Wednesday, February 15, 2006

There wont be a song today... everybody's got their valentine's day rant and it's my turn. We had our V-day dance yesterday at school and well, it sucked i guess. I'm on Student Concil, so i had to help with everything. Which i generally didn't mind. I bought two carnations from the seniors, one for Kakashi and one for Kiba. I was given a carnation from Stuart and one out of seeming pity from a kid named Jackson. Lovely. Didn't dance with anyone, despite me having three good male friends, and i found out of my asian friends, Luis, is an awesome dancer. Anyways, so i was looking forwards to kakashi picking me up while i was wearing a dashing suit (see picture in last post) and being all prince-charming with the flowers, but no, she didn't want to hang out on the most romantic day of the year...I also admit, i was thinking of Mizuki alot that day. What would it have been like if we had stayed together? If my phone had been working, would we have been sending each other sweet nothings all day long, then perhaps i'd catch a ride to the post office and send her a dozen carnations or so. How different would it have been if i had chosen the alluring red rose over the ever-growing wild flowers? I suppose that's some food for though. About halfway during the dance i walked out of the gym and sat up in the branches of a tree which leans close to the ground. I suppose it would have been an interesting sight to see a girl in a suit with a red tie, two carnations in hand sitting in an outcasted tree. Well, on a lighter note, here's a poem i wrote today. The Library The Smell of old books hits your nose as you walk in the door A rug with cars on it covers the linoium tiled floor And memories come back to me from days afore And i know that i've been here before Soft light hues the room yellow And a little dust tickles your nose Books surround you starring patiently in wait And you feel a little freer of your woes How the time has passed me by As i sit in that once big chair and sigh And i realize this room is much smaller than once thought And that actually i have grown alot But while i have changed This place has not And it all seems so strange But i recall it always having what i sought Its so familular to me And yet its all so new Remembering things once forgotten Remembering what i once knew

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

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Stolen from CarrahJM 1.Your Full Name: ---> 2. Age: ---> 3. Favorite Color? ---> 4. Favorite Movie: ---> 5. Favorite Song: ---> 6. Favorite Band or artist: ---> 7. Most Embarrassing Moment: ---> 8. Are you a virgin? ---> *************************************************** *** . . . . . . . . . . . . HERE COMES THE FUN . . . . . . . . . . . *** *************************************************** 1. Are we friends? ---> 2. Do you have a crush on me/are you attracted to me? ---> 3. Would you kiss me? ---> 6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I asked you? ---> 8. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you: ---> 9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? ---> 10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? ---> 11. have you heard any rumors of me lately? ---> 12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me? ---> 13. Do you think I'm a good person? ---> 14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)? ---> 15. Do you think I'm attractive? ---> 16. Are there ever times when you want to call me but don't? ---> 17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they don't involve you? ---> 18. If you could change anything about me, would you? What would it be? ---> 20.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? ---> 21. Are you a giver or a taker? ---> 22. Would you still mess around with me if you knew I was in a relationship? ---> 24. Do you smoke/drink/ party? ---> 25. If so, would you party with me? ---> 26. Have you ever got naked for more than 1 person at the same time? ---> 27. When was the last time you had sex? ---> 28. Was it any good? ---> 29. Are you curious if I am a good lover? ---> 30. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? ---> So yeah...fill it out!

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Wednesday, February 8, 2006

So lately, been wondering Who will be there to take my place When I'm gone you'll need love To light the shadows on your face If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all Then between the sand and stone Could you make it on your own If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go Way up high or down low I'll go wherever you will go And maybe, I'll find out A way to make it back someday To watch you, to guide you Through the darkest of your days If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all Then I hope there's someone out there Who can bring me back to you If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go Way up high or down low I'll go wherever you will go Run away with my heart Run away with my hope Run away with my love I know now, just quite how My life and love might still go on In your heart, in your mind I'll stay with you for all of time If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go Way up high or down low I'll go wherever you will go If I could turn back time I'll go wherever you will go If I could make you mine I'll go wherever you will go I'll go wherever you will go ~I'll go Wherever You May Go - The Calling Yeah, so, this week's been better then last. Deffinitly. Stuart's back for one thing, and for those of who have forgotten, this is stuart: But yeah, so he helped me remember my locker combination, slight dyslexia on my part >> We got the hole in my airmatteress fixed, and it's much better now >>; My cold is starting to go away, just got a stuffny nose now. and i found my cellphone =D Taylor's been actting a little weird lately though. He doesn't stay with the group any more...This is taylor: The one with the apple... But yeah, so it's been a pretty decent week i suppose. And here's to hoping tomarrow's even better!!

