Monday, May 10, 2004

Waiting for Naruto

I'm not very good at reviewing stuff. But I managed to get some thoughts down about Naruto, while waiting for my current batch to finish downloading. It doesn't touch on everything, so if there's something you want to know my opinion of, feel free to ask/point that out *nods*

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First off I have to say that the music is absolutely gorgeous. It highlights emotions and situations so well. The sound effects just crack me up.

I'm used to 'flashy' anime, so the kind of subdued style caught me off guard. But I really like it. It's a nice change of pace and it helps to create a natural/realistic flair.


The use of 'Inner Sakura' is fun, but could easily become annoying if it were used more. I'm just hoping she'll (Sakura) get more development at some stage, because it feels like she isn't going anywhere. Though, Naruto and Sasuke do have a lot more to bring out and strive for, so maybe that's why it seems like Sakura is standing still?
Episode 4, where they tell Kakashi their dreams, is quite applicable when I think about this (Naruto and Sasuke each have a solid ambition, while Sakura is … eh, meh. Hrm).

Everyone has a pretty good/funky attitude also. Their personalities shine through in how they confront and deal with most things. Naruto is portrayed as jumping in headfirst and being fairly naïve. I like how they've made it clear that he's still quite mature in his inner workings and it's his way to approach life. He has an edge due to the fact that people don't think too highly of him at first, which means that he can use the assumed predictability about himself, against his enemies. His improvisational skills are quite impressive, considering how 'ditzy' he can come across.

Sasuke holds back [a lot] more and assesses the situation before taking action. His improvising is very focused and obvious, I suppose. You expect him to pull out an ace. There is an awareness of his ability because of his name, which can be both a disadvantage and a leverage, something he can use to psych his opponents with. Sasuke also appears more concerned about how strong others are, how his chances stand in a fight. Naruto on the other hand is simply determined to win, regardless. Combined, they are two valuable assets.

And Sakura… ehm, well… she comes off as very dependant of others. I'm trying to think of an instance where she's taken initiative, but I honestly can't recall anything on the top of my hat. Is she supposed to only function as some sort of balance ? *tilts head and looks quizzical* I haven't really been able to make a clear opinion of her yet.

( Granted, I've only seen about 30 episodes, so anything I've observed so far is subject to change. )


I enjoy the themes they've put into this anime. The wish to be seen for who you are – breaking prejudice – and that everyone deserves to be recognized for their existence. The need to have your individuality acknowledged.

Lastly: despite how strong you are, there is always room for growth and plenty of time for humble pie.

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It's funny, dramatic, exciting and I look forward to getting to know the characters (both main and supporting) on a deeper level. Yep.

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Sunday, May 9, 2004

*gestures*

Well, I got round to returning the Guestbook signings (DDG's really brought a smile to my face *gives her a cookie*), but I've not been able to get myself started with the commenting. It's still too early and I need more time, I guess. Same goes with AIM (otherwise I would've signed up for table lessons from you CrH), beause I know everyone wants to know what's going on and it'll be the one thing on your mind if I show on your buddy list. It doesn't matter if you're respectful enough to not bring it up, I am extremely sensitive to pressure/everything right now.

But I'm coping *nods*

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What else ? Ehm, I'm downloading another batch of Naruto (31-40) and it's going really slow for some reason *makes faces* The last one went really fast, so I don't see what the problem is... I am trying really hard not to see 26-30, as I don't want to wait forever for the follow up ;_; Yeah, I'm hooked *nods*


There will be bowling next week. My younger sister will join me and we'll torture a lane for an hour or so *grins* Since we decided to do it a Wednesday afternoon, I doubt anyone else could join. There'll be other times where we can rally up the troops though *nods*

Last time I went bowling was .... before my oldest sister moved out of the apartment that my younger sister now lives in (haha, yeah. It was 'passed down' *lol*), which must've been 3-4 years ago. I tore off my thumbnail that time ^_^;;;

As I was swinging the bowling ball, it slipped off my fingers and when it fell to the ground, most of my thumbnail went with it >_<;;
I swear my heart was temporarily residing in my thumb a couple of hours after that. It was pulsating so badly ;_;

Lesson learned from that: Always cut your nails down before going bowling and bring band-aids _-_


Take Care Everyone !
I'm thinking of ya.
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Saturday, May 8, 2004

