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myOtaku.com: MilleniumRing
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Friday, February 9, 2007
aye......
*sigh* I went at it again. ya see, I always had this sexual urge for one of my best friends. he's really cute and a really cool emo, but I just always wanted to screw him haha XD
but as I got to know him more, I developed a liking for him; a strong one. all those love poems I wrote, like the one below, was about him. I really started came to the hard fact that I truly loved this boy.
So with the pressure of many, I decided to ask him out to one of my school's dances. he said he'd love to, but he was punished and couldn't. it made him happy to know that I cared for him, but the cold truth was yet to come.
On my FFR site, he commented my wall. he comprehended that I truly loved him..and stated that he didn't want to be nothing morew than friends...and even though I cannot change that and it's up to him, it still really hurts.
But it's all good now, for deep down I know that I'm better off alone. I'm semi-glad it happened this way. because if I couldn't stop my feelings from fleeing out of my stone cold heart, then he had to be the one to reject, as everyone else in my past has.
So now, I still hang out with him, I just tend to be colder. I can manage lust, and everyone has to admit a good fuck is fullfilling once in awhile...but love isn't for everyone, and I just wanna lose it quickly.
well, peace
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