Wednesday, June 7, 2006

Life, the bane of my existence

Hormones = bleh. Especially in combination with social and romantical flusteration. I need cuddles, kisses and love. But I'll settle for a nap since it's the only thing readily available within an arm's length.

If I weren't so tired and needy right now I'd totally use up the inspiration Literati gave me yesterday. Soon, John. Soon.

People who have AIM rock my socks.


As for X-3: Argh! I knew I should've stayed until the credits were over ;_;

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Saturday, June 3, 2006

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~

Just got home from the cinema feeling a bit shaken, having watched X-Men 3. Then I saw Sara's pretty dancing girl with the stripey background (which is set as my wallpaper now) and all is right with the world again =) .... Or as close as it can get after being emotionally juggled with :p

So yes. The movie. I'd kept myself away from most of the propaganda in order to view it without any preconcieved notions. Kind of like a painter who sits in front of his empty canvas, only I don't get to colour the movie. It colours me. Maybe that helped in seeing it more objectively, or maybe the nuances between well- and not so well executed was really that crystal clear. Even to someone who usually don't pay too much detailed attention.

Despite slips here and there, my [overly dramatic] spirit was wrenched out of the seat because of some of the things in the movie. Not knowing anything other than the whole 'mutant cure' issue made me totally open and volatilely vulnerable to what happened. It also made watching the more crudely handled sequences almost intolerable :-/
Talk about being thrown back and forth in experiences!

Right now I don't know what I think about the movie as a whole simply because it didn't win me over like I want it to. Along with the fact that it spoke too sweetly to my angsty soul. Boy, did it ever play harshly on those fragile strings *shudders* I'm used to being overwhelmed by movies, coming out of the cinema feeling extatic or deeply moved, but this time .... it shaped itself like a hand which plunged itself into my heart, squeezing it to the point of nigh death and before I knew what hit me or how to react/respond to it, it withdrew like a flash.

That would've been well and all if it weren't for too many bad moments in the movie. Hm. In a much shorter way to say it: I feel torn. The good/angsty stuff really hit me hard but the tacky disrupted me from digesting it properly ._.

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I don't go back to work until Wednesday morning (Yay for holiday days!) so expect a visit from me on AIM. Provided I've rested up, which I plan to *nods and winks at John*

So far I've only broken 1 plate and 1 glass. But the glass was going down that road anyway so it doesn't really count >.> The week after next I begin following the cleaners. That'll be interesting *sagely nod*

Also, photobooths are too much fun. They should be free of charge!


PS: I think the wireless internet is functioning as it should now. Hopefully it won't fall apart now that I've mentioned it XD

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

Ba-dum. We're trying to set up wireless internet but it's not going too well just yet ._. So I won't be able to make any kind of proper post until that happens, which SUCKS. Many people are up to awesome things right now - graduating! - and I wanted to join in on the internet celebration *pouts* I've danced for you all, though :p

Bought lots of new things <.< New wireless keyboard and mouse (I'm so getting rid of many things with wires!) that are slick like a cheese in the sun. We managed another trip to IKEA last Saturday, where I bought a gorgeously cute bed frame and a new nightstand that will be able to house more of my stuff.

The bed frame makes sleeping so much more comfortable, since it doesn't feel like the legs will suddenly give in to gravity and break whenever I roll around. Plus it's stopped squeaking! No more noises made that resemble certain noises, hrm.

Work is going just fine. Am having today off since it's some kind of holiday day *high fives everyone* But trying to set up a new doctor in this town is proving annoying. They're incompetent, le sigh, so that made for some headaches in my mental state of mind.


And this is where the wireless internet stopped working, forcing me to save and end -.-


What else..... been watching a lot of "Star Trek: The Next Generation" lately (Picard!! Data!!) as well as "The Pretender" (Jarod!!). Both are excellent shows, in my humble opinion.

