Sunday, April 24, 2005

I hate nightmares

But more than that I hate feeling so alone after having them.

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Thanks everyone for the warm thoughts *group hug*

I know that I should just tell myself that it was a bad dream but it's not quite that easy. My nightmares are always heavily rooted in reality, so they're never about some monster eating my guts out. Instead they're about people I love who hurt me, situations I'm about to face that go seriously wrong.

"But it was still just a dream and surely it was twisted to such a degree that it can't accurately mirror reality?"

No, this was as close to reality as nightmares can get. Every single thing that I'm vulnerable to, things that are going on right now, were all lined up in one/several consecutive nightmare/s. They continued after I fell asleep again. That's why it hit so hard and it's impossible to shake off in a heartbeat. Curling up tightly into a fetus position didn't work either, which I thought it was supposed to.

Sleep is meant to be where I can escape the messed up reality, not be reminded of it. Le Blah.

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Saturday, April 23, 2005

The scent of you still linger

Hehe, I just realized that the layout might make people think I'm horribly depressed or something. That's not the case, rest assured. Funnily enough, I feel more light and bubbly than I have in a long time :o

Anyway, after being badgered by Alan and him saying how bored he is, I wanted to try and help him out. The idea of adding friends to the Schnookums place amused me, so here's the lowdown on that.

If you have a picture of your favourite plushie[s], forward it to me by PM or email and Alan will somehow incorporate them. Feel free to write a little bio about your plushie too, lol.

That's all for now =)

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Wild boy: There's no deadline! =D And it'd be majorly fun to get a virtual tour of your new room *snickers*

Pyro: Hurrah, I'm glad that's how it comes across ^___^ Hmmm, maybe we could accept drawings of plushies too :o

Shemale: :p

Pyro: *flashes her .... her most innocent smile* Oh really? ^.^ But yesh, focus on the flick *nod nod*

James: *censors herself*

Shimmy Shammy: I shall make it a point to help you with that mission[ary].

Sultry Pants: Yay, more troops for the cause!

Shabam: Mwehehehe, absolutely. Gotta indulge in those fun games ~.^

Akamaru: *snickers* I bet if someone recorded a Literati game with you as a participant, they'd be able to sell it off on some weird porn site *cough*

Rustym: EEee, you can always draw it? _^_ I bet it's cute, hehe.

Akamaru: Oh it wouldn't be for my pleasure but I'm sure there are people who'd get off of that.

Panda: Yay! Panda plushies abound =D

Chie: *snuggles* Great to see you around ^.^ I'll look forward to some plushie pictures from you!

Wild boy: *laughs and hugs* Thanks love ~.^

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Poor Sara, having to see the scrabble letters she sent being abused by silly Mimmi:

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Friday, April 22, 2005

Pleasantly lazy

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James: Well, it's not because I'm a cherry covered in chocolate, that's for sure.
I guess I'll just refer you to Annie. She's the expert in the chocolate-covered cherries field =)

Azure: *laughs* That should happen more often! It'd spare wallets for sure :p

>;3F: *squees and sprinkles goodies all over her* ~.^

Pyro: Oooo, good idea. I should try to find a way to bring some jazz here. Other than the jazz already permeating the place :p

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Baron: Oh I wish that was my bunny, but 'tis not ;_; And it's good to hear the layout hit the right spot ;-*

Street Racer: :O! Can I 'borrow' her? >>

Blue Hawk: *giggles* Thank you so much for all the lovely compliments!

Faera: *laughs* Yeah, that bunny sure knows how to kick it back and do the cool 8-) Yay, my intro image did its thing, thanks ^.^

Lady Lea: Whooohooo *snaps fingers 'girlfriend' style* But no, I'm not going goth or naked here. Ehum.

Shabam: I know!!1!11 My craving for a bunny shot up by an assload of points when I saw it ;__;

Akamaru: Hmmm, make me an offer I can't refuse. Then we'll talk *nods sagely*

Bikini Babe: Yes! Picatoors of Dave! *prepares large gift basket filled with chocolate-covered cherries for Annsie*

Shimmy Shammy: Isn't it just? =D Feel free to make it cool by using it as often as you can 8-)

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Thursday, April 21, 2005

In bloom

Aside from the loopy High Five image (Tony's clashed so horribly with the colors, sorry darling *air kiss*), which might get fixed tomorrow, how're you digging things mah peeps?


Mom was sweet enough to go to the store where I'd put away some clothes and brought them home with her. I've not tried anything out yet but they're looking fantabulous just splayed out on my bed _^_ Maybe once I've toned up a bit more there'll be a 'show and tell' XD

Solo updated today and that made me uber happy. We all miss our munchkin ^.^ Go give him some loving!

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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

`Single and Beautiful´

So, things are sort of in motion at homebase. Next Thursday I'll be going to [one of] the local grocery store[s] and begin what will be my 'work rehabilitation'. Before getting stuck in the evil 'Circle of Rut' I had a part time job there, so it's a familiar place and the people are cool. Not only will it be nice to have a bit of a job going but I can now finally say I do something when people ask, instead of feeling like Hugh Grant's character in "About a boy":

- So, what do you do?
- … Nothing.

