Friday, December 23, 2005

   I'm always full of Randomness...what's new?
I know that web journals are meant to be read...
but I didn't thought that of all the people in the world (especially those who are capable of connecting to the internet) HE would read it.

Good thing wala akong nilagay dito tungkol sa mga pangyayari nung Dec 15 and 16... I'm safe...
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Random topic one:

I don't know why I'm so bothered with the fact that I am like one of psycho-stress'characters...
If you can't understand a thing I'm saying well let me explain...

you see this guy is a writer (a serious one not a wannabe like me) and he had created a girl that he says was like ME but of coarse when he created her we haven't crossed paths yet...

I just met him this year for crying out loud...
and that story was already intact before he knew me...

oh life...

I read only three chapters so the character's personality is still not that clear to me...
so that is why up until now... I don't want to believe that I'm Sevia...
I really don't know why I'm still thinking about it...
I mean its not that bad, right?

Take note: I'm not acting like Sevia just so that he would like me... argh! I hate it when someone tells me that I'm capable of pretending just to please somebody! D'arvit!

One thing I noticed... Zenith is taller than Sevia

(d'arvit height palang parang kami na nga!)
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The chains that bind me always haunts me...
I don't know If I've already escaped
I don't know If I've already learned how to fly...
All I know that because of them... because of him...
I've learned how to forget about those chains...

that's why I really am thankful...
because they had taught me...

how to be happy...
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Random topic two: Some words/phrases/sentences may be written in my native tongue so that I could express it more clearly...

D'arvit, d'arvit, d'arvit! (Native tongue nga tapos gnommish! hay mici!)

Hindi ako makapaniwala na nakapunta siya dito!

Imagine a girl sleeping in the middle of the day... then the moment she looks at the message in her cell she saw this

Guess where I am (or something like that n_n;)

D'arvit!

Akala ko talaga nasa Vicas na siya... (nearest landmark to our house)

Buti naman nasa SM Fairview siya...

Nakakaasar talaga siya... mula nang sabihin niya iyon nagpanic na agad ako..

why?


I was worried about him...


baka mawala siya, baka mapahamak siya (It's dangerous out there! That's why I don't like going out of the house BY MYSELF!)...

atsaka iniisip ko rin na malamang mapagod siya sa biyahe... d'arvit ang layo ng bahay niya mula sa amin tapos

tapos ang gastos rin... (I know kuripot talaga ako)

Basta...

but he came...

at nakakaasar talaga siya kahit kelan kasi nakakotse pala siya...

pinag-alala niya lang ako sa wala (Tanga ko noh?)

we talked

at nagkulitan


pero di lang niya alam...


my Christmas just got happier because of that

(now I know that he knows...)


I wanted to tell him that I too feel the same way...
But I can't because I'm scared that others might hear...
I'm different at home...
I hide my tears, I never get serious... I'm just different in the eyes of my family...
That is the place where those chains are at its tightest...
the place where I feel like I'm imprisoned...
that's why I always hesitate before going home...

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I'm afraid of being hurt.
I hate crying...
I curse myself for being weak
I loathe myself because I'm so stupid...
I'm an abomination to myself...
If there is one person that I really hate...
That is ME...

That is the reason why I don't believe that there are such people that could really love me...

In the end...


they always leave...


and I always suffer

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Random topic three: Part two ng Random topic two (I'm crazy, ne?)

Okay yung nasa itaas tungkol sa pagpunta niya...

ito yung nasa bahay na siya...

Okay so buti na lang andun yung kapatid ko kaya nabuntun ko lahat sa kanya... kawawa naman napagtripan ko nanaman siya pero mild naman yung ginagawa ko sa kanya eh (I'm such a bad sister... and I know it)

So ayun kulitan... binabalik niya yung takut ko dun sa matanda...

I hate ghost stories...
Because I can easily be scared...


Ang saya ko talaga...

siguro mas masaya ako kung masasabi ko sa kanya yung gusto kong sabihin non...

kaso hindi talaga pwede kasi alam kong binabantayan ako nun...

may kasunod pa ito pero next part na...
composition time!

Patay kang keyboard ka!
wakekekeke

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Randomness kakapasok lang sa utak ko

alam niyo ba yung kantang Houkiboshi from BLEACH?

Well if no, it is a cheerful type of song...

but FYI I actualy cried while SINGING that song

Not because my voice is terrible... which is true
It was just because...

argh! If you really want to know the reason ask me personally hahaha! Or leave a comment...

I promise I'd tell...

But honestly Houkiboshi is not a sad song and the fact that I cried upon hearing and singing the song was kindda wierd okay it is wierd I admit it...

That is why Houkiboshi is one BLEACH song that is truly memorable for me!

notice how I like to type "..." I think my fingers are just used to it... see!


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