Thursday, January 15, 2004

" It looks like Naked Mining Guy is taking a nap "
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Thank You Azure for helping me with the color de-coding !
I will be the Girly to your Manly :p

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Stupidity seldom pays off -_-
I bought a new wintercoat about 1 year ago, at the peek of my weight gain, so now that I've lost all that sickness and then some – it no longer fits me.
This in itself is a wonderful thing, there's nothing that beats the feeling of clothes hanging loosely around your body ^_^

However – yesterday when I had decided to go for a walk, I looked at myself in the mirror.
The reflection did not respond well with how I felt – gorgeous – so I briefly glanced at the thermometer and registered " +1 Celsius "…

Surely that was warm enough to wear my jeans jacket ? The sun was shining and there was hardly any wind…
Said and done – me and my jeans jacket took a 20 minute walk in +1 Celsius.
All the while I had this silly smirk/grin playing on my face, I simply couldn't help but feel great !

No one needs to tell me that this was incredibly superficial and stupid – but the high of feeling … curvy, healthy, happy… outshone my intelligence >_>
My sillyness made my health (which was barely recovered after the dreadful weekend) decline rapidly – within a few hours I was completely out of it -_-
Those talking to me probably noticed this =^_^=

Not the best of conditions for this mornings Dr's Visit >_>
Like I've said in previous posts, I've been sick for over a year now. Been to 5 different "normal" Doctors (conventional medicine) – and in the end my mom had enough (and quite frankly so had I ), so she decided to try out this Homeopath that she'd heard good things about.
The only problem was that he practiced in a town that takes 2 hours by bus to get to >_<
However, we'd run out of options and if we had let it go on much longer – well, let's not go there, shall we…

My first visit was back in June – and now, 6 or so months later, I'm slowly getting back to my former (and further) glory ^_^

But it's still 4 hours on a bus, 2 hours waiting in 2 towns ~_^

So when you're not feeling well, is sleep deprived, the alarm clock goes off at 06.45 am, you know you won't be home until 14.30 pm – you really start regretting wearing that jeans jacket :p

In order to take the edge off of my gloomy situation, I succumbed to another spree of sillyness.
What you see are the promotional pictures for "Return of the King" that are plastered all over noticeboards ^_^

Behold – Frodo and Co


Yes - you may all laugh at me ~_^

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School Anecdote Postponed
The School Anecdote – Iceland Chronicles part 2, will be postponed until tomorrow – due to my weak state ^_^;
I'll include some pictures, so I hope you can keep you pants on till then (hahaha) ^_^

But before I leave, I'd like to include something I did write today. It's very unedited and non-revised, so excuse the randomness ^_^;

Painfree Awareness
I used to be lost – not knowing who I was.
Maybe I've not "found" myself.
But I feel that " I am ".
This is infinitely much more than the nothingness and disoriented, me that I was.

I like to be happy and enjoy living – it frustrates me when adversities get in the way of that.
Before, I would look for it – invite it, want it more than anything.

This situation is still new to me and so sometimes I feel ashamed/guilty/silly/deceitful for feeling like this.
But I also know that I feel better now, compared to back then.
Meaning that the person I am now is truer to myself.

It's incredibly difficult to word these emotions, because they are so intricate, sophisticated and complicated – and at the same time very basic, simple.

The very essential core of Mimmi
=^_^=

So, yeah – it's very muddled and weird and silly. ^_^;

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Take Care Everyone !

Remember that Objects and People are only as much fun as you make of them ^_^

- Mimmi

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