Though I guess I could've just said that I'm rehabilitating from mental and physical trauma but that sounds so … extreme, lol. Anyway, to start off with it'll be strictly testing the water (to see if I'm ready to get back to the working world) and we'll see what happens after that period. I don't know if they'd actually hire me later on when I don't know when we'll be moving -.-

Speaking of moving, Literati Square is moving along and I know Annie wanted to chip in a word so she'll be up next! Lemme know what word, color and ... 'position' ... you want and I'll hook you up *sly wink*

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Yesterday I was about to do a short blurb on people I miss seing around here, Ben being one of them. Lo and behold - the guy turns up out of the blue! But only briefly *pout* It's good to know he's alive and might return here more often, helping me to cut down on smileys when he posts *cough* >>

Someone else that's kind of absent is Molly, our beloved big sister. I wonder how things are going for her and I miss talking to her. Hopefully things are going alright and she'll bring Stan along with her when coming back on a more regular basis ^.^

Solo I know is alive and busy having a life, lol. Getting in touch with him isn't a problem but I don't want to latch on too much so it's a case of settling back and sending good thoughts to him, hehe.

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Mmm, what else ... Oh. I got my cd's today and will now be able to send off my gift to Pyro (whom is sneakily up to something *peers*). Though it feels a bit measly to just send that so if there's anything else I should include, lemme know!

For those who are curious as to what I got for myself:

"Paper Monsters" Dave Gahan, "Shrek 2 OST", "Forever delayed" Manic Street Preachers.

Dave Gahan is part of Depeche Mode (who are apparently working/releasing a new album soon) so it should be interesting to hear what he's come up with on his own. Manics are a band my eldest sister listened to a lot while she lived close by and I like most of the singles I've heard. The soundtrack to Shrek is just smockful of fun songs. There you have it. Yes, I'm being very pampered at the moment >>

It's time for dinner so I leave you with a little bit of advice for those prone to angsting:

Don't watch "The talented Mr Ripley" late at night, alone.

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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

I'm a rabid Sara fangirl!

Sara rocks my socks!
Ok, so my mom came into my room this morning (which was only a couple of hours ago) and gave me a white slip of paper. I thought it was the cd's I'd ordered but it turned out to be a surprise package from Sara! :O!!!
I nearly bolted out the door in my pajamas and bed-hair -^_^-

It went surprisingly fast to get ready, though, which is a pretty good indication of how eager I was to get my hands on it *grins* And boy did the contents make me squee like a girl on a sugar rush! In the box was the most wonderful, soft, cuddly, adorable, spiffylicious *goes on for an eternity* sheep I've ever come across _^_ There aren't enough words to say how much it rocks, very much like Sara herself ~.^

I'm thinking of naming her Bo-Bo, teehee *uber happy giggle and grin*

She came with a blanket and although I could make a bed for her, I'll save myself the trouble and just let her use my bed ^_^ So squishy-fiable *snuggles*

Also in the package was an awesome notebook, sprinkled with Sara-ism, which will be most inspirational - I can feel it! Especially with the pen sent along with it *laughs* Even though it's a hardcover notebook, I still want to hug it ^_^

Ooooo, there was also some wooden squares in the box. And they have letters on them! I have no idea how to describe why they're so awesome to me, but they just are. The texture is so earthy, solid. And they remind me of some kind of learning game we had when I was younger. The only thing I remember clearly is that there were blocks of the same kind of wood, with figures and numbers on them. ^__^

Sara, I abso-freaking-lutely love you for this!

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I've enjoyed Azure's company ever since pelting him with a virtual snowball *giggles* He went from a stranger in a chatroom to a super buddy, putting up with my Dark side and reinforcing my Light side :p I need to give him the 'wet treatment' for the answer he gave on what he thought about my clothes though *grins and winks*

Shimmy Shammy was one of the first people I befriended here and everything went uphill from there. (As in it just got better and better. You can't beat the view from a hilltop, after all.) *laughs* I couldn't have asked for a better way to start off this love affair I've got going with theotaku network than with Shinmaru.

Another person whose friendship bring sunshine is SomeGuy. He's like a staple of warmth around here, always ready to help his friends - which he does brilliantly, I might add - and to spread some good vibrations. Not to mention he hooked me up with Shabam, with whom he makes an excellent hero team! (I still owe Wild Boy a PM, which I will get to. Promise!)


There are so many people I could gush about but these three just happened to get the spotlight today, partly because of that meme thingy which had me blushing madly and also because they've given so much to me, for such a long time, that I don't think I'll ever get close to giving back even half of that. lol

Lots of love to you all :3

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Monday, April 18, 2005

Charlie will try to make your experience with Wonka Inc pleasurable *bows*

Teehee, so I got the part as Charlie in James's "Wonka Inc". Hopefully I'll be able to keep up with the excellent writing talent that's part of the RPG ^.^ It's good to know Annie and Ayisha are there to support me, as well as having James to guide us.


I also got to chat with Liam a bit before he went back to Uni, earning another member of the Cherry Crew (*makes note to herself to fix the image up straight away and edit him in*). Bweee! And everyone's favourite Lady Asphy has joined us too! Rawr!

(Ack, thanks Lunai for pointing out my horrible spelling mistake. Sowwy :3)


Updated Cherry Crew
And Azure (*tweets at him*) half promised to fill in the other part of that thingy I stole from JJ/Akamaru, so the rest of you that missed it get another chance to fill it in :p

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Mannerisms:

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*bounces with Pyro and Shimmy Shammy, singing Tiggers song*

You two rock all manner of spiffyness!
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Sunday, April 17, 2005

Gwar *bounces* it feels good to be working out again



*pounces on Azure and declares her undying adoration for him*
I need to move in with you or something. Does your mom need a hand with the household? Or I could steal you away from home and be your housewife! Though that might make it weird for you in your persuit of REG =\ What if I dressed up as a bird and occupied a tree nearby - you could feed me and teach me tricks? *has a million other, equally silly, suggestions*
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