Monday, July 17, 2006

hello

good morning everyone, okay well sorry i havent updated in awile i've been busy lately i started a sequel to one of my stories that i've posted on here a long time ago before i finished it and im reading one of the two books that i have to for next year and so far its okay ^^ my theme for this week is 1000 words oh yeah and last night i went to see pirates of the carribean it was even better than the first one (so funny) "I want my dirt" okay well i'll try and write a poem for tomm! ^^ have a wonderful day! ~kitty)

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

words of loneliness

i collapsed to my knees to weak to stand no one was there to give me a hand as i shuddered in the cold of the falling rain i realized just how pathetic i really am i felt so small and meaningless looking towards the sky i felt so weak like i was beaten before i even had the chance to try like all i could do is sit on the wet ground wanting to die i couldnt even cry... i screamed at the sky to blanket me in rain i wished that you were here to take away this pain and for you to hold me, sheild me from this world i'd do anything for you... if i was only strong enough to tell you how i feel i wish you could hold me as i cry all this pain away but i just cant find the words to say they all seem to vanish whenever i try to speak... its like im broken inside and theres no where i can hide i wish i knew who i was suppose to be the past unfolds before my eyes and i wish i couldnt see cause i dont want to remember what i've kept inside i've kept this pain inside for so long that i cant let it go my face is burning and i feel so cold i wish i could just wish this all away but i dont know what im suppose to say im so tired that i cant sleep im too weak to get out of the rain all i can feel is this pain a burning sensation deep within my heart even though you werent here somehow thinking of you helped me find the strength to stand but my vision isnt so clear its not as clear as my love for you im so sorry i can never speak and i know it makes you mad i'm sorry that i always seem to make you sad but i love you so please dont go away i dont want to be alone again... cause when im without you the pain is unbearable... and i can never find the strength to stand on my own i know i'm probably in your way but please dont go away... i cant be alone again.... (another poem i wrote after sitting in the rain for like an hour wishing it would start pouring but instead it stopped raining which is probably good i guess cause i would have made myself sicker but anyway i changed my theme to match the song "never again" that i put up there i decided to pick a song and a theme every week instead of just leaving it the same cause if i leave it you guys might get bored of seeing the same thing everytime you come to visit ^^ well im feeling sad but its aliright and i think im talking to much so ill hush since i keep going on and on Oo so have a wonderful day and ill go check your sites! ^^ take care everyone! ~kitty)

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Monday, July 10, 2006

echos in the night

i've been screaming your name into the dark the echos of my cries calling back to me laughing at my insanity I can't think clearly and i don't know who it is i use to be all i can do is stare at the clock as time passes by this emptiness i feel is burning through my veins your voice is drownded out by the madness in my head crying into empty sheets, i'm alone like in the books i've read tell me did something happen to you? cause it feels like you're never coming back the remnants of my broken heart fell from a sky so black and i'm crying out for you to hear me i cant let go of this pain that i can no longer hide heartache is all that i feel inside my tears are invisible in the mornings light wont you save me from this night i cry out for you with no reply from the shadows i'm falling deeper into darkness dont you hear me dont you love me? will you just stand by and watch me die? please dont leave me here your love is burried deep within my memories and its all that remains i'm riding a ferris wheel, stuck at the top with no way down and a sudden drop will you just leave me here? will you let me fall to certain death? is this my last breath cause if it is remember i only wanted you i only wanted you... so if for a moment you loved me then all my pain was worth it i hope you know i waited for so long i really dont know what is wrong but please dont leave me here i'm riding a ferris wheel, stuck at the top with no way down and a sudden drop and only you can make it stop (this is a poem i wrote saturday but i didnt get a chance to post it cause i was ordered to stay in bed all day XD well back to bed and then ill visit everyones sites! have an awesome day ~kitty)

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Friday, July 7, 2006

out of place

i was hoping you'd be here today but i guess life never works out that way did you have something else to do? cause i really missed you... i waited all day on the curb my friends said that i was being absurd but i can't help that i feel this way so i'll just watch as my friends all walk away to them i'm just some crazy girl thats lost her mind but if they would rewind they would find that i'm crying because i want you but they dont understand how i really feel i cry amidst all the chaos around me the only thing that seems real is the ground beneath my feet and the rain that makes its own beat im soaked to the core all my friends have left me in this void of dreams i cover my ears to block out my screams i need you more than ever before wipe away my tears and hide my face i dont belong in this place have i been erased from your heart my world tilts as i begin to cry again this curb is cold and lonely have i really lost my mind? all my friends are gone and i've fallen behind and as i look down i find no one is around when i close my eyes i can pretend that you're here holding me that i'm not alone in the rain and when i open my eyes i see your smiling face only to find i'm still out of place (hey everyone! im still sick so i'm probably going to have to see a doctor if i'm not better by monday (i dont like doctors *eats an apple* T_T) k well this isnt a really good poem cause i just wrote it and i didnt want to edit it i'll visit everyones sites i promise! have an awesome day! ~kitty)

