Saturday, May 14, 2005

   You know whats the wrost thing?
Its when you love someone and you think they love you back but in the end. they turn around and rip out your heart. That is the wrost thing ever. When you give your heart to someone and then they rip it out and rip it apart...How can you ever recover from that? People say it just move on. But have thoses people have their heart riped out and torn apart? I dont think they have. They just think they know what to tell you when that happenes. But really you just need to cry, you need to be alone for a while and hopefully you will learn to love someone again.

Yeah...that was just on my mind...Sorry if it seems sad or something. It was just on my mind for some time now. I didnt mean to make you think that I am sad or anything. I dont think I am sad or anything. Anyways, hmm...I am trying to think what to write now. Hmmm...Well yesterday I went to Pan's place to help her sell stuff. She made like 100 bucks or so. Hmm...Twiggy and Bruce can and then it was like a party and then Twiggy had to go but Bruce stayed and then it was very funny. Hmm...Pan got pizza for us and we watched some movie. Very good movie I must say. However, Twiggy can back and she made Bruce go to some thing at someone's place. Dont know where and dont care. Hmm...well my arm is better now. You can barely even see the mark where I cut myself. I didnt hurt myself when I fell which is good. Hmm...I am trying to think of something to write now. Well my mom found my beautiful knife! damn now I cant take it with me to meet Dan...and yeah she shouldnt know about it! Damn...anyways thinking about what to write...

Well hmmm...Dan is Moving">Moving">Moving">Moving">Moving">Moving">Moving">moving tonight! YAY! thats good...but the thing is that he wants to see me before he goes...I dont really want to go...but I should...I mean...I should at least say bye...but greg isnt on and yeah. Well I must try to think of something to write now...Hmm...well today I am gonna go to my friends for her birthday party even though her birthday was in march. Oh well, hmm...I get to talk to Adam on the phone tomorrow...dont know how long cause I have to be out of the house by 5:30pm my time so I can get to my friends place by 6pm. The party is at 6pm till 11pm...I hope I can talk to Adam on the computer tonight too. I didnt talk to him yesterday or the day before...Hmm...well I better go now...See you later...I think I should go meet Dan before he goes...But I am not sure...cause Greg is not on...well byebye...Love you Adam. ~little neko~

Poem...not sure what title
if you have one thats good I may use it^^


I stand there. thinking
Why am I even here.
Thinking why do I
Even bother to come
Why I should even be
Looking for you. thinking
Why cant I just leave.

You stand there
Thinking why is she
Here. You think what
To do with her
You think of all the things
That you can do to her.
She is just standing there
Like she is waiting for you
To do something to her.
You go to her and take her
Arm, you move her away from
Everyone.

When you move her away from
Everyone. you start to think what
You can do to her. When you get
Her away from everyone. You try
To do the things that you are thinking
To her. She thought you could help
Her but really you just wanted to
Hurt her. You just wanted to rip her
Heart out and hurt her.
Her wall went down, everone is
Crying, your crying, shes crying.
Will it ever stop? no it never will.
She will keep crying cause you
Took her away. Shes thinking
What did she do wrong?
She did nothing wrong. you did.
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