Tuesday, June 29, 2004

Your Reality- poem
Your Reality

Don't you touch me
Don't you dare
I will run
From your icy stare

Who the hell do you
Think you are?
You deserve no better
Than what you have

You don't deserve me
And never will
So get your hands off me,
'Cause I can kill

Get off of me
Get away from me
Go find someone
Who refuses to see

Your reality's a lie.
You believe in nothing else
Than your self-centred dreams.
A world for yourself.

Your world is a mirror:
All about you.
Can't you see that no one else
Feels the way you do?

Open your eyes and break that mirror
Forget the truth that is a lie.
Find someone who cannot see
The reality that is me.

Crawling inside you
Can't you notice?
I'm beside you
All the time

Buried deep
Inside your brain
I control you…
I still own you…

I'm the real you
Can't you see?
You never were
You'll never be…

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Please- poem
Please

Can anyone see me?
Can anyone hear?
How do I know
If you even care?

Am I still here?
Or have I moved away?
Do you still own me
Or now I'm just stray?

I don't want to be
Home anymore
I don't want to see
You anymore

I don't want to cry
For myself anymore
I want to be alone…
..all alone..

Why won't you hear me
When I tell you I'm not real
Why do you insist
That I must try hard
To be what I'm not
Your dream
Your vision…

I am not who you think
I am not the real thing
I don't trust myself
Or the world that I live in

I live in my mind
Inside my thoughts
And when I stop thinking…
Will you fade away?

Please leave me
To be myself
Just a dream
Just a vision…

Please leave me alone
Please leave me
Please leave….

…please…

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Final Notes- poem
Final Notes

I can't remember
I can't see
I can't hear
Anything around me

Am I alone?
Or are you with me?
Please come help me
Please don't leave me…

It doesn't matter
If the wind is cold
I cannot hear
What I am told

I want to see
the autumn leaves
I want to see
The crowded streets

I want to hear
The sound of Spring
The songs of birds
In my ear

I want to feel
That my hand is held
The warmth of others
On my skin

I want to say
To everyone I remember
How much I love you
And a final thank you…

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   My Wolrd- poem
My World

Blood dripping
Down the walls
Soft scents and
Ten mile falls

Sharp Rocks
Elusive Whips
My gestures
On your hips

Handcuffs
and bloody chains
the romance was lost
from these restraints

Long ago when time was young
When the eclipse still sung
Under the starless
Dark night sky
When I was still too shy

There was wind
not a simple breeze
There could be sin
But no one to please
Searching beneath these bloody sheets

Death surrounds me
It overcomes me
Through the sirens of the midnight
Black winged angels
Pulling me down
To be part of the long lost night

Silence
Not a word
Not a whisper
In my world

I bury myself
Under my skin
Closing my eyes
To every sin

And then I notice
That if I do
There is no world
There is no you…

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   mWaHaHaHaHa!!
]=) *is in a devilish mood* Whooo! The bishies return! =3 Since I'm on holiday now, I've been having plenty of free time, so I dedicate myself to poetry and drooling about my bishies! X3 Whee! Bishies...^-^ Anyway, it's very hot around here and I can barely write, I'm soo tired...I can feel my eyes closing, I haven't slept at all well the last few days..e.e anyway, I'm posting a poem. ^_^
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Monday, June 21, 2004

   Free time
woohoo! My tests are over and I'm study-free now! ^_^ *very very happy* Anyway, I have a lot of free time now, so that means more ranting! whee! *ducks from the tons of rotten tomatoes that were thrown at her* *sticks her tongue out* Nhe nhe, ya missed me--- *gets hit in the face with a pink plushie bunny* OKAY WHO THREW THAT??
Ryuichi- ME!! *cheery*
Me: *sweatdrop* Anyway people, check for updates...
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Thursday, June 10, 2004

   WOOHOO! Rock Festival!
I spent the coolest 2 days in my life. Yesterday, an all-night Rock Festival began. It's called Super Bock Super Rock. Well, yesterday I went to see Muse, but I arrived late, so I missed them. Instead, I got to see Blasted Mechanism (they rock on stage!) and Linkin Park (*squeals and faints*). Today, I went to see Avril Lavigne, although she was waaaaaaay under my expectations. Her stagework was awful, considering she is very young. I would advise her to practise. Anyway, after that, I saw Nelly Furtado. She might be a little...well, "mentally underdeveloped" so to speak, but her voice is powerful and nice, her stagework is amazingly awesome and she IS very pretty. After that, came David Fonseca, who I completely worship. He sings good, he puts up a hell of a show and his songs are GORGEOUS! I would strongly recommend you to download his songs on Kazaa, Piolet, iMesh or Ares...or any other P2P program. Anyway, it was worth it just to see him ^-^
Tomorrow, my friend Yuna is coming over to swim in my pool. Yay! She nags, nags, nags but she's alright. I'm the only one that knows how to control her. Mwahahahahaha!
Everyone have a nice weekend!
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Saturday, June 5, 2004

   Another Final Exam week....3 for each week...good lord.
Hello! Sorry for not writing...I've been completely immersed in textbooks...it's the month of June, also known among me and my colleagues as the Month of Doom. It's that month of the year when we have all our final exams...2 each week. So I haven't been able to write. But today I can! yay!
Anyway... I'm a bit sad nobody writes in my guestbook. Color Me Evil was very nice to write indeed and I talked to her on AIM. She seems a wonderful person. And Suzuka Shin, but she's my friend, so she doesn't count XP (j/k!).
Trying desperately to stop thinking of Bakura before the exams...but I can't so I do the whole exam with him in my head. No, I'm not an obsessed fangirl. I'm just insane.
To those very few people who visit my site, please sign the guestbook...I'm very annoyed because no one cares about me, not even my parents...I feel ignored. I personally don't mind, but it would be nice of them to congratulate me when I get good grades...
G2g now, take care!
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Sunday, May 23, 2004

   Nice Saturday...have to study today...-__-;;
I sneaked down to my computer room to write, so be thankful for it. ^_^ just kidding! Anyway, yesterday I spent the whole day with my dad. We went to see Castelo de Almourol, it's situated in the middle of the Tejo (or Tagus) river! It's very pretty and the view from the tower is astounding! Oh, I need help too. Could anyone recommend one or two good sites for me to get some avatars? Thank you a lot, really.
g2g, mom's coming X_X
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Friday, May 21, 2004

   Mind Breakdown!!
Hi..um..this is my first blog and my first post. I'm kinda nervous, so don't come ranting to me about the nonsense in my posts. ;-)
I've been full of exams this week, starting Monday we'll have three more and starting the 31st we'll have the Finals with only one day between each, so I'm not very happy. I AM very sleepy, I'm not getting enough sleep 'cause I have to study. Anyway, I won't be able to write so soon, so enjoy this while you can, jah?
Meanwhile, check Suzuka Shin's site. She's cool and I bet she can cheer you up. *^-^* I'll post some art soon, anyway!
~*~ stars ~*~

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