Saturday, June 24, 2006

last words...

i was walking to my death i heard people screaming my name was this some kind of sick game? i covered my ears and cried out in pain falling to my knees in a pool of blood my fears were taking over, i was living a life with nothing to gain why was it love always kills hearts? the darkness fades into the night as fires glow and people slain stop crying out as the light of the fire burns a bloodied red im alone again... the fire keeps burning throughout the night the warmth from the fire gives no life to those who died of broken hearts but it gets me thinking... why should i live when my heart was crushed? am i alive or am i just a shadow of this world a faded memory brushed from the thoughts of all who knew me was i one of the ones screaming for help? why did love rip my heart out and watch me bleed? why do i feel like im fading from myself? im alone again... i dont understand why i walked away if i could say what i wanted to say maybe he would have felt that way to but its far to late for me to change my fate so ill just lie here in my blood and be a faded memory as i fell into darkness saw his face he laid his head next to mine and held my hand i love you were the last and the first words i managed to say... (k i wrote this i like this one XD lol well anyways ill get to your sites and uhm lol well thats about it so take care everyone you all are very great friends and im glad i have you to share my poems with! =) ~kitty)

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Friday, June 23, 2006

O_o k well...uhm yeah lol ill post a poem tomm when i write one

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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

behind the rising sun

if i close my eyes again will i see the countinuation of my dream or was it lost forever behind the rising sun if i take one step closer to the day will i find my way? was my dream true or was it just a memory of some forgotten land this land that i live in now theres so much death and tears pain rises over the fears leaving me wondering how how have i survived this long where will this dirt road lead me as my memories fade behind the rising sun i have become a wandering soul trying only to find my way to where my dream was lost behind the rising sun if only you could drift away from all this pain where all the people die in vain and become a wanderer to (isnt a really good one T_T sorry i havent been on in a couple days i had a feaver so i wasnt doing much so dont hate me! T_T kay everyone take care im gonna visit your sites now! ^^)

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Saturday, June 17, 2006

truth and lies

all those happy days fade away into the dust between the truth and the lies do you see the hurt within my eyes? im bleeding on the outside but i burry all the pain on the inside i'm going crazy and its hard to hide this pain that im feeling, does it show? only you would know... dont you remember anything though my memories seem to be fading too wasnt our love always true? this word keeps coming back to me and only you would know there was one thing that i knew that was lost between the truth and lies a hope that always dies i think i lost my sense of touch cause all i feel is cold maybe love was asking to much only you knew it would end this way do you see the hurt within my eyes? cause these scars wont fade away or be lost between the truth and lies (not one of my best but owell i think im getting writers block cause i cant think of anything for any of my stories lol my fault tho cause im writing like 5 stories at the same time O_o anyways everyone have a wonderfulishessness day!!! like my new word? lol and do you guys like this background better than my last or should i find a better one)

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Friday, June 16, 2006

Just like before...

this is a letter written in my blood the words carved deep within my broken heart burning tears have soaked the page leaving me wondering why does it always end in pain? why do i always fall i wish that i knew why i always write of broken hearts only now i realize i was never satisfied with my dreams that were all in vain how can i sleep through all these lonely screams that cause so much pain just like before... in the night i am embraced by the cold always feeling alone i watch from the distance wishing for what i can never have just like before... i thought maybe this time it was you and all my wishes had come true but i have fallen to the darkness just like before... i cant stand all this pressure anymore im tired of all the lies that just cause more tears to fall i beat my fists upon the wall just like before... after all the pain you've caused it doesnt really matter no tears will fall... cause i will not be broken... just like before... this is a letter written in my blood the words carved deep within my broken heart burning tears have soaked the page crimson tears fall from my face just like before... (hmm well not much to say about this one O_O well anyways i'm gonna try and get to everybodys sites and if i dont you may hit me with a rubber duckie lol everyone have a great day and take care!! ohhh and does anyone think i should change my background to something new? just wondering)

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

frozen in time

time wastes away the feelings inside of me i always help people and try me best but no one ever recognizes me i'm invisible but is that really what i wanted? after all these years no one knows who i am i wish these people understood me instead of trying to judge me i hate all these people who say they are my friends for one moment i wish all this pain could end frozen in time with blood falling all around me from fires with no heat flames lost in a timeless history oceans of only tears freezing rain pounding in my heart time is only an illusion created by those who understand nothing of reality words cant explain the pain i feel i cast away all my memories and everything i loved to escape from a past that was frozen in flames the pain that was carved deep into my heart for one moment i wish all this pain could end frozen in time with blood falling all around me fires with no heat and the warmth of the flames lost frozen in time oceans of only tears burning rain pounding in my heart goodbye to all these words on the page that melt away a love i once knew i make an oath to never write again for one moment i wish all this pain could end frozen in time lost within the memories of all who have fallen is this what i wanted? (i wrote this cause i was gonna quit writing lol but all my friends said they were gonna kill me if i did so yeah im not going to lol)

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Sunday, June 11, 2006

listen to this its so sad

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Friday, June 9, 2006

i'll post a poem tomm my brothers graduations today and so was mine

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Tuesday, June 6, 2006

paths of shadows

Smokey rays of light break through the darkness giving me a glimpse of the path ahead only to fade away leaving me in the shadows Can't i watch the sun rise and feel its sudden warmth Instead of being hidden in the darkness caressed by pain and deathly chills I'm tired of shedding all these tears for once i'd like to be able to cast away these fears i'll sink to the depths of the ocean before i let you fade away into the darkness too There is a line that separates dark from light bloody tears i cry into the night dont worry i am but a shadow in your dreams even though you hear my screams Life is full of paths the dark is separate from the light if you stray into the night i will fight for you alone and i'll search every path until i find you cause your the only one i can ever love... Smokey rays of light break through the darkness giving me a glimpse of the path ahead only to fade away leaving me in the shadows wandering forever through the night (i wrote this during science changed it a little when i got home but anyway yay 3 more days of school!!!! everyone take care i'll get to all your sites i promise!!!)

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Monday, June 5, 2006

go away

I'd wish upon a star but i wouldn't get very far this pain just keeps coming back turning my heart black so would you just shut up and give me time to think I'm tired of all these people who act the same they can't judge me when they don't know my name and no I'm not sane but who are they to tell me who to be so tell me why you care why have you bothered talking to me for so long when i asked you to go dont you know people stare you make the pain fade away stop pulling me from the darkness to the light who are you to make things right would you just go away! can't you leave me in this mess it really isnt that much stress its not like i asked you to carry me away I'll just close my eyes and escape from this day so dont stay! let me fall into the darkness its the only place i feel safe cause cross shaped scars on my heart cause me to run away from all i know why do you make me feel this way when there is no hope for me so let me stay and just go away! before i love you to... (not that good but anyway i wrote it during la cause i was bored)

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