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Location
• Here. :)
Member Since
• 2004-02-21
Occupation
• Student.
Real Name
• Just call me Tills.

Personal

Achievements
• I can sit with my feet by my hips and my back flat on the ground.
Anime Fan Since
• Along time now.
Favorite Anime
• .Hack// , FLCL.
Goals
• Hm..
Hobbies
• Gazette, other music, Gothic Lolita, ShoXX, swimming, video games, choir, Bell choir, being a person of the steps, my Tamagotchi, drawing.
Talents
• Drawing, making yarn dolls, pixeling.

myOtaku.com: midnight mistral

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

I just dunno. . Please read. .

Everything's kinda screwy lately. . My mom's trying to stop me from going anywere. . Like always. Today, she wouldn't open any doors, (Theres one big door, then a hall way into another door, to her kitchen) I knocked on all the windows, and screamed 'Mom' she didn't come. I turned around and kicked the door, and it came open (Sam taught me) and I got my cds, she said you cant go to oklahoma. I said Yes I will and you cant stop me. Later that night, she came to my house and said "You little girl cant go, and I emailed your father about it." I said I didnt care, she went down stairs, I followed her and she stood in the hall way, I stood there too and she started threatining me, she said she's calling the police again. Tommorow she's haveing police officers comeing to school to pick me up. (So she says) And takeing me away so dad cant see me, and hes comeing home tommorow.I stood in front of the phone, and she said, you think you can stop me? I said you think i cant. So, she just stared. I said Id call children services because everythings screwed there. . they covered my bed with trash and there stuff, while im gone. And such. I have the number, but I dont know. its all so confuzing. I cant take it anymore. It's all constant bickering, constant pulling, ugh. She wants to test my blood at a hospital (Dr. said to) because in surgery, i will likely run out of blood.No one really talks to me anymore. Which sucks. Airy is with her friends, which make scence because this is their last year. Nate,is always gone. Elena, just doesnt know. So I shut up and sit in my damn little corner at reccess. people call my back a deformity, and I look normal, cept i stand crooked,and today, walking down the hallway. . someone poked my back, laughed and ran away..On top of such, Ive missed most of my bdays, and if I had one, it was cheap. And then, sam got a big one. No one every really likes me at school. They know im there, most of them know whats wrong, (Kathrien blabs) and they just ignore me. They dont even say hello. Thus I havent been invited to birthdays, and I havent had any bdays that more than 3 people came too. This year, I just had tri and tin over, which was, a blast, but sam is haveing a bowling alley party. And now, it seems there all taunting me, Zach continues talking about his birthday, and who he will invite.I also found two straight lines across my wrist, I dont know how they got there either.its fadeing now, but its gunna be a scare. I guess it all just hurts alot when its packed together, this is too long of a post, so I wont say it all. I know most of you didnt read, if you did, you skimmed, because you dont really care either.
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They all call me ugly, rub it in my face that im fugly.Im not pretty, I never claimed to be, i cry myself to sleep in my bed, i cut so deep I never even bled. ---n.e.r---
La La La La La La La La La La La La La <3

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