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Saturday, February 4, 2006

I Feel so used sometimes...

You spurn my natural emotions You make me feel like dirt And I’m hurt And if I start a commotion I run the risk of losing you And that’s worse Ever fallen in love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone You shouldn’t’ve fallen in love with I can’t see much of a future Unless we find out what’s to blame What a shame And we won’t be together much longer Unless we realize that we are the same Ever fallen in love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone You shouldn’t’ve fallen in love with You disturb my natural emotions You make me feel like dirt And I’m hurt And if I start a commotion I’ll only end up losing you And that’s worse Ever fallen in love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone You shouldn’t’ve fallen in love with Ever fallen in love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone Ever fallen in love In love with someone You shouldn’t’ve fallen in love with Fallen in love with Ever fallen in love with someone You shouldn’t’ve fallen in love with Well, i'm over here at Kakashi's house...and once again, i'm starting to feel a little used. She didn't pick me up today until about five, meanwhile making me make icons for her and kiba: And the one i made for myself: And after she picks me up, we go to Best buy, then EB games. She bought Super Mario Party 7 and a gamecube memory card. So we come here, where kiba is. We played Mario Party, and i beat their asses (go Yoshi). After that they wanted to play Karaoke Revolution. Well, my throat is still sore so i said i wouldn't play and started to finish my Saiyuki AMV. Meanwhile they start doing Duets. Which, might i note, they never invited me to do. Kakashi knows how important music is to me...but anyways.. So her computer fucks up. I get tired and say screw it, then close windows movie maker and go into her mom's bedroom . I start drawing and shit, and suddenly i hear "ARriellll!!". So slowly, i climb off the bed and open the door. She asks me to.. A: Go into the garage and get two bottles of coke B: Then get on her machine and open Kazaa to download "One Winged Angel". You know, Sephiroth's theme. So i get the coke and sit down here. Kazaa decides to be a bitch and wont stay open. So i say screw it and go back to finish the drawing. So i do and come back out and introduce it as the world's worse piece of Hakkai/Sanzo art eva. Now, they're playing some game that ONLY they two can play because the game's retarded and can only use gameboy advances as controllers. And the game's an RPG. Now this really gets me because they didn't ask me if i wanted to play, and it's an RPG!! Both of them know that RPG's are my absolute favorite kind of game. When i say , "I wanna play", Kakashi tells me to go to Pogo.com...yeah, woop-dee-friggin-do, You get an RPG and i get internet shit. She hasn't tried to comfort me at all about yesterday, though she KNOWS it was the worse day i've ever had, and still insists on asking me to rp characters I honestly dont want to rp... So far, today hasn't been much better then yesterday... Ugh...this sucks. Well, i'll end this rant now, incase she decides to show that she gives a damn and read this. Byes... Today is not the day for snoogins

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grrf

Like the time in school when we got free lunch, and the cool kids beat us up ( reduced lunch) and the rich kids had convertibles and we had to ride the bus ( 55) like the time we made the baseball team, but they still laughed at us ( you still suck) like the time that girl broke up with me cause I wasn't cool enough ( Trip) The little things, little things they always hang around the little things little things they try to break me down the little things little things they just wont go away the littles things little things made me who i am today you wanna hate me now but I wont stop now cause I can't stop now... like the time mom went to that institue cause she was breaking down ( I just can't take it) like the car we had that wouldn't start we had to walk to get around ( can I get a ride?) and that same year on christmas eve dad went to the store (uhh..see you guys later) we checked his room his things were gone we didn't see him no more (dick) The little things, little things they always hang around the little things little things they try to break me down the little things little things they just wont go away the littles things little things made me who i am today you wanna hate me now but I wont stop now cause I can't stop now... The little things, little things they always hang around the little things little things they try to break me down the little things little things they just wont go away the littles things little things made me who i am today ~Little Things - Good Charlotte Today was deffinitly the worst day i've had in a long time. I'm just going to put it in short sentences so i dont break my fingers at typing. ~My NEW air materess has a friggin hole!! ~My lock at school suddenly stops working. WTF?!!! ~My fucking school decides to randomly charge people for loosing their books, when the office is the ones that have them. >< i lost my book YESTERDAY <2-3-06>. They made that damn rule overnight and still expect me to pay for that?! That's bullshit! ~I get accused for stealing my own goddamned book from the office. WHAT THE BlOODY HELL?!! ~They call my parents because they still think i took the book. ZOMGWTF?! IT WAS ON THE SAME DESK IT ALWAYS HAD BEEN ON!!! ~My lanyard breaks x-X ~Kakashi gets Karaoke Revolution while i'm sick, so i can't sing half the songs on it x-X; i was lucky to do good on American Woman. ~I get home only to remember that no one's here. Hinata and my brother went to a friend's house and my mom went to Dallas. ~I'm not even going to count all the physical damage that's happened today. Falling, tripping, having toes stepped on, things dropped on head, etc. Anyways, that's all for now. i'm going to try and go to bed soon. Jaa, all. Btw: since i couldn't turn in that math spiral, i've failed math probably.

