Monday, August 16, 2004

Shadows

Hiding in the shadows from the world, from everyone and everything in it... Never to leave the sanctity of the everlasting silence that I, to this day, lay within. If ever I venture from this sanctity, I must hide behind an alias not my own, fearing what I would truly be thought of. If I were to escape from the prison that is my own mind... what would life be like? Oh, how I wish I wouldn't care... I don't want to care, but I am unable to keep back the warm tears now rolling down my cheeks... I struggle to fight back, but let out a strangled sob, and no one hears it. I do not expect anyone to, though... no one has before, no one will now... and I doubt ever will... Destined to be alone, accompanied only by the unbroken silence and concieling shadows... Though life goes on, whatever our destiny may be, and if ever I cannot take the cruelties and fragilities of life, I sink back into the shadows, unseen, unnoticed, and unwanted... If only, if only.

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Sunday, August 15, 2004

Japanese Name...

This is my name in Japanese... ‹v”üŽq Kumiko (eternal beautiful child). Take your real japanese name generator! today! Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator. I thought it was really pretty...I don't think it's very accurate though. *sigh* I'm done. Not much to do today... I shall go be depressed in my dark corner, alone... -_- That reminds me, I wrote this journal entry, somewhat poetic, but it's not a poem. I'll post it later, if I can find it.

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*Sigh*

I'm still in a bad mood from yesterday... -_- I woke up to my grandma yelling at someone in my living room... She doesn't even live here... Doesn't help that Bush is gonna be in Florida today to "assess the damage" from the Hurricane... my brother wanted to go see him, but my dad's like "Only if you get me a rifle." Trying to talk to as few people as possible today... Just feel like the first person to piss me off will get a mouthful -_- Weathermen are evil... that's all I gotta say. EVIL. I feel like I've been complaining to you guys in every post I make... I'm sorry, but I have to write this somewhere.

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Saturday, August 14, 2004

o.0

*In fetal position, rocking back and forth* ..Soooooo....bored... o.0 .... Hope you all know of Hurricane Charley... Well I was basically in Ground Zero for it... Haven't had power for 2 days... Been SOOOOOO boring, nothing to do, warm food since the fridge didn't work, complete darkness... >_< Nature truly is a force to be reckoned with... Thankfully the house is still intact, except we need a new roof... the trees in front of our house are either on the ground in the street, or completely bald... Only one way to get on the street now, since there's a huge tree laying directly across the street.. We didn't get very much damage, but in Punta Gorda there are NO houses left...everything's in rubble, we went for a drive today and the canal's are overflowing, the McDonald's sign is in pieces, none of the traffic lights are working, barely any stores are open, all the Propane Tanks are sold out, (For grills and generators...)everyone is getting in accidents, it sucks... gonna be a while till we can go back to school, let alone for all the 15 BILLION DOLLARS OF DAMAGE to be repaired... only a few people died, though. Most of them because they drove out in the middle of the storm, and hit a tree -_- The rest were because of the huge storms in Punta Gorda...I feel sorry for them...none of those people have anywhere to live. Can't help but feel lucky, too, though. We barely got touched at all...it was even fun, a little... makes me feel guilty >_< Mother Nature can be cruel... oh, so cruel... My friend's lanai (patio/porch) got destroyed, and now I think she's mad at me for no reason... I just said I was sorry that she still didn't have power and about her house and she seemed mad and sarcastic at me... maybe it's just me, I don't know... it just makes me feel even worse than I was before...

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Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Quotes

