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Thursday, July 8, 2004
Sideway smile
Kweh !
I did a mini shopping round today and [while browsing a store] I saw a skirt that looked pretty. My initial (and somewhat compulsary) thought was "I'm too fat to even think about trying it on". I had even put it back and turned to continue my window shopping, when it dawned on me that ... well... that it isn't true anymore...
I guess. Heh.
So I decided to chance it and took two sizes, went to the dressing room (*gasp* No, don't go in there ! :o *shriek*) and tried the bigger size on first. Lo and behold....
it was too big O.o
Feeling daring, I tried the smaller size on.... which was a teensy weensy bit too tight (anyone else would've said 'perfect', but I like a little space to be able to fully breathe) O_O
Conclusion: I need to either gain a little weight (not happening) or lose/tone a little bit more, because right now I'm stuck right in between two sizes. Anything that's too tight could be money wasted if I gain more weight. And anything that's too big will look awful on me if more weight is lost....
.... I love having this problem *giggles and hides from angry mob*
Something that really scared me though, was that I looked at myself in those awful mirrors in the changing room and .... for the first time in my whole life, I didn't regret it.
*cuts to commercial while she gets emotional*
In all seriousness though, I... am weirded out by this. The image that's been me for so long, the excuses that's worked this long, are as close to gone as they can be.
A part of me feels guilty for reaching this point, while another is terrified and a small fraction is grinning proudly. It's all very conflicted, poor me :p
Bah, sorry. I really want to take pride in what I've accomplished, but it feels so silly. It's not a cure for cancer I've found, just a doorway to a place where I'm happy about myself *soppy smile*
*hugs everyone*
EDIT: I just heard Viggo Mortensen speak Danish and it was surreal *blinks* Yes, I know of his heritage and that he's fluent in the language... but to hear him speak *blinks again* 'Twas cool, but I prefer his drawly American accent ;p
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