Sunday, September 5, 2004

Blip

Miss Asuki-kins, when you're feeling better
(and I by no means type this to rush you, trust me)
let me know what word you want plugged in and with what color ^_^

And you have the choice of picking any number from 1-9,
with the exception of 2 and 5.

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The Sennenator was kind enough to help me make a fun banner for the "Schnookums Sidequest" I'm thinking about doing (taking the pictures and adding funny captions, like the one Pyro provided *hugs*), but unfortunately my computer didn't save it properly and I'll need Senny to somehow give it to me again. Thanks again for using your happyness of having a image editing program again, to fulfill my request *bows*

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And Alan gets a double linky because I messed it up in my first post after the 'blackout' theme. Is Alan a happy boy now ? :D No, this doesn't mean I'll stop challenging you to games of Literati >:p

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The joke of being banned from OB for 24 hours was lost on me.

Yesterday/Today was not good, but then again not every day can/will be.

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Saturday, September 4, 2004

To sir, with love
Arrr, today I got some exercise done and it felt good. Even better to take a long shower afterwards. Mmmm, nice.

After not doing much for at least a week (though it's probably more than that) I thought it'd be a lot harder to get started, but thankfully it wasn't. Even managed to push myself a little harder, going faster on the bike and doing a few more sit-ups ^_^

Not to fret about me going too far with this, because compared to Ben ... I'm barely doing light-weight exercise :p

The gym doesn't attract me, so if the time comes to add more effort and focus on muscle groups, I'll just use the work-out machine that we bought a few years back. And walking is something that should be a part of my daily routine .... but one thing at a time, ey ? ~_^

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Strike a pose !
It struck me that I need to practice some more with my camera, but it's not easy to find visual scenery around here that would make for good targets. I tried stalking my skateboarding neighbour, but gave up pretty quickly >>;;;

Then yesterday, or possibly the day before that, I took a silly picture of Schnookums. It turned out really well and the idea formed to put him in different settings, with varying light, to get a better feel for the camera ^_^

To make it even more fun, you're welcome to contribute funny captions !


Schnookums Photo Diary :o





Well, Schnookums is also trying to be fit and sometimes fight me over the equipment. But he grows tired rather quickly and sneaks off to work on his tan.

Lately he's been getting itchy feet and can often be seen carrying around my suitcase, staring longingly into the distance. It'll usually go over if I give him a lift on my bike.

(And yes, I can see that some people will think of Panda right now. But I'd like you to think of this as a tribute, rather than a rip-off. Because it's not meant to ride on the success of Panda and her panda-ness, even if that is a pretty good wave to catch ~_^)

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EDIT: I was talking to Sennen the other night and we got onto the subject of cereal. Specifically, Cap'n'Crunch. It's not sold around here anymore, which is a shame since it was my favourite cereal .... the only cereal I ate, haha. So I've decided that, if possible, I shall scout around and try to get my hands on a box or two. Somehow. Some way.

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hEvN chose ... Queen Asuka !

I've added Lady K. and Ben to the list of people who're helping out with this *waves and smiles* It's really smashing that all you guys like this idea and want to add your brilliancy to it, thereby making it even more fun !

And thanks for the comments on the last post. I do love my house, very much ^__^

Lots of Love from Mimmi and Schnookums ^___^
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Friday, September 3, 2004

I am teh lazy
Yes, what the subject line says. It's been too long since I did any kind of working out and it bugs me slightly. After reading about Solo going to do a 30-hour [in character] shift and Ben keeping up school and work out (work too ?), it really felt like I was letting myself go way too much.

But now that things are sorting themselves out more and more, along with being inspired by others, I feel that I can get cracking again. Besides, if I'm to start easing my way back into a working state, I'll need to be somewhat fit. Otherwise it'll only be more difficult, heh.


I'm hoping the post office will be able to take me in again. It's never been a problem before, so chances are they won't mind this time.

The atmosphere in the post office is very nice. You don't feel left out because everyone's so friendly (not to mention goofy, hehe), the work is easy to get into and it's just so relaxing to be in that building. If I had one objection, it would be the 'forwards' (letters that need to be forwarded, for whatever reason).