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Thursday, July 6, 2006

   forgotten windowsill

i've rushed ahead away from all the things they've said they don't understand how much i wish you were by my side I feel completely lost all mixed up inside In your heart have you forgotten me? tears come streaming down my face your love is something time can't replace when i close my eyes i only see you what's wrong with me? as i sit upon my windowsill icey tears fall from my cheeks i stare into the midnight darkness waiting for you the days all look like the mist rising from the ground on a hot summers day and when the rain all melts away i'll be waiting for you the stars are falling from the sky were all of your promises one big lie it's a foggy night and i wonder why did i fall for you? how do you feel when im not there did you really ever care? what's wrong with me? this windowsill wont hold much longer all this pressure is sure to make it crack i wish that i could be stronger but i'll be waiting for you when love is lost and dreams have vanished and all the stars have fallen i'll still be here waiting cause my love is true so dont think of me wherever you are it's not like you've gone to far i'll wish upon one last star before it falls forever just like me... let's just be honest the truth is ill never be okay i need you cause all i feel now is pain and the days all look like the mist rising from the ground on a hot summers day when the rain all melts away will i see your face? or will i be forgotten upon this windowsill? (hey everyone sorry i havent posted in awile i've been sick lately i still dont feel better but i wanted to post this i wrote it after having to sit out in the rain to watch fireworks which didnt help and but yeah thats life lol well everyone take care plz forgive me if i cant get to all of your sites! and if you have any trouble commenting try using the permalink cause otherwise i dunno have a great day! ~kitty)

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Monday, July 3, 2006

im sorry everyone!

My deepest apologies to everyone! i am so sorry for this inconvenience i dont know why it wont let you all post a comment i will try and find out what the problem is and fix it asap! in the mean time everyone take care and ill get to your sites! and thank you all who pmed me their comments i appreciated it!!!! ~kitty

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Sunday, July 2, 2006

sky of darkness

as you leave me in a pool of blood in the darkness i will suffer from the deepest wound that stabbed me deep in the heart with your memory all this pain is causing my heart to flood i cant stand all these people who dont understand they know nothing of what i've been through how can they say i can't love you when it's my heart to give do they even know what love is cause without you i cant live my sky is darkness and senseless rain you say you've torn my heart open many times that we'd never make the perfect pair and that i shouldnt care but i dont care about all that cause you are my sky without you my sky is left in darkness you are the stars and the moon at night you make my days bright and when i cried you were there to comfort me i feel so broken as the days go by all i can do is cry as these tears fall from my now gray eyes as my dreams die and all the barriers in my life burn all my world weins on your return so while you are gone remember there is no girl in the world who will love you more im not trying to say im better but i need you cause you're my sky so dont leave me here in the darkness where i cry upon the floor if you dont come back soon this darkness will consume me from the inside my sky is only black when you're gone and my insides all burn all i can do is cry i wish you could hear me from wherever you are but until you return it will rain forever but know this when you're gone you take my heart and i wont be whole until were together (sorry i havent been posting for a couple days i was at my grandmas sadly and i was trying not to offend her by using the computer but the i find out she accused me of ripping the antena off of her tv that my dad gave her so yeah...well i hope everyone has a wonderful day im gonna check your sites and the draw if anyone has any ideas of what i should draw i'm kind of out of ideas! take care everyone =) ~kitty)

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Thursday, June 29, 2006

what would you do?

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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

timeless days

timeless days haunt my waking screams i have been lost within these dreams wishing only to understand what lies before me beyond these shadows of dark how can the wounds be so deep when i hadnt felt the pain before why cant i stand the rain anymore will this storm defeat me? lightning strikes me down and theres no where to hide i am lost within these timeless days no words can describe the pain inside that makes even the strongest fade into the night only my cries can comfort me cause im oblivious for the nothingness will drive me to insanity memories of the past embrace my soul with more pain creating a void of sorrow within my heart was this love was all in vain as i am lying in the pouring rain i wish only to know will you ever return to me? without you i am lost withing timeless days and the rest is shadows... (this is another poem i wrote i was gonna post it sooner but the internet was out...so ill try to get to everyones site plz forgive me if i dont! love you all! ~kitty)

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Monday, June 26, 2006

left behind

as im sitting in the pouring rain i look up into the clouded sky forgetting all the pain for a moment in my mind i remember the past and all the things we use to say then i remember the words you said over and over again The sound of your voice runs deep within my head even when I close my eyes i hear you screaming at me and you dont want to hear what i have to say i think im crying but i really cant tell i thought you said you'd catch me if i fell even if you're not with me you hurt me still i'm hurting so bad i just wish you would just listen cause trapped in this memory of all the things you said and you don’t want to hear me all i want is to love you but all you want is for me to go away how do you expect me to find my way I can't hold on with you gone dont you know im so afraid i can't even find my way out of the rain all i can do is sit hear thinking of what you said and im lost within the pain you ask me whats wrong and i say nothing if you wanna know so bad it's everything i wasnt all fake smiles i was happy to but you just dont get that do you? if i hold on to this pain to long im gonna start drowning but you wouldnt care would you cause you just want me gone so you can move on and you dont wanna hear me can't we rewind make it all happen differently can't things be like they use to be can't you see im desperate for you to be true why did i fall for you? my face is stained from tears or rain i dont really know but i guess it doesnt matter that much my heart is bleeding from these fears always running through my mind i was left behind to deal with this pain on my own and as im sitting in the pouring rain i look up into the clouded sky forgetting all this pain for a moment in my mind and i wasnt left behind... (i wrote this cause its truly how i feel right now...i wish life wasnt so complicated but sometimes i feel like im fading away k well im gonna stop complaining now cause i'm not important =) k well everyone take care i love you guys!!!) ~kitty

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