Uhm, due to all the breakdowns regarding the net, my thoughts have suffered the same fate XD So I'll end it here and hope things are more stable the next time I post. That way we'll all feel a bit more sane writing/reading :p

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Evil: :3 It'd be a total blast to work with you in that kind of enviroment, I envision! The havoc we'd create *snickers and snogs*

John: Alexa is teh goodness *nod nod*



Slick: I hear ya on the Filipino ladies, haha. Fe made it so much easier for me to break into work, so to speak =)

CONGRATS ON THE GRADUATION!!!! *glomps wildly*

John: You help me by being yourself and reminding me of what an awesome friend I've got :3

So aside from some Sexy Baron, we need all the Lovely John we can get!

Shimmy-Loo: ...... in what color? :P

MC: O.o Wow, you're one brave trooper. I salute thee! For me it's not hard to get out of bed but staying up is another matter entirely >.>

Becky: ^_____^ You have a blast in Japan, alright dear? And I'll wait patiently for more on your sassy story *drools thinking about it*

Sean: I bet you feel like one proud daddy ;D As you should, with all the help you've given me! *hugs*

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Friday, May 19, 2006

Don't hold your breath, it makes you look like an alien

Argh Nooo Gah Stoopid Terror - yeah, that's ANGST alright.

Monday morning, at 10, I showed up at the Hotel for my first day. The past couple of days had been filled with some nervousness but it in no way prepared me for the major anxiety attack that launched itself from out of the pit of my stomach and wrenched my heart to smithereens.

They'd barely begun to tell me what I'd be doing and already I felt doomed. Never before have my anxiety issues made me so dissapointed in myself, heh. What made it worse was the fact that it was kitchen work, meaning being around stuff that could easily be broken by the shivering hands attached to my trembling self.

Knowing that there was no way this'd work, I prepared to brace myself enough to last through the day (at least) and then explain things to my supervisor. She wasn't in charge of the kitchen so she'd left me with a Fillipine woman named Fe (which means Fairy or Pixie in Swedish). It's a really fitting name because she became my Fairy Godmother, haha.

Thanks to her gentle, sweet and caring attitude I managed to beat down the anxiety *triumphant pose*

Fe is an amazingly cool chick, very cheeky, with an infectious laughter. She uses terms of endearment a lot, like sweetie, honey, darling, etc. That's perfectly fine by me because it's always with a caring tone, making me feel special, hehe. Since I'm following her around to learn stuff I jokingly said that I was her duckling XD

Seriously. This work place is one that many would turn down in a heartbeat but I'm loving every second of it. The crew is hilarious, quick to welcome you into their gang and a joy to work/hang out with.

Right now I'm attached to the Breakfast group for 4 weeks (1 down already!), then later on I'll get a chance to try out the other sections in the hotel. It'll be mighty hard to tear myself away from the kitchen, though! Fe has set the standard pretty high :p

The only rough thing is getting up at 5 in the morning to get ready for work at 6.30 *_* And initially they'd misunderstood how many hours I was going to be there (with the idea that I'd get off at 2.30 PM) so my body/mind took a bit of a beating the first three days >.> After straightening it out with the supervisor my hours got set to 6.30 AM -12 AM so I should be able to handle that better ^^;

And yes ..... they love me :3

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John: These guys are beyond Bates XD In an extremely good way. *hugs* Thanks for everything you've done for me, I wish there was a way to more thoroughly return the favour[s] :3

Evil: *tackles ze gorgeous Alexa* I need to take a hint from everyone telling me things'll be alright, lol. And I'll be sure to fix in your word this weekend! :3

Sara: ^_________^ The [semi]evil post-office woman made me disassemble the box the sticker thingy was in because it made the package not close properly *tsks* It was so much fun getting this one together, though _^_ *glomps*

Tori: *huggles* I'm normally really bad at commenting, even when it's needed, due to a combination between being tired and/or not knowing the best things to say. But I do try my best! It's good to know it makes a difference =)

And hey, you've got a husband + a cute doggy. I'm the one who gets to make wishes here :p

