Saturday, August 21, 2004

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Mmm, today was one of those days where the bed just sucks you in and is more comfortable than usual. Most of the waking hours was spent just snuggling and feeling ridiculously relaxed, not even close to being remotely bored or depressed or anything like that.
Just calm ^_^
But I did do some biking and sit-ups in the afternoon, which made me feel better about missing yesterday (though the double workout on Thursday made up for that one day, hehe). It's really nice that, ever since coming back from London, the workout has been extraordinarily easy. That trip did wonders for my general state of health, lol.

Now that I'm getting fitter it's just a matter of fighting the paranoia that sets in every time my hands or feet itch. Because that's how it started last time, with the whole sickness. Some weird rash came out of nowhere and was gone within a week or so. Then a couple of months later my health died.

The most frustrating thing about that whole ordeal was the fact that I was on the right track, with everything, and to have all that hard work wiped away like it was nothing more than a tiny speck on a glasstable .... makes me a bit antsy now that it's going so well again. Better than last time, even.

Still, I'm trying to enjoy what I've accomplished so far. It's wonderful to know that anything's possible and not roll your eyes, sigh and wave with the hand when someone suggest that. Here on out I get to know how it feels to be on the other side of the encouragement line, lol.

*jumps up and down with pom-poms and cheers people on*
Hmm, today was also the last day of the Olympic swimming. They didn't show much from it though, favouring other things going on. Bah. I missed the first day and most of the second day too, unfortunately. Guess it's a matter of waiting for the next championship, which I have no idea where or when it is, haha.

Last year, when the World Championships were held in Barcelona, I sat glued to the screen even though I had no previous interest in that particular sport before. Funny how random things can catch your interest (and either keep it or lose its *gestures* allure).

My sister, unexpectedly, showed interest in the swimming too. Possibly for more superficial reasons, lol. But it's intriguing to see how similar we are.

*compares pictures of siblings to look for family traits*
Which brings me to the post Solo did yesterday, in which he spoke of protectiveness (among other things) and how it manifests itself.

It reminded me of my relationship with my younger sister and particularly how sharing interests/objects with her was (and to some point still is) a sore spot. It seemed that whenever something caught my eye, it did the same with her. For example: If I got into a certain animal and borrowed books to learn more about it, she also expressed interest.

For someone like myself, who felt that everyone else but me had something special going for them, having someone "stepping into my territory" was aggravating. Normally I'd happily share with others, but the moment there was a deeper attachment to a subject and my sister once again steered her attention to it, I got murderously possessive. Having something that was only mine was terribly important.

So instead of being happy that she shared my excitement, I'd feel robbed of ... my unique and personal 'niche'. Add to the mix that her behaviour/attitude seriously got under my skin, you got a pot that had some bitter potion in it.

And yet again, we did connect really well. There were times when we'd be roaring with laughter together or play silly games that didn't allow anyone else to participate. In the instances that someone treated her badly, I'd rush to her defence and fight for her. It must've been terribly confusing for her to have me going from one extreme to another and there were countless times that I made her cry from my treatment.

But she never gave up on trying to be my sister and friend.
A few years ago I made a conscious decision in really working on our relationship. That included apologising for all the years of evilness on my part. After that it's only gotten better and better, though there are still the occassional hick-up but it's not more than it can be resolved. Sibling quarrel is almost unavoidable anyway, lol.

So yeah, I love all my sisters and I'm lucky to have them _^_

( ... even if one of them reads the Naruto manga and gets ahead of the anime >_>;;; )

In the event that my sister asks dad to drive her back to her apartment, I shall have to tag along and check out some of the electronic shops they've got in that town. (During a search of their online sites I noticed some good deals on digital cameras, hehe.) Sometimes it's good to have credit cards [to certain shops] and this is definitely one of those moments :p


That's all for today, thanks for tuning in !

*Huggles Everyone*

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