It's sort of tedious, and sometimes a bit frustrating, to figure out where the letters need to go. Each person assigned in the different postal codes (there's about ... 8 in and around my town) also have their own way of arranging everything, so when you go from one code to the other, you'll be totally confused -_-;

Other than that it's enjoyable. I'll be calling them next week to see if they can 'hook me up' *giggles*

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Otaku Mimmi's Photo Journal :o





The first picture is of our "conservatory". We just put in that carpet a few days ago (before it was just planks) and cleared out the stuff that didn't belong in there. After shifting about the furniture, it looks very cosy ^_^

On the second picture you can see just how many apples are on our tree this year. So much, in fact, that a branch snapped ! And they said that this wasn't an apple year, tsk. We've used them for baking pies and stuff, but they're really not for eating straight of the tree.... I think.

The third picture isn't a 'Wendy House', but a regular playhouse in our garden. Nowadays it's used as a shed for storing garden tools in. Way back when, we had our bunny Grace staying out there. She had a whole house to herself :o


Ok, last one. Going out on an errand the other day, I noticed that this sign had been put up. It's showing where to go to get to the 'Concert House' .... which is that red building in the background. Why they've put it there and why it's pointing in a completely different direction, is beyond me. But it makes for a good laugh, so there you go ^_^;

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Shin chose ..... hEvN.
I forgot to add that yesterday. It's to help decide who gets to contribute the next word and I'll edit in who that'll be later. If anyone wants to get in on this, then by all means say so in the comment box. So far I've got : Sara, Sarah, Queen Asuka, CRH, hEvN, Shy and Solo.


I'd like to take this opportunity to send a huge Thank You to everyone who's been playing Literati with me. It makes Mimmi a very happy girl and you're all wonderful people who put up with me !


A special note to SomeGuy for being so wonderful. Your supportive optimism works wonders ^_^

Take care now and have a Wonderful Weekend !
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Thursday, September 2, 2004

*happy sigh*
These past two days have been a welcome change from the week of absolute stress-out, hehe. Actually, the stress wasn't so bad up until Tuesday morning. But then it got really bad and not even mom (who had stayed home to lend me support) could help calm me down. That says a lot, trust me.

The reason for all this angsty stress is that I had an appointment with a psychologist, to review all those atrocious tests I've been put through to determine if I was autistic and what-not.

.... *takes a moment and laughs softly about it* .....

I knew that this appointment would result in either a major break for me, or a mental break down. Maybe that sounds overly dramatic, but when you're constantly asked to re-tell what's been going on these past 3 years and at the same time told to move on, you get to a point where you get confused as to where you're going. Forwards or further backwards ?

And you also never know what the people you meet will be like. When dealing with matters of the mental wellfare, it is pivotal that you meet people who you will be comfortable with and you trust will help you. So far I've been fortunate, something that didn't change Tuesday.

To make a long story short, I have finally been diagnosed with panic/anxiety disorder, so no one can ever question the horrendous truth of that. It's good to have a piece of paper you can shove into a face and say "Yes, I am sincere about my handicap. No, I am not faking this [sometimes crippling] disorder just to be a lazy slob.".


However, there was still one thing playing on my mind that made the feeling of unsettlement linger. I have constantly moved forward in my health, but right now I'm not ready to be thrust out into working/studying. So when the time came to decide how long she should extend my current sick-leave to, the relief of being understood threatened to fade and be replaced with angsty dismay.

Up until now I've had to call in every month and ask for an extention. Every month I've had to go through the stress of "convincing" people that I'm not better yet. This isn't something that's helped me in the slightest, haha.


Imagine my utmost bliss when she decided to extend my sick-leave for 6 months !!


This will give me the time I need to slowly get back into things. I don't have to feel rushed, pressured or forced to suddenly be 100 % recovered. It will happen at my pace and because of that, I can be guaranteed a recovery that will be authentic and last.

It looks like the time to break the cycle has come and I'm so happy ^___^

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Now, about the wallpaper I was planning here. After giving it some thought, I noticed that it wouldn't be possible to implement it as a background. Simply because the table behind my posts would get in the way.