MC: ..... You are brilliant! Oh man, that'd be so much fun to do. Gotta make an attempt to arrange it some day *giggles*

*dances around with MC* Thank you, and I hope you get to catch up with heaps of fun things :3

Becky: *snuggles* It's thanks to you and everyone elses well-wishes that I'm getting further in many aspects of my life _^_ Mmmmmm, I'm not going back to work until Tuesday morning so there's time for more reading this weekend >:-D

Baron: Come on over! What're you up to these days, anyway? Your absence make me pout :< We need more Sexy Baron! :3

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Evil's word is up in Literati Square! My, that was unusually fast of me, haha. Hopefully the shade of orange is ok, otherwise I can change it ^_^;

"I chose superfluous because it reminds me of the course I'm in for English and Social, and our slogan is to go "above and beyond," so the word just reminds me of my classes. Which I hate, fyi =P" - Alexa


For those who've forgotten, here's the Literati Square line-up once again:

John, Kei, Evil, Shin, Becky, Megan, Sarah, Annie, Sara.

That means Shin is up next ~_^ If I forgot to add someone, please tell me!


PS: I'm really sorry for not commenting much lately, especially to those who've gone through rough times and happy times. You're all in my heart and thoughts :3

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

Wax on, wax off

I've been bad =(

But sometimes you just gotta be a little bad to be good :p Still, I apologize for the lack of me/myself and I around here *collective hug*


We finally had the taco dinner this past Friday and it went down pretty well. I didn't have an exact number for how many would show up, as the kids around here have a tendency to say "Ah, ok" rather than "Ok, count me in" lol. All in all there were 7 of us, myself and Juliette included. The two brothers (I'm so crushing on them, for various reasons XD), a guy I've not met before and seriously didn't think would turn up (apparently he's not all that sociable?), a girl that lived in a flat under Juliette's and another girl I've met at the last couple of 'parties'. It was a nice crowd. Intimate and fun =)

The plan had actually been for Juliette to come a couple of hours early so we could play Bubble Bobble (>.>). Thanks to a massive load of laundry and an urgent need to get supplies for the dinner, we only got 15 minutes of playtime. Sooooooo ..... when the ex neighbour and brothers arrived, we started up dinner then went back to the game while it was cooking XD;;;;;; At one point someone else had to open the door for the remaining guests because we didn't tear ourselves away fast enough *dies laughing* We made for a very unorthodox duo of hosts :P

Tobias (brother #1) had picked up my (well, mine and Juliettes)interest in anime and brought along 3 cd's with Japanese produced music. During the course of the evening (*giggles at wording*) we didn't get a chance to listen to them, sadly, so I was quick to ask him if I could borrow them as he got ready to leave. Mainly due to an honest curiosity about the music but also because he'd brought them specifically to share with us and I didn't want him to feel like his effort was being ignored ^_^; *knows what that feels like*

We wrapped up shortly after midnight so while it might've been short (they got here around 7) I felt that is was just enough. Great food, excellent company and ending before the fun does =)


There was just one problem with the dinner. I got a serious case of social withdrawal the next day XD Kinda funny to see myself going from being fine on my lonesome to itchingly wanting to be with people. Not that I hated hanging out before but it just ... didn't happen. Heh, I can't help being a bit (ok, very) anxious about screwing this up. Gotta remember to take things one step at a time. There's no need to rush a good thing *nod nod*



OH! And tomorrow at 10 I'm doing my first day at the hotel ^________^ They're starting me off in the kitchen, then they might let me do a sort of rotational thing, trying my hand at the various fields of hotel-ing, so I'll get a feel of how it all works. No details so far on how my workdays will look, though I expect to know more tomorrow ^_^

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Evilicious: You're pretty tasty yourself, you know ~_^ I could start up an army with saucy ladies soon :3

(PS: The PM system is still wanky so I haven't gotten word of the colour you want for your word.) :<

Akamaru: *dribbles* Is it just me or do they all look more .... mature? Episode 27 looked very fresh, everyone came off as if they'd aged (mentally) those months the show was off the web. Or maybe it's just me :p Hurrah for the return of Tsubasa Chronicles!!!

