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• Digging ½ a Trench. Having SomeGuy over.
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• the mid 80's
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• Naruto, RahXephon, Haibane Renmei, PMK, Ouran HSHC, Death Note, Bleach, Yakitate Japan
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• Less angsting - more energy!
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• Being incredibly silly
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Thursday, September 16, 2004
- snug -
I love you all !
Wow, I had no idea I was in such a state. It wasn't until after posting it and finding that I was shaking rather uncontrollably that my brain connected, haha. Hrm. The shaking has stopped by the way, in case anyone has their hand on the phone, ready to call Shamu.
Puah, still exhausted. But a lot less stressed out, thankfully.
Somehow I managed to 'detach' myself [from myself] during all this, thinking it wouldn't affect whatever I did. That's like breaking up with someone and go to their wedding the next day, thinking you'll be able to give the best man's speech with nothing but kind words.
Instead of being constructively honest, I was a brutal ass. That's something I won't stop apologising for, since it really was crossing the line. *bows deeply*
Now I know that next time things get emotional, a time-out must be taken. Which should include deep breathing and chocolate, hehe.
That's actually something I need to do, regardless of emotional-ness. Breathing, that is. For some reason my breathing is shallow, despite great lung capacity. It's probably down to having problems with anxiety for so long and constantly being tense about getting an attack.
If I may go on a small tangent, every doctor I've met have commented on my lung capacity. They often want to know what sport I do and when finding out I rarely exercise (that used to be the case anyway), they go "o.O". Shortly after that reaction is 'Then pick up a sport and go for the Olympics!'.
Which leads to another small tangent, namely that of competition. Why is it that the minute you take a keen interest in something or have the ability to excel, you're supposed to take it to a competetive level ? I'm all for the fact that it can help further your talent, but come on. Some people just want to enjoy whatever they're good at *nod*
Whoops, trailed quite a bit there. Hehe, this is almost as good as Literati Therapy with Shin. But just almost ;D
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