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Wednesday, February 1, 2006

Blackbird singing in the dead of night Take these broken wings and learn to fly All your life You were only waiting for this moment to arise Blackbird singing in the dead of night Take these sunken eyes and learn to see All your life You were only waiting for this moment to be free. Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly Into the light of a dark black night. Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly Into the light of a dark black night. Blackbird singing in the dead of night Take these broken wings and learn to fly All your life You were only waiting for this moment to arise You were only waiting for this moment to arise You were only waiting for this moment to arise Well, back from Ushicon, and i'm sick as a dog. I'm going to try and start posting more again, but anyways... A friend of mine, known as Hinata to me, moved in today. She's known for her Inu-Yasha cosplay, which, by the way, is dead awesome! Well, not that much more to report. But i'll try to post more later. snootch to the sickening nootch!

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Monday, January 23, 2006

yoooh!

So, i'm home, have been since the 19th and i figured that i should post. Song for ya'll =D Look at this photograph Every time I do it makes me laugh How did our eyes get so red? And what the hell is on Joey’s head? This is where I grew up I think the present owner fixed it up I never knew we ever went without The second floor is hard for sneakin’ out This is where I went to school Most of the time had better things to do Criminal record says I broke in twice I must’ve done it half a dozen times I wonder if it’s too late Should I go back and try to graduate Life’s better now than it was back then If I was them, I wouldn’t let me in Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It’s hard to say It’s time to say it Goodbye, Goodbye Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for It's hard to say It’s time to say it Goodbye, Goodbye Remember the old arcade Blew every dollar that we ever made The cops hated us hangin’ out They say somebody went and burned it down We used to listen to the radio And sing along with every song we’d know We said someday we’d find out how it feels To sing to more than just the steering wheel Kim’s the first girl I kissed I was so nervous that I nearly missed She’s had a couple of kids since then I haven’t seen her since God knows when I miss that town I miss their faces You can’t erase You can’t replace it I miss it now I can’t believe it So hard to stay Too hard to leave it If I could relive those days I know the one thing that would never change Look at this photograph Every time I do it makes me laugh Every time I do it makes me ~Photograph - Nickleback I love that song, reminds me of the YGO group >> Anyways, Ushicon is a week away and i'm excited about it =D I've started reading some new Manga- Deathnote Sengoku Nights Selfish Love Antique Bakery r2 They're all pretty good =D now i post the characters i've claimed from them- Deathnote - i'm not sure x-X;; Sengoku Nights - Mizuki Selfish Love - Orito Antique Bakery - Ono r2 - note sure x-x; ...Yeah, that's all fer now. i'll post more shit about the trip home and stuff later. Jaa, yohs! Snootch to the nootch!

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

I think i have my cosplay schedual figured out for Ushicon: Friday: Daitokuji-sensei/Lyman Banner - YGO!:GX Saturday: / Cho Hakkai - Saiyuki/Yutaka Watari - Yami no Matsuei Sunday: Umino Iruka - Naruto

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Sunday, January 8, 2006

Journal Entry From Today

January 8, 2oo6 --- Destination Point B We've reached destination B in our trip, and i've discovered that my family up here...well, they're not all there. But in that cool way =D My mother's cousin is completely off her rocker and i think it's had an effect on the other five occupants of the household. Those five consist of a father, mother, and three sons. the oldest is 13, the youngest, 7. The house is raised and well furnished. Next to the door is the staircase, two skateboards resting on the first step. In the corner is a rather large antique Italian dresser, no doubt containing a television. Next to that, a fireplace with a painting of bears dancing. Perhaps Russian. WE've just had dinner and surprisingly, for a hjispanic Catholic home, the rules are very relaxed. Saturday is the funural and so for now we'll be here. Then onwards to New York, i terriably miss Kakashi and Kiba, and i wish they were here with me. Anyways, Erik is playing on his computer and I'm about to go back to reading Dracula.

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