Birthday 1989-04-05 Gender
Female Location Philippines Member Since 2005-01-18 Occupation a wannabe writer, taga-alaga ng kapatid, student Real Name ....
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Achievements to be alive and happy Anime Fan Since I watched TV and sawhow great it is! Favorite Anime Shaman King, Code Geass, Deathnote, Rozen Maiden, Haruhi Suzumiya no yuutsu Goals To be successful someday and to write the greatest novel mankind has ever read Hobbies write, read, sing, watch TV, Talents writing, drawing, singing, living happily
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something ice cream wouldn't solve... It's another rainy morning...
I'm happy that it rained
the water in those dam will be filled up once more... that's why I'm happy...
I had an exam this morning.
It was very difficult much more difficult than what I was expecting.
In the end I have a positive feeling taht I've failed that exam...
I got an icream after that exam... the best part is it's for free...
I should be ahppy right? But the sadness didn't go away
I'm still depressed... I can't help it. I'm a person who cannot and would never go to sleep alone... I am a person that will forever love someone to be by her side...
I'm sorry for being like this... I just can't help it.
I want to have someone that feels more like a friend rather than an acquaintance...
I want someone... anyone to show that I did good... and that I pleased them.
got your letter and the poetry you sent me
postmarked in december of last year
i really hope you're doing better
all your friends close by your side
one step closer to recovery
i wish there was something i could say
to erase each and every page
you've been through
even though its not my place to save you
i appreciate but cant accept this thank you note
thats sealed with your last breath
and i won't stand aside
and listen to you give up
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on/ just hold on
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on/ just hold on
these arms remain stretched out to you
maybe someday you'll accept them
maybe its too late to save a young girls heart that slowly stopped beating
(maybe)
wake up wake up you've gotta believe
wake up wake up
you cant give up time keeps going on without us
long after we're dead and gone
i wish there was something i could say
to erase each and every page
you've been through
even though its not my place to save you
i appreciate but cant accept this thank you note
thats sealed with your last breath
and i won't stand aside
and listen to you give up
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on/ just hold on
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on/ just hold on
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>>>I don't know why I am so frustrated about it. I mean he is JUST my highschool classmate and I should accept the fact that his world and mine are two different things now.
But there's always that something inside me that would tell me that accepting those things are wrong.
If he goes on like this then I would surely miss him. I don't know exactly what he is for me. Aside from being an old friend I know that there is something more. He is not my lover, and I am sure of that for I am now in love with someone else. But definitely he is more than a friend for me and a proof of that is I don't want him to get romantically involved with another girl.
I know that I am being selfish but I can't help it. Everytime I think about the consequences of this petty fight I tend to cry. I don't want to lose him. I adore him for he is my friend. I hate it when I don't hear his voice over the telephone. I hate it whenever he tells me that he doesn't want me to come over to their house. I hate it whenever I feel that I am nothing more but a highschool friend.
But most of all, I hate myself. Once more I am hating myself because of a boy... but the funny part about it is that he is just another highschool classmate of mine... well the most special highschool classmate of mine. If I could only love him again like I used to when we were younger then I would surely try to be his girlfriend... but I can't because I don't love him like that. Do not be mistaken. I don't love him to the extent that I would be his girlfriend. All I want is for our relationship to stay they were before... like we were in highschool.
I abhor the fact that I only noticed this now. He is one of the reason why I want to go home. He is also one of the reason why I never forget who I was back when I was in highschool. He is one of the reason why I study well.
Because once upon a time he was also one of the many reasons why I can smile in the midst of the emotional turmoil I am experiencing. He is one of the reasons why I don't want to give up on life.
And I hope that I would never lose him... ever... no matter how far the road of life would take me.
Isa kaming barkada. Magkakaibigan kami. Pag kailangan namin ang isa't-isa andyan lang kami sa tabi-tabi. Masaya kami kapag magksama kami kahit na ba may mga sarili nang nobyo o nobya ang isa't-isa hindi pa rin kami nawawalan ng oras para sa kaibigan namin.
Nagswimming kami ni Jeo sa Villa Celedonia. Kahit na sinabi ko kay mama na madami kami... sa totoo lang dalawa lang kami ni Jeo. Masaya at malabo ang araw na ito. Ngayon ko lang napansin na isa akong mabait na babae. Kasi may isang grupo ng mga lalaki na nasa tabi namin. Grabe ang sasaya nila masyado. At sa isang hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan lagi na lang sila nakikisama sa amin ni Jeo. Tinuturuan ko sana si Jeo na lumangoy pero pati yung isa sa mga lalaking iyon ay gusto na rin na magpaturo sa akin. Grabe nga eh. Hindi ko naman sila kilala tapos feeling pa. Pero sa totoo lang hindi talaga ako naasar kasi ewan nakakatuwa sila. Simpleng manyak nga lang.
WALA SILANG KARAPATAN NA HAWAKAN ANG PAA KO!!!!!!
