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Monday, November 22, 2004
The 10.000 $ answer is:
Stress. Mom stressing about us kids, us kids stressing out about ourselves stressing out and mom stressing about us stressing out. Stress.
Eldest sister: stressing about leaving her psycho case. Grandma adding to that stress by calling every day, reporting or inquiring about it. Mom going through it over and over, leaking it over to me. The stress of 3 people, leaking over to me.
Younger sister: Looks like she's struggling the same way I did and still do, acting as a reminder of sorts. Another persons stress leaking over to me, tempting my own to surface.
Older sister: Heh, it's difficult to know. She never says if anything's wrong. Next weekend she'll finally get an apartment of her own, we'll go and do the 'house warming' thing. An eye infection hit her a couple of days ago. Luckily it was her bad eye, meaning it won't make anything worse, but you still freak out whenever there's something going on with her sight (her being near blind and everything).
I just... My own brain is turning against me and everything around me is doing everything to help it out. It'll start with one thought and before I know it it's spun out of control, leaving me in a stupid swirl of angst. It's so unnecessary. I tell myself to let it go and I do so but pretty soon I'm back to that spiral, angsting all over again.
A retreat. Spa week. Gah, that sounds so good right now.
I do take medicine for my anxiety and I guess you could argue that I should up the dose. But that won't solve anything, it'll just make my tolerance tolerate more. Getting away from things wouldn't solve anything either, but at least I could charge my batteries naturally and gather strength to deal with all this stuff going on.
Meh, it feels good to blabber about it. ANGST! lol. I think I'll tidy up my room later. It usually helps my mind if my surroundings aren't chaotic and my room is something I can definitely fix. Which in turn will calm me down even more *cuddles her safe haven*
And there'll be no apologies for this post. I've learned by now that you're ok with release (*wink*). I love you guys *blows kisses to everyone* |
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