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Sunday, April 24, 2005

I hate nightmares
But more than that I hate feeling so alone after having them.


Thanks everyone for the warm thoughts *group hug*

I know that I should just tell myself that it was a bad dream but it's not quite that easy. My nightmares are always heavily rooted in reality, so they're never about some monster eating my guts out. Instead they're about people I love who hurt me, situations I'm about to face that go seriously wrong.

"But it was still just a dream and surely it was twisted to such a degree that it can't accurately mirror reality?"

No, this was as close to reality as nightmares can get. Every single thing that I'm vulnerable to, things that are going on right now, were all lined up in one/several consecutive nightmare/s. They continued after I fell asleep again. That's why it hit so hard and it's impossible to shake off in a heartbeat. Curling up tightly into a fetus position didn't work either, which I thought it was supposed to.

Sleep is meant to be where I can escape the messed up reality, not be reminded of it. Le Blah.
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