Friday, October 19, 2007

   Like a bridge over troubled water

Even though I don't really have much to say I still feel like posting. It might be them walks I've been going on. Got my brain juices flowing. It tastes like chocolate. No.

So feeding off of the last post I wanted to talk about another aspect of doting. Namely the kind that revolves around babies or old people.

I don't ever want to have kids. EVAR. The idea of having something growing inside me is just too alien and we're not yet touching on all that comes after popping it out. Or cutting it out, as it might be in some cases.

You could almost say I've got somewhat of a phobia when it comes to babies and small children. Why? Because they're so fragile. They make me feel like a drunk mammoth in a glass house with very narrow hallways.

Some kids are cute or funny but not enough to wake any sort of urge inside me to procreate. Wait. Let me rephrase that. They don't make me want to have sex solely for the reason of creating an offspring. I'm not ragging on people who are passionate about having them asap, in large quantities sometimes, it's just not for me.


As far as elderly people are concerned I'm not deathly adverse to doting on them. Aside from the acidically bitter ones, the sleazy perverts and plain old catatonics, there are some pretty cool elderly guys and gals out there. If it was just about getting them some coffee, in exchange for their life story, I'd be game.

However. I wouldn't want to work in a nursing home, hospital, etc. My sensitivity level is far too high to cope with the pains so overly abundant in such places. Listening to my mom's stories (gathered from years of experience) reinforces the concept of how strenuous it is. You have both wonderful and despicable patients, a system that isn't looking after them properly, lacking or barely existing resources, and oftentimes a work environment that wears on your health.


Yeah. There you have it. A smaller expansion on the subject of doting.

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It looks like I'm on an 'AP Dreams' roll. Last night Batou was part of the electrician group that worked on a house we were building, or possibly improving on. A the point he showed in the dream up I was angry at dad for some reason. It was kinda funny since I was complaining loudly about my annoyances in their presence and turning to them every once in a while to reassure they weren't the target for my anger. Poor Batou was very patient, waiting for me to calm down before introducing himself XD

Later on we migrated to the nearby sea-lake and Ichigo showed up. I dove into the water from the bridge and played a little game of hide and seek with him, haha. He then joined me in the water, we splashes around for a bit and then got out. Just as Chigo showed up some other people in the area decided to go on a hike.

So everyone sort of went along but then a storm hit us out of nowhere, separating Chigo and I from the group. We were at this riverbank and people kept getting caught in the waves, causing us both to dash around like mad trying to save them. Scary stuff. We pulled it off, though.

And just about there I woke up. It'll be interesting to see if I have another one tonight :D

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To everyone: One of the reasons I don't hold myself back writing posts such as the previous one (despite the repetitiveness in its content) is because everyone rallies to help keep me grounded and loved at the same time, which is exactly what I need to get out of that mood.

You guys instantly brush the cobwebs away from my brooding self and for that I am eternally in your debt :3

Molly: I just recalled that you have your own church! So you're really blessing me with your love, so to speak XD!!!

Shaow: Bubbles. I like that! "Singing in the rain" is also great, except I'm not too keen on being in actual rain, haha.

Slick: The podcaster[s] love is more likely based on the prezzies I send rather than for reasons that have to do with my moping, hehehe.

*looks at the first video* ..... I ... don't ... really know what to say. Other than it made me afraid to check the second video! But it turned out to be cuuuuuute ^_^

Azure: "Don't worry, I love Canada, but all the pretty people are here by NY."
Your comment huuuuuuuuuurt me. In a very not-serious-at-all kind of way XP

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