Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Sometimes when you hear your name called, it sounds like an angel singing...
Excuse me while I get something off of my chest, I don't want it to cause an infection. Ick.
Feel free to scroll down. I'd hate for you to catch anything :p

When I was about 5 years old, my cousins (on dad's side) were visiting. Along with my sisters we all headed to a playground about 5 minutes from our house. The sky was perfectly clear, a beautiful shade of blue stretching over our heads. But I mustn't get too lyrical.

Suddenly lightning was going off everywhere and black clouds came out of nowhere, instantly darkening the sky [.... As a 5 year old you really have no perception of time. That must be said. So when I think back on it today (at the age of 22), it can be debated if it really happened that quickly ....]. Everyone scrambled away at velocities that would make that dinosaur, the very speedy one, jealous. Did I mention they had bikes and knew how to ride them ? No ? Well, they had bikes and knew how to ride them [.... I actually had one too, but it did me no good since at that point I was clueless as to how it worked ....]. Their escape from the torrential downpour, forgive my inability to keep this story simple and to the point, was so snappy that no one noticed that I fell behind from the word go.

So there I was, drenched from water falling off a heavy sky, whimpering at the deafening thunder. I recall the bike being very heavy to push, though it might've been the heavy winds. After what felt/seemed like an eternity, I had gotten halfway home and still no sign of anyone looking for me. But as I got a little bit closer to home, there was a moving speck coming closer and closer. It was a knight in shining armour, on a valiant steed that sparkled in the dark day [.... The speck was my dad, on a bike ....]. He whisked me home and I was towelled off and welcomed back to safety by my mom.

Brief synopsis: I was 5 years old, happily playing with older sisters and cousins. The sky turned pitch black, there was heavy thunder and rain. Everyone ran off, leaving me behind. My own sisters didn't notice that I was missing. End the first experience with abandonment. Yes, so many more were to follow. But that's bothersome to dwell about. Let's move on.
/End brief synopsis

So what brought about me sharing this with everyone ? Well, it has to do with the visit to the cinema, this past Sunday. As you already know I went with my older sister, the younger one decided to stay home and because I had already booked the tickets, there was one left over. Since dad would drive us I asked if he wanted to go along, but he had already made plans to see a footie game (soccer). Then my sister came up to me and asked if she could invite a friend, seeing as we had one ticket over. It later evolved to two friends and a younger brother.

First off, this was supposed to be a ‘sister thing’.
Secondly, my older sister is a master in shutting me out (remember the instance when she locked me out of the house ? ... which is quite funny if you decide to look at it like that ... she's also the sister I shall be going to London with ... anyway), but she's very close to her friends.
Adding these two things up, I had the stereotypical red flashlights/big warning signs going up. I would feel left out, misplaced, abandoned--- but wait, what if that didn't happen ? What if I took the plunge and tried to make an effort ? Could it be that just this once my intuition was off key ?

In one word: No.

The minute my sister saw her friends she, quite literally, turned her back on me. Though, she did ask for the time, if she could borrow money for candy and where to go. And I tried to talk to her friends, which worked to a degree. I said something, they said something to me and then went back to talking to my sister. I'll give them credit for not doing it in a rude way *shrug*


What was my point with this ? ... Ehm, I've forgotten. Haha. It got me down a bit, but now that the wallowing is done *makes disarming gesture and smiles* I'd rather feel discouraged and try again, than to wonder ‘what if ?’ and never get anywhere.


Here are a few (and random) facts:

* I'm slightly addicted to buying cards. The kinds that have funny/sweet messages on them and that you put in an envelope and send off to whomever. Those cards.

* An additional shelf in my cupboard has been semi-cleared to allow my DVD collection to grow >:D

* My younger sister is now equally obsessed with Naruto as I am ... well, she's more into Kakashi than Naruto XD. We have a blast imitating voices, saying the odd Japanese word, "singing" along to the soundtracks and constantly referring to various scenes whenever we see an opportunity to bewilder others and amuse ourselves :D


A few (though not so random) thoughts:

* There should be more bowling !

* There should be more Waffle Days !

* There should be more Scrabble playing !

* This post should be ended with a big hug !


*HUG*

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