And that's why they call it the blues :p

Wheee, testing out colors. I'm liking it ^__^

And nooooo, I didn't steal the clouds from Azure. I had this pink background that I messed around with (yes, it was originally pink), and I think it looks like some sort of ... waterfall, or something. So it's not a rip-off, thank you very much :p

I'm thinking more and more about putting up ze tables also.... but that requires knowing how to get them up and I'm not even close to knowing that *lol*

This'll do in the meantime ^___^

[EDIT] Errm, Azure ? Can you help me fix up the sheep background ? [/EDIT]

[EDIT2] Thank you Azure ^__^ [/EDIT2]

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Friday, May 7, 2004

[ Insert "Crash and Burn" by Savage Garden ]

Oh man… I think I cried more over the lovely support, than I did over how things are *wipes tears and smiles* And I couldn't help but laugh at myself. Here I have been running around, demanding people to come to me if they need it and what do I do when it's my turn ? *lol* Precisely *shakes head and laughs*

*huggles everyone real tight*

I've gone through all the messages I got (here, e-mail, OB) and would love to respond to you all individually, but for now you'll have to be patient with me (which I know you are). My head is still trying to grasp whatever's going on inside *taps head and draws a heart in the air with her hands*. It seems that whenever I think I've found a clear thought or feeling that I can work from, it goes all muddled. Trying to write anything down is even worse *sighs lightly*

That is one reason for why these past few days have been so difficult, I think. I haven't been able to get anything out, in any way. That's going to change though, hopefully. And given time, it'll be better *nods*


My new favourite place is the part of the porch that is glazed, by the way. I've been sitting there in the evenings and it's helped to comfort me a little. Wednesday night (when everything really took a turn for the worse) there was a torrential downpour going on and it was so nice to sit there for a couple of hours and have everything drowned out by the sound of heavy rain hitting the roof. Yesterday it was kind of windy and cold, so I curled up in the sunchair with a blanket around my shoulders and huggled my pillow, nearly falling asleep.

*smiles* If it wasn't for the porch and garden, I imagine it would've been really difficult to find any kind of peace to my system.

It also helps out enormously to know that you're all there for me when I need support *blinks away happy tears* I'm glad to be stuck with you all !!!

*runs out to the porch, bawling her eyes out, happy to have the pleasure of being part of such a wonderful community, filled with fantastical people* …………………… *runs back in and steals everyone out to the porch, feeding them home-made cookies, listening to the wind rustle the bushes and the tree*

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One step at a time....

On May 5th I made a post, deleted it, made a new one, turned off and on comments, thought about deleting it altogether, left it up, then finally I decided to shut the whole thing down.

I just couldn't articulate anything at the time. I'm still struggling. Getting this post together feels impossible.

As desperate as I am to grab a hold of a someone and talk to about everything, I can't. I want to, but I don't want to burden and bog down. Whatever I'm going through is nothing compared to what others are. But then again you can't compare suffering, so yeah… I don't feel good right now. And as much as I know it would help to talk to a person that has always made me feel comfortable and relaxed, I can't convince myself to do it. It doesn't seem fair to return all the goodness I've received with … *gestures*… this.

I had/have my reasons for shutting down everything, as opposed to writing a post such as this, or not writing at all. But I can't explain that choice. Nor can I give a reason for why I won't allow comments *. I'd rather do this than nothing though, since you all deserve something. At the moment, I can't give anything else.

"Jag känner mig ensam med mina tankar."
I feel alone with my thoughts
"Jag behöver prata med någon."
I need to talk to someone

I did catch your comment on that post, Shin. Thank you.

To everyone that has been/is worrying about me, Thank you.

It's sad and silly how, when I need people the most, I alienate myself from everyone.

I'm sorry.

*[Edit] Turned the comments on so you can all scold my sorry silly behind, heh. [/edit]

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Wednesday, May 5, 2004

[ Insert Somebody by DM ]

… *gestures* …

Jag känner mig ensam med mina tankar.
Jag behöver prata med någon.

… *gestures* …

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Tuesday, May 4, 2004

Soft rain makes me feel ....