SO, I've copied Sara's nifty idea and placed a little cube at the quiz result space. That way my 'Literati Wallpaper' will be fully visible and easier to enjoy ^__^


To start things off, I'd like Shin to contribute with a word, tell me what color he'd like the word to be in (I added the color choice just now, since it would help people to distinguish who provided what word) and if it should go horizontal or vertical.

I'll go over the list of names that wanted in on this and add it into next post (or this post, if Shin is very quick).

Feel free to suggest now which color you'd like to be, either by giving me a hex code or a little sample via e-mail. Or you can go here to find something to your liking, or perhaps there's a color on OB that you like.

Happy color and word hunting ^_^

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Tuesday, August 31, 2004

PLAYTIME!
Well, I've had plenty of fun with the ‘blackout’ layout. Looking at the comments, I'd feel confident enough to say that you've all had a good time too :p

But enough of this depressing black ! (Though I do have another layout with plenty of blackness up my sleeve. It will be up for 1 day on the next full moon ~_^)

Mimmi is feeling vivacious and bubbly. Those two words do no coincide with dark and dreary. It is time for some color and in honor of the ongoing Literati Tournament (which Shinmaru was awesome enough to kick off), I give you this colourful scheme.

Shanny helped me fix the background in place and Alan helped me with color coding, for which I am ever thankful *bows deeply and licks their boots*

I'm plotting to fix up the background, but I need your help. Those who want to help will be asked to contribute a word (I'll draw the names and make a list on who goes first and second and so on), that later on will be implemented in the background ^_^

So if you're interested, let me know in the comment box !


EDIT: Grrr, the background thingy isn't working.

And Azure, could you help me with the sheep again ? ^_^;;; (Thank you !)
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Sunday, August 29, 2004

Ladies and gentlemen, please remain calm.
There is no cause for alarm.

This blackout is anticipated to be solved within
a foreseeable future.

In the meantime, this song is dedicated to Adam.

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"New York blackout" - Soul Asylum

When you chew my ear off, try and let me know
You will never get another piece of me
Cause in a New York blackout, things go kinda slow
And you miss the things you never thought you'd see

There's still so many things I want to be
Sometimes I just don't even want to sleep

In a New York blackout, it's so hard to see
All the angels that are looking after me

The lies bounce off the water in your eyes
And the dead lift their heads and come alive

And I may never escape this darkened city
But still I'm trying to find you in this blackout

Where it's warm inside and always open late
And the doors to hell look just like heaven's gate
And you never know what's going on inside
'til you step out in the cold and seal your fate

And you might just stop in and say hello
But you've got much more important places to go
Make sure you let everybody know

That I may never enlight this darkened city
Still I'm trying to find you in this blackout

In a New York blackout, you might think I'm gone
But I'll wake up on the front steps of your door

[Disclaimer] This post was written with white font and black background [/Disclaimer]
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Saturday, August 28, 2004

O.o.....Black out.....o.O

[Disclaimer] This post was written with white font and black background [/Disclaimer]
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Friday, August 27, 2004

*sniffle*
Ergh, ok. Staying up until 5 am (today), playing Literati, wasn't a good idea. I admit it. Expect this post to suffer from the effects of that >_>;

But it was fun. Hehe. Learning new words and getting words that are ... questionable (*giggles*) provided some roaring laughter.

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3 pics from my bowling session with my younger sister - yesterday.



I was going to my younger sisters town and sent her a text message ("BOWL ! O.o"), hoping that she'd be free to spend a little time with me. Sure enough, there was nothing in her calendar and we had lunch, followed by bowling *GRIN*

The bowling alley in that town is really nice. It's big enough to not feel cramped and small enough to feel cosy. (There are/is a total of 11 lanes.) Any music is played low, so you can have a conversation without losing your voice. I personally think the decor is funny, though it might not be to everyone's taste :p

We took several pictures (my sister is really good at dramatic posing) and probably raised a few eyebrows from the people who were there, lol. Unfortunately most came out blurry (laughter does that), so I'm afraid that's all you get this time.

