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• 2003-10-17
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• Mimmi
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• Digging ˝ a Trench. Having SomeGuy over.
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• the mid 80's
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• Naruto, RahXephon, Haibane Renmei, PMK, Ouran HSHC, Death Note, Bleach, Yakitate Japan
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• Less angsting - more energy!
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• Tinkering
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• Being incredibly silly
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Sunday, December 28, 2003
Reading PT and Mitch's posts feels like listening to my parents argue.
My parents both speak the same language, but somehow manage to not understand a word of what the other is saying.
They don't really speak to eachother when they're arguing, rather at eachother.
And there I'll be, in between.
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When I was really young, I would run and hide whenever the bickering started. The intensity in their voices lead me to believe that someone would get hurt.
To this day, I loathe people raising their voices when it is uncalled for.
I'm not sure if I was born with the atmospherical awareness I have today, or if it emerged from those early years of absorbing the world around me.
Either way, I am excruciatingly aware of changes in the atmosphere.
My radar, so to speak, will pick up everything and process it. Sometimes I don't even know I'm doing it.
It enables me to avoid, or take charge of things before they get out of control.
But it is also very draining, to constantly be on guard around people. At least, "irl". *sighs*
It can be really interesting at times, to sit with the two of them (my parents) and translate what the other is saying. Rarely do they listen to what is said, but how it is said.
There's a constant reading between the lines, when in most cases there's nothing to discover.
But because they look for it, they'll assume they've found something.
I'm sure my family would make an excellent case study in communication.
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I try to stay out of the "battle" between Mitch and PT, since it's really none of my business.
And yet I feel as though I am betraying both of them.
I don't want to be a tool between them. They are both dear to me, in some way or another.
It's not easy avoiding the mines in a field which is unknown territory, so I fear that I will slip and fall.
And the tension is doing me no good, nor is it nourishing my relation to these two people, whom I am looking forward to befriend further.
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So yeah.
I'm open for business, just don't break anything that can't be refunded…
Or something…
- Mimmi
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