Wednesday, October 6, 2004

Unlovable [Further explanation added]

I'm gonna put this on repeat, eat chocolate and cry my eyes out. It just gets to me, in so many ways I don't think I can explain it all right now. Maybe later. If there was one song with Darren Hayes I'd ask you to listen to, even if he isn't up your alley, it would be this one. He's going to tour England in November. That would've been something else, to hear this song (and the others) live. Unlovable - Darren Hayes Are my lips unkissable? Are my eyes unlookable? Is my skin untouchable? Am I unlovable? Cynical jaded faithless disappointed disillusioned used If I could take back all my sweat my tears my sex my joy I would My time my love my effort passion dedication In case of mistaken identity I gave these things to you If I sound angry bitter sad infatuated it's the truth Denial anger bargaining depression just a few Stages of acceptance that it's really over It's just so complicated and I'm stupid for believing in you You make me feel like my father never loved me You make me feel like the act of love is empty Am I so unlovable? Is my skin untouchable? Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like? I had your back I held you up I told you you were good enough It was not reciprocated you kept affection and yourself apart You fed your love to me like crumbs to pigeons in the park Sometimes I think it satisfied you to see me begging like a dog I wasn't armoured you were king I gave my everything Because sometimes you showed me just a hint of you and then For just a moment I romanticised the notion I can take away the torment I can love you like they never did You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me) You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty) Am I so unlovable? Is my skin untouchable? Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like? You make me feel like my mother she abandoned me (you abandoned me) You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty) Am I so unlovable? Is my heart unbreakable? Do I remind you of a part of you that you despise? Are my lips unkissable? Are my eyes unlookable? Is my sex undoable? Am I unlovable? Are my words unlistenable? Are my hands untouchable? Am I undesirable? Am I unlovable? You make me feel like my father never loved me You make me feel like the act of love is empty Am I so unlovable? Is my skin untouchable? Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like? You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me) You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty) Am I so unlovable? Is my skin untouchable? Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like? You make me feel like my mother she abandoned me (you abandoned me) You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty) Am I so unlovable? Is my heart unbreakable? Do I remind you of a part of you that you despise? You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me) You make me feel like my mother she abandoned me (you abandoned me) You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me) You make me feel like my mother she abandoned me (you abandoned me) EDIT: Hehe, fearing the wrath of Angel I shall try to explain better why this song hits me to the degree that it does. It isn't because I feel like that, but more because suddenly I believe the opposite of what it's saying. Very much like going from being suicidal and then embracing life, and upon hearing someone sing about wanting to kill themselves you want to shout 'I LOVE LIFE!' instead of chiming in and saying 'Yeah, I know what you mean'. A song can be equally powerful if you believe the opposite of what it's saying as when it says exactely what you're feeling. Another point are the specific lines 'you make me feel like my father never loved me you make me feel like the act of love is empty'. That pretty much says it all, so I'll leave it at that. So this song (to me) represents the two sides of love. Giving and recieveing, as well as giving and not getting anything in return. And the music is just wonderful, so I still think you should give it a try HC :P

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