Tori: I indeed remember that layout! Didn't you have one with Mokona, as well? The Fay/Fai one was awesome 8-) and speaking of him, it sure made me go O.o when Chi showed up.

MC: We blame school for people not being able to keep up with fun things ¬¬ As a fan of Tsubasa I really recommend catching up with it :3 Thanks for wishing me well! :D

Liam: Naruto needs to stop being all filler-ific -.- Maybe I should start reading the manga ..... Have you been introduced to anything other than the junior version of Dragonball? :p

Becky: Your writing rocks my socks, just thought I'd say that :3 Dibs on the first collection of short stories/novel you get published!

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Saturday, May 6, 2006

   Tsubasa Chronicles at last! Huzzah!

I was thinking about buying some "Loveless" and "Deathnote" stuff to people but then my bank account tried to choke me, so >.>

But here's a couple of links for those who might be interested:

Loveless stuff (The clock, in particular, is so gorgeous :3)

Deathnote thingy

And here's where you register in English.

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Sara: Yuppers, that's one of the peeps *laughs*

Wowsers! Your Swedish is pretty much spot on, Sara. It makes it hard for me to believe you struggle with German ~_^

*nitpicks* klasser - svenska - and possibly sommaren. Aside from the minor grammar niggles, you're brilliant. Really. Swedish is a tricky bastard even for those who're born and raised with the language, so I bow to you for mastering it so well *bows*

Lady Kei: Don't forget to look into Plushies this summer, as well >.> Your fans are starving :3

Becksicle: *points to links above and glomps*

John: Awwwww. I'll look into that, don't worry *hugs John* And thanks for the link you sent XD

Tony: Right you are, mr Tones.

Evil: Mwuah! I'll do my best to make myself unbearable ---- uhm, indispensible at the hotel so they'll have to hire me :p

Sarah: That's because you have more integrity than me ;p

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Friday, May 5, 2006

   I just called to say I love you :3

*wraps everyone up in a massive loving hug*

I'm feeling much better today. Despite waking up the exact moment that I was supposed to be at the internship programs O.o The supervisor who answered when I called told me to have breakfast first and take it slow, heh. Dunno if she'd read the e-mail I sent last night about dad or not.

Anyway, 40 minutes late I arrived. And then our supervisor took me, along with another guy in the program, to a café =D It was absolutely wonderful to be out in the sunshine, instead of cooped up in an industrial warehouse.

I'm really looking forward to Monday .... which I haven't told you guys about yet, or? Uhm. Anyway. On Monday my other supervisor (we have 2, both female and utterly cool) will accompany me to a hotel here in town, where I'm hoping to do part of my internship. Apparently they'd been/they are looking to hire someone and my supervisors had seen that add, so they jumped on the phone when I mentioned my interest in working at a hotel ^^;

Yesterday made me wonder whether if I'd be able to go through with this but thanks to the wonderful support you guys are giving me, and the positive attitude of my supervisors, I'm ready to go with it =)


Just one thing: who is it that's in to "Loveless" and or "Death Note"? My mind tries to remember who it is, if there've been several people talking about it, or if it's all in my head O.o

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Thursday, May 4, 2006

Not again .....

Comments first, bad news later.


Tony: I guess employers do that to weed out the bad saplings from the good .... and I just referenced something about Lord of The Rings there. But yes, you're absolutely right.