I finally got the 100 % signal yesterday and was giddy about seeing Naruto this morning.... turns out the only episode showing is the 6th episode *lol* I can get sound on the others, but that's it *sighs smiling* Ah well, hopefully someone will be able to help me out *nods*

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Thank you Sasuke for helping me !!!
Now if you'll excuse me, I shall bask in Naruto ~_^

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For some reason I feel like buying a dress or two, hehe. My younger sister showed me this vintage clothes shop and they had some pretty funky dresses. All in 50/60/70-ish styles, most of them very expensive -_-
And because I'm trying to save up as much as possible, I held on tight to my wallet. I'm just hoping I can keep it up and not lose hope, blow the money on needless stuff and feel rotten. Heh.

I do that.... long and wish for something really bad, go out of my way to get as close to it as I can and ... everything seems to get in the way when I think it can be done, when it seems possible.
At first it's a challenge. I get to test how motivated I am and see where my potential can take me. But there is a delicate point where I wonder if it's really worth the effort. After all, I can only handle being beaten to the ground and smacked about the head so many times.

Heh, vague confessions. Moving on.


There have been some more updates in MyO Land, I see. For now I'm not going to fiddle too much with it. No one's complained about sore eyes when visiting this place (not to my face anyway) and I'd like to keep it that way. But that's not to say I can't play around with colors in my image programs....

Regardless of any color changes, the sheep stays. The buttons probably will too and there's no way I'm going to change My Picture. It would be funky to try out the whole tables thing, but I'm a bit scared of learning HTML that is more complicated than putting a single letter into brackets :p

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" What about if MiaMia made tests that had people guess what O member Mia was thinking of? "

Angel: I aboslutely love your idea on the FriendsTest ! Hopefully I should be able to come up with something *nods*
One thing though: how do you people want me to set it up ? In regards to number of points and possible answers, I mean. Should I go for 1 correct answer that gets all the points, or sneak in a point to an almost correct answer too ? Let me know ^_^


Take Care Everyone !
Remember that People and Objects are only as much fun as you make of them ^_^
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Monday, May 3, 2004

I feel like making another FriendsTest >:D
But I don't have any ideas on questions or a theme....

So if you guys have any suggestions, leave 'em in the comment box *points down*

I'll be out most of the day, but considering time difference, you'll probably not notice ;p
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Sunday, May 2, 2004

Cookies !
I'm just hanging about the house, doing the odd cookie batch and talking to people on AIM. Slacking, in other words *lol*
But slacking helped me recover much quicker from my bad start yesterday, so it's all good ^_^

And Juuthena, thanks for the offer on the dreamcatcher but I'm ok with the odd nightmare. Somehow they serve their function/purpose and I rarely get them. I really appreciate the thought though *huggles*

I'll be visiting my younger sister tomorrow. She's been feeling down a lot lately, though I don't know why. I can make a pretty educated guess, but I'd rather she told me herself. So hopefully my visit will cheer her up a little bit. The older sister is already over there and we'll all go to a café or something. It should be fun *nods*

Random Disney thought: Is Pinnochio mentally retarded ?

I've been doing good on my promise to check out the Disney DVD's I've bought (except for "The Lion King", it's just sooo sad *sniffles*). I saw "The little Mermaid" only yesterday and the whole 'wanting something that seems impossible to ever get/ experience' snatched my attention this time. I could make a meaningful entry about that possibly, but not today *smiles*

It's amazing to think about what people are willing to do for the things they desire, though. A lot of the time shortcuts are used and you could either say that they apparently don't want it bad enough to work for/at it, or they want it so badly that they can't wait. Not to mention what they need to do/think they need to do, to feel happy and complete. Ariel got plastic surgery to feel more fulfilled, basically *lol*

Hm, my thoughts feel disjointed... Anyroad. It's interesting to see what gets slipped into the "kiddy movies", hehe.

Take Care Everyone !
Have a cookie, they're on the house ^_^
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Saturday, May 1, 2004

Bleh

Had a really rough night, barely slept at all and when I did sleep, I had nightmares about war *blinks* Weird. Whenever I have sleepless nights like that, I lose about half a day feeling sick.

Yesterday turned out pretty good though, with lots of talking on AIM and reading good MyO's ^_^

And uhm, that's about it *lol* The day is still young and slow, meaning there's little to talk about. Not to mention that I'm still a bit shaky and weak *does puppy faces* Nothing that a good meal and some rest won't cure ^_^


Lionking meets FFIX

Hehe, I was looking around for FFIX images and stumbled across that place. I haven't explored much more than that page, but it just looked funny and I wanted to share it :p

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