking coffee, hopefully I won't get addicted like the last time. lol

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