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• 1988-07-18
Gender
• Female
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• the Shade
Member Since
• 2004-02-13
Occupation
• graduated highschool, getting ready to go to college
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• I'll give you three guesses

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Achievements
• Surviving highschool, being a math and science whiz, having the title of PhD. bookworm, spending the summer in vietnam, and blowing up various household items.
Anime Fan Since
• 8th grade
Favorite Anime
• X-1999, clover, chobits, rayearth, saiyuki, hoshin engi, get backers, candidate for goddess, real bout highschool, samuri deeper kyo, naruto, full metal panic, trigun, outlaw star, rurouni kenshin, rave master, weiss kreuz, slayers, cowboy beebop, miyazak
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• survive college, go to grad school and learn CLAMP's skillz
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• school, reading, drawing, beading, flower making, cooking, sleeping, internet, anime, gardening, and whatever catches my fancy at the moment
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• being smart, math, art, cooking, clothes, wheedling in and out of things, scaring people, ploting, pretending not to either pay attention or ignore while doing the opposite, absolute focus, and surviving my experiments (chemical reactions)




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Sunday, January 2, 2005

Well I'm back!
On monday of the last week of school, I did the unthinkable. I became mentally unhinged (even more so than I usually am). But finally as winter break comes to a close I am at a stable point. Had many friends over today for fun; all of them telling me that they are glad that I'm better and back with them. I really aperciate thier concern, they really do care about me. But thing is that if it wasn't so painfully for my family and friends to see; I honestly would prefer bieng over the edge. It makes life so much simpler to handle. But instead I am draged back to reality and a stable frame of mind to go on with my life. What is my life? I seem to be the girl that is super smart with the perfect grades and advanced classes, who seems slightly ecentric and shy yet is the all aroud brain of her class. I
have a great body and wear fun, elegant, and unique clothes if not the fashion of the times. Yet only my friends and family are the only ones who know about my darker side, the parts of me that would horrify my teachers and classmates if they knew. And yet even they don't realize the full extent of the darkness inside me, at times even I can't comprehend all of it. So I go on living this double life; only for a short time was I able to live my darkside this holiday. But I now know that I can't go back to the way i was before. So when I return to school everyone will be faced with a new me. Writing this all out seems to help me, so I hope it dosen't bother you. Because at this point I really dont care.
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