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Saturday, December 11, 2004
Lightbulb moment. A triple 60 Watt one.
So yeah, as I was coming down from my flusteration yesterday of not being able to work out (and thusly not being able to allow myself chocolate) I realised what was going on. Why I have these rather violent reactions to small things.
It's because I'm tricking myself into believing everything's fine and when I'm reminded that it's not, how limited I am in what I can do, I react.
I don't mind being stuck in my room, honestly, as long as I have the possibility to leave whenever I want. Without being 'monitored'.
If my body had a super metabolism I wouldn't even get worried about not working out. However, since I don't and I do want to indulge in eating chocolate, the premise of forcing myself to do so before a specific time is just annoying. As it turned out yesterday I got dad to buy my favourite candy but since no one would accompany me out into the garage to keep me safe while I burned off some excess fat, I couldn't eat it.
It feels like I'm harping the same old, over and over here O.o*
Wanted to work out so I could eat chocolate, couldn't work out, didn't eat chocolate, got emotional, stumbled upon realization. The end of dwelling over that issue.
Right now the sun is shining and my tank is relatively clean. I don't have any chocolate, so the only reward for working out today will be ... that I'll be healthier? Yeah, that's it.
Ich hab euch alle lieb! Keep those suggestions to the last post coming in =D |
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