Um, yeah...my 3rd post today...got this idea when I had gotten over my paranoia... I'm going to list my favorite quotes! It'd be nice if you guys could comment with your favorites, or tell me what to think of mine... (Hopefully I can remember all of them)Well, here we go. -It's better to be hated for who you are, than to be loved for who your aren't. -Why be infatuated in happy colors when the world is so depressingly black? (Soo described me) -When life gives you lemons...throw them back and say Make your own D!mn lemonade!! -There is no meaning of life. We all live pointless lives, destined to die. I just choose to live my life the way I want to before my destiny comes true. -But, if I let a smile be my umbrella, won't the water just collect in it like a bowl, and then drench me when it collapses? They are concave ya know. -Ummmm... I don't consider you all sane. Just thought i'd let you know. -Glad I'm not considered sane too, I can stop acting now... -If peace and love are important, then why is your avatar shooting me? -That's the name of the guns, Peace and Love. -I'm 1/3 alien! I'm also 1/3 demon, 1/6 human, and 1/6 something else. -If you dare ask that again, I will personally rip out your eyelids, shove them up your nose far enough to poke your brain, shove a silver stake in your ear, rip it out, use it to put you on a crucifix (sp?), yank it out of your wrist, push you off a bridge into the nearest river, pull you out just before you can drown by grabbing your neck with a rope, and hang you off of the tallest building I can find so that you can die from fear rather than the hanging... -o.0 ...You'd enjoy that wouldn't you? -Not really. I just enjoy torturing people with empty threats. -They should make a right on the Highway of Life and go to Hell. -Life sucks, but it's better than the alternative. -Comprehension is not a requisit of cooperation. -If we never take time, how can we ever have time? -I'm not going to try to delude you, saying it won't be so bad, because it will. Ok? This is going to hurt like hell and there's nothing anyone can do about it. (Hehe) -Someone stands up in the middle of happy hour and shouts, "Hey, all lawyers are assholes." Another person stands up and replies, "I resent that remark!" "Why, are you a lawyer?" "No, I'm an asshole." -Yo Squirrel food, click ya heels tagetha 3 times and repeat, "I need a life." -What? It is so clean! Just ignore the mess, and it's perfectly spotless! -Telepath, psychopath, what's the difference? -I shall call him Squishy, and he shall be mine; and he shall be my squishy! -Yusuke Urameshi, age 14. He's supposed to be the main character of the story, but it seems he is dead. -It's not me, the rest of the world's insane. -You're afraid of me because I'm different. I'm afraid of you because you're all the same. -Before you make fun of someone, try walking a mile in their shoes. This way, you'll be a mile away from them, and have their shoes. -I went to a Chinese restaurant the other day, and I realized that the scariest thing in the world would quite possibly be to open up a fortune cookie and pull out a blank piece of paper. -After finding someone/something that they'd been looking for for a long time, why do people always say it was in the last place they'd look? Of course it'll be the last place you look, unless you're a moron and keep looking after you'd found it. -Me, I am dishonest. And a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest. But you can not always trust an honest man to be honest, therefore, it is the honest men you should watch out for. -A stick is your friend, a pointed stick is your good friend, an army of pointed sticks is your best friend. -How would you know if you had gone crazy? If you think to yourself, "I could be crazy," you can't be crazy. A crazy person doesn't allow the possibility that they're crazy. Crazy people convince themselves that they're actually sane. But... couldn't that be exactly what you're doing when you think "I couldn't possibly be crazy, because I'm considering that I could be crazy." In considering that you're crazy, you're convincing yourself you're sane, and in doing that, there's the possibility that you're crazy. Yes. I have a lot of favorite quotes. And this post is probably the longest one I've ever made... Ah well.

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I'm Back...

Finally back from the 2nd day of school... Since we have block schedule, I had the rest of my classes today. I'm sitting next to the same people in every class... because every teacher just feels the need to give us seating arrangements by last name (Besides my math teacher, who sorts us by our birthdays...wierd) and I'm in the advanced classes. Same people, every class, same seating arrangements. -_- Well...at least it's over. Now, I can't program my VCR to tape the shows I want to watch, because I'm not allowed to stay up late anymore... *twitch* Apparently, I don't get up early enough when I stay up late, even though school starts at NINE O'CLOCK... Ok...I'm gonna go now...

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School...

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, there hasn't been much to say. Yesterday was the first day of school, and I must say, it went exactly as I knew it would -_- Almost fell asleep in the last period...Well, so did everyone else. The main event for the day was "Get to know each other!" In every class... *Sigh* This year is gonna be a pain...none of my friends are in any of my classes...we're not even on the same Team... (And they won't let me switch! Argh!!) Well... it's off to school...again -_-

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Friday, August 6, 2004

Mesa Jar-Jar-Binx!

Mesa wants a scanner so mes can scans me drawings...But mesa dad wun't by mes ones... Evilss!! Yes...I have recently taken on the lingo of Jar-Jar Binx from Star Wars...it gets really confusing trying to spell sometimes... Basically, my dad is too cheap to buy a scanner...saying it won't be used. Like he'd know..he's not psychic! He can't see the future! ...Or can he...? o.0 Yes, mesa wants to be obnoxious right now... and mesa dun care whosa reads dis... ^^

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Thursday, August 5, 2004

New Harddrive

Well...I got a new harddrive for my computer today. (Well, actually my dad did, but still) There's good and bad things about that. Good= A lot more space. This drive's got 120GB, my last one only have 20. The comp is a little faster, too. Bad= I have to reinstall EVERYTHINIG. It took me forever to reinstall Windows, not to mention I haven't even started on all the games...my characters/files were deleted, mostly, except for my pictures and music, but other than that, it's gonna be quite a while till my comp's the same as before. -_- My brothers were too lazy to help me put the computer back together, so I was all on my own. And once I got it all together again, the Windows XP CD just HAPPENED to be missing. And none of them even cared...nope. Guess you can't really expect them to. *Annoying girl with a Swedish accent doing the Echo-echo-echo-echo thing in the background* -_- Don't ask. Anyway, ttyl.

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Monday, August 2, 2004

   Boringest Summer in the History of Boringness

Yes...basically what the title said. This has got to be one of the most BORINGEST summers in the history of boringdom...(yes, I know I spelled that wrong) No one wants to talk to me *sobs* Everyone hates me!! Jeez...no one's been on AIM or Yahoo for like 3 days, my fav forum's been turned off for a few days, and school starts in a week! Just kill me now, why don'tcha??!

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