Thursday, January 8, 2004

- Yearn - Crave - Long - Desire - Want - Need -


" Beware of the Cone People! They will make you late "

Communication

I realised that I'd completely forgotten to include something that happened yesterday, on my day out.

I was standing in the ATM line and these two guys before me, starting to speak English !
This in itself isn't amazing or anything, but it made me crave someone to talk to – in any language !

Sure, I "talk" to people over aim. But it's not the same as hearing someone pronounce words in a certain way, emphasize things with their own personal touch.
A voice...

I'm finding out more each day how starved I am in specific areas.
Which on one hand is good, it means I have identified what I need.
But on the other hand it opens up the fact that I've no idea how to go about getting it, as well as it being an effort I failed so miserably the last time I had a go at it.
So in essence I am yearning and pursuing matters unattainable and so annoyingly desirable…

I wonder if that made any sense to you all ?

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Determination
Revising things as turned out to be quite arduous, but also very rewarding.
My vocabulary is benefiting majorly from constantly going over grammar and spelling.
I'm still no good at "direct communication" but I think I'm beginning to make more sense *looks at statement made before this*or not >___>
Regardless, I have finished that poem I felt like entering in Arcadia's contest…
If I can muster the nerve, that is *lol*

It's not majestically profound, nor is it really bad – I just have doubts about whether or not it should be made public material.

Considering it's about a person, whom I honestly don't know very well, it can have the liability of becoming a thorn in my cushioned environment.

Though that hasn't stopped me before, so I really see no reason in suddenly taking a new approach.

It all comes down to me convincing myself that life is a walk – there are roads to cross and one must look out for the traffic.
But there's no need to be overly tense about the fact that you can get run over – if it happens, you either jump out in time or admire the bruises that tells the tale of your bravery.

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Inspiration
Today was one of those mornings where you wake up and go into the kitchen. There you see the mess that needs to be taken care of and you go
" Meh >____> " *lol*

Eventually I got most of it out of the way and went for a walk, mainly to shop for bread and milk.

I had the book that was due back a couple of days ago with me, only it turned out that the library was closed !
So unless you count the facts that I got exercise and ingredients to keep me alive – it felt rather pointless.

And of course I was struck by inspiration on the way home – with nothing to write on… except for the book >___>

After contemplating how serious of an offence it is to ruin public property, I found the note which said when the book was supposed to be returned and scribbled on that.

This happens every time ! Seriously, whenever I think that there won't be anything to photograph or that I feel totally uninspired – sure enough, it jumps at me from all directions *grumbles*

Once again I have been taught the wonderful lesson of "inspiration follows no rules – except for the rule that it follows no rules" ~_^

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Conclusion
Well, it's only afternoon and I've got stuff to do… *cough* …yeah right…*cough*
So if there's anything I feel like adding, I'll make a little EDIT note right here and so on, so forth and beyond that.

Take care – Feel the Love
- Mimmi

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