John: My brain does have its genius moment from time to time, I must admit *bashful*

Sara: Jag älskar dig :3

Evil: It will be funner once the PM system decides to stop being a twat >.> Strange how it lets through some PM's and not others O.o

Sarah: Word on that. Instead of looking for a job I'd rather figure out where my ideal place would be, apply and get a job there. Oh well. I hope you get lots of money soon, without having to work too hard *hugs*

Sean: Oh yes, recruitment managers. It'd be nice to skip that part of the applying process, too =/ But like you said, we promote what qualities we have that would fit the job *high fives*

Molly: Awww, no need to worry about commenting. We've all been in that boat. You know, I'd love to work with you. Imagine the havoc, fun and spunky work days we'd have!

Becksicle: *snuggles* Exams are evil and Evil is way sexier than evil exams. Uhm, where were we? Oh yes. It'd be lovely if you had a paragraph for me :3

John: Well, Evil is afoot in the Literati Square. Beware her prowess :3

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Slick: *hums along* Spiffy tune. Your laugh totally beats my grin, by the way *hugs*

Sarah: Hunger is the mother of many inspirations/inventions, mhm. But surely you're motivated when you bake? I thought that was universal *worried frown*

Shimmy-Loo: *boosts your ego more* I bet you look really cool when you bowl. You'd get a wolf whistle from me anyway *nod nod* And yes, Slick is a slick guy like that. Gotta lova 'im.

Evil: *builds big house and becomes 'mama mia' / 'truffles'* The PM with the word and where to put it came through but sadly I didn't get your second PM, regarding colour, which baffles me. One minute it allows PMs and then it stops. The system is being PMS-y.

Dagger: Who needs a camera, eh? *sultry moves with kitchen utensils*

Tori: I'm sure you make up for that in other areas. *pauses* Someone is going to jump at that sentence so I'd better add that it's all in your heads. It was totally innocently meant. For example: Tori claims to be a bad cook but she's a great mom to Winston. There. Phew.

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Dad was hospitalized again today. The continuing headaches he's been suffering is a result of a bleeding. Which, incidentally, is the same bleeding he was hospitalized for last time. Turns out it hadn't stopped oozing out blood and now it looks like they'll have to open him up to sort it out properly.

Bastard doctors.

Dad's taking it like a marathon runner who stumbles 5 feet from the finishing line and dies. He hoped it wouldn't come to this. I asked what he knew about what would happen but all he knows it that it'll be some sort of operation. Nothing about how long he'll have to stay in hospital after, though I guess they'd need to establish the grandure of the surgery first to be able to tell.

So he's kind of in the dark, only knowing there'll be an operation done in his head. There were tears in his eyes so I know he's taking it hard and is upset about everything, but instead of encouraging him to be emotional (which is my initial reaction) I tried my best to be positive and not add to the already dramatic situation (because we all know what a drama queen Mimmi is *cringes*).

I just want all this to be over. Not for me or my family, but for Dad.

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Wednesday, May 3, 2006

*grabs all pots and pans in sight*

My kingdom for a stove! My soul in exchange for a pinch of saffron!


*giggles*

Yesterday I made lasagna all by myself and it looked fantastic. Not bragging here, but it honestly made my mouth water and I wasn't even gonna eat any! Mom praised my chubby little hands to the skies, haha. Dad agreed that the lasagna was awesome. *spins on chair*

It is so deliciously ironic that, for some reason, I can cook rather well and be so squeamish about food. And it's FUN to dance around in the kitchen, preparing a meal or bake a cake--- speaking of cakes, today I made these really scrumptious chocolate cakes (kinda like brownies) with the richest tasting chocolate glaze/icing ever on top. MMmmmmmmmmm! All by myself. My stomach whimpered with delight as I licked that spatula _^_

Food and I have such a strange relationship. On one hand it frustrates me, on the other hand it's something that makes me really happy to work with.

Good thing I don't have one of them web cams because you'd die from watching the silly grin plastered on my face. Even though my body is a bit too blagh for my liking at the moment, it's ok. I'll work it off and become as pretty on the outside as I feel on the inside :p

I like being happy.
I like that being happy makes other people happy.
It makes me happy to see/make someone else happy.


*hands out buckets for everyone to gag in* ;p

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