The first one is the "wallpaper", which is more like a carpet stuck on the wall, lol. Second picture is obviously showing the lane. Third one is of me bowling, heh.

It seems as if the camera is very user friendly, showing great promise to future adventures ^__^

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*pause*

Oh, and I realised that my conclusion of the last post wasn't correct. The question wasn't if I had been in love, but if I had fallen in love *hits self* There is obviously a difference there. I think.

In my mind there are various degrees of love, and even the romantic kind has different layers.

So while I might not have fallen completely in love with a guy - since that would require getting to know them intimately (and I mean on a connecting level, not a physical level) - I would say that, yes, I have fallen.

*pushes play button again*

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Wednesday, August 25, 2004

:-*

*swoops everyone up in a giant hug*

Aawwww, you guys are the greatest ! Thank You so very much ^____^

And a very special Thank You to my fellow Literati players ~_^

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Lovely
Solo posed the very interesting question: "Have you ever fallen in love with someone ?". It was impossible to reply it without going into deeper thought, so I saved it for today's post. Let's see if I can answer this coherently. (Don't worry, it won't be very drawn out :p)


Naturally I've had many crushes on guys. Some were merely superficial, while others went slightly beyond the stereotype crush (in other words, they weren't just a pretty face). Though I doubt it ever went as far as falling in love. I did feel very strongly for one boy in particular, but I hesitate to call it love.

You see, the boys I took an interest in were always people I didn't know well. It wasn't a case of being friends with a guy for a while and then realising I had feelings for them. I saw them in school, maybe had a class with them and that was it. There was never any interaction beyond that. Mostly because I didn't move in the same circles as them and shyness/low self confidence most definitely played a part.

In my opinion you can't really be in love with someone you don't know. It's like being in love with a celebrity; you know about them but that doesn't mean you know them.

And since I wasn't desirable, my crushes were always one-sided. I'd want to get to know them – they weren't interested in knowing who I was. Not much room for development, heh.


My emotions had nothing to build on and couldn't take it further than the stages of a silly crush. You can't get very far on the bare essentials and to move beyond ‘beginner level’ you need experience, lol.

(And also, ‘why flatter myself with the idea that someone could care that deeply for me and be terrible heartbroken when I realise it's never going to happen ?’

That's another automatic defence mechanism I have; not allowing myself to believe that it could happen to me. Sure, that's depressing to think, but at least I don't set myself up with delusions that could be even more painful when they come crashing down.

I just don't give myself enough credit [yet] to entertain the possibility that I'll one day experience the kind of love that goes both ways.

..... But that doesn't mean I completely shun the plausibility of it happening :p)


So, in regards to the question ……

I'd say that I have loved, but never been in love.

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PLAY !

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Tuesday, August 24, 2004

To Have or Have Never
I am 23 years old and I have never:

* Been kissed/kissed anyone

* Had sex

* Taken a single driving lesson

* Drunk alcohol

* Cursed the rain and all its wetness, but I have been known to growl or sigh about it. (Kudos to Liam for this one)

* Danced with the devil by the pale moonlight, but only because I'd be afraid to step on his toes :p (Kudos to Shin for this one)

* Eaten coconut ice cream, but boy am I ever craving vanilla ice-cream with chocolate flakes in it ! (Kudos to Sara for this one)

* Wished upon a falling star. I was too busy admiring it and being happy I caught the sight, heh. (Kudos to Panda for this one)


But I have:

* Been abroad

* Had a couple of jobs (all of which I *gasp* enjoyed)

* Straight teeth (Bracers Unite!)

* The means to do whatever/go wherever I desire, should I decide to

* Done stuff spontaneously, though nothing outrageous. Maybe next time though, hehe ~_^ (Kudos to Chie for this one)

* Biked down a smaller hill for no reason other than to do it and bruised myself badly (Kudos to Alan for this one)

* Had a lot of fun with my pants collection, mainly involving dancing/prancing and posing ~_^ (Kudos to hEvN for this one)

* Kneed a guy in the nads, though I missed. Still knocked the wind out of him, hah ! (Kudos to Desbreko for this one)

Want to know if I 'Have' or 'Have Never' done something ?
Go ahead and Ask !

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