Anyways... natutuwa ako kasi tinuruan ako ng Jeo ng onti sa paggigitara. Ang sakit sa kamay. Medyo nagets at naaalala ko. Hindi nga ako makapaniwala na seseryosohin ko yun. Kasi minsan kaya hindi ako natututo ay dahil hindi ko sineseryoso ang mga nagtuturo sa kin. Wow! Kaseryoso-seryoso pala si Jeo. Hindi ko alam yun ah.
Sa isang mundong pinapagalaw ng salapi hindi ko sukat akalain na may naniniwala pa pala sa barter trade. Kasi nagkulang ang pera namin ni Jeo sa pamasahe. At dahil jan... binayaran namin yung driver ng kulang pero bilang kabayaran sa iba ay binigyan namin siya ng tinapay. Mukha nga silang tuwang-tuwa. Ganon siguro talaga ang mga gutom. Pero masaya dahil nakauwi kami ng matino dahil dun. Comments (0) |
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Sunday, May 6, 2007
sorry... I'm sorry for making this site my online rant-journal.
I'm really sorry but as a human being you also know how important it is to express yourself. Especially if you can't speak about it in the real world.
>>>>>I'm waiting for another post after that I swear I'll post this one<<<
To those two boys who are always talking about XP/Nya,
I am humbly asking you two to stop it. I know that you two really fantasize about that girl too often but you don't really have to let the whole org know about it.
Sometimes whenever I'm reading those posts I'm doubting if you are the ones writing it. You two sound like two drooling perverted stalkers. I swear when that girl joins I shall tell her your codenames and make her read each and every post that you have written about her. I doubt if those fantasies would ever come true now... well unless if she is nice or naive.
Stop being insensitive creatures! Don't you know that you are already hurting or annoying other people because of what you are writing? Well if you don't know... I'M ONE OF THEM!
I'm sorry for being jealous! I'm just another girl right? Too useless to be of your concern. But if that is the case then stop making me feel like I am significant to the both of you. If you want to then please stop treating me as your friend. You're just hurting me everytime I see you two going on and on about her.
I know I'm not alone for I have already had a talk with another person who is annoyed with you two.
"Ang bait mo talaga kung ako yun hindi ko na kakausapin ang dalawang yun."
Maybe I should take that advice. It's really annoying listening to the both of you.
---REN---
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To someone I call kuya,
I miss you. But do you miss me too? You always say that but you act otherwise. Sometimes I even think all you tell me are lies. But I still believe in you... because I have to. For if I start to stop trusting you, then how can I say that I love you?
What I really miss is the man you are a year ago. Maybe before you were possessed by your ego. Can you remember your promise to protect me? That's the reason why I trusted you fully.
But somehow I think time made you get used to me especially when I cry. Or was that how you show your affection as time goes by? Is hurting me your way to show that I'm important? Or you just want me to be your servant?
Since you want to conquer the world or become its ruler whatsoever. I think I should think about it over. I shall let you go on to do whatever you want. And tell you how I feel... I shan't. But when the time comes I shall say goodbye... I think. For you might actually lose me in just a single blink.
I know that you're just lonely for I am too. But that's the reason why you found me and I found you. Don't you realize that I'm here all along? You're searching for a friend, am I wrong? But can I not be that friend you're looking for? Or do I still have to beg you until I make my body sore?
I know that I may not be enough. I'm not that smart nor that tough. I know there are many things we cannot understand about each other. And that makes us fight even longer. But believe me when I say that I love you. For that is the only thing in my life that is ever true.
Please change and try to understand. All you need to do is talk to me and lend me your hand. I'm listening, you know I do. And for the last time I shall say to you...
I miss you a lot even more than you know.
-Yume
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^Why do I feel like all the ends of the sentences rhyme? Oh well... maybe it's just my imagination
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Again sorry for ranting. You could not read this if you don't want to. I'm not forcing you. But remember this: I'm just a human... I have a heart too. Comments (0) |
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Friday, May 4, 2007
I like talking to you!.... I think? It hurts...
something inside of me hurts but I cannot pinpoint what exactly it is.
He is slowly hurting me without him knowing it. He doesn't have any right to hurt me for he is only a friend. But his words hurt. They hurt so much that I truly want to cry.
"Your tears make me laugh."
How do you know that I'm faking it? Can you feel what I am feeling?
Some people think that they know everything but they are totally WRONG! No man can know everything. Do you know the name of the Taho vendor that passed by the hospital 20 meters away from our house?
If you do... then... do you know when exactly the Taho vendor shouted the first "tahooooo" this week?
If no then... See! I told you so! Hehehehe
If yes then you must be that stupid taho vendor.
But my point really is that you can never know everything because you don't need to know it. What you already know and what destiny would let you know may suffice already.
I think I should stop ranting now... this feeling might even be worse than I think. Comments (0) |
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