Tuesday, February 10, 2004

" Now come on over and pick me up ! "
I'm beginning to really like writing with just the one shade of color :p

Bleh, my mom and dad both have lumbago (*tries not to laugh at funny word*), but since I don't know if that's the proper word I'll have to say "their backs really hurt and it could be because of a cold".
Not to mention the fact that my older sister has come down with something as well -_-

My own health is going up and down/back and forth. I'll be fine for a couple of hours and then I'll crash and burn.
Lying down usually helps, but it'd be nice if it just went away all together *pouts*


I watched most of Edward Scissorhands today, while washing my feet... (weird how dirty they get, even when you're not using them much :p )
I still have a couple of Disney DVD's that I should get round to, not to mention all the great movies that is due to be released soon *drools*
There's also the book that was supposed to be returned yesterday..... *cough*


As I went to bed last night I was trying to figure out what was going on inside my head, which turns out to be nothing and everything *rolls eyes*

For one, I feel.... clingy ?
I'm not sure that's the right word, although it is. Because I feel a need to be around people, I want their attention.
But at the same time, it's really nice to be on my own - to simply be.
It's what I'm used to and it feels weird trying to change that, even though every [living] cell in my body is pushing me in the direction of ... anyone, really.

(Maybe I should take a class in social behaviour :p )

At the same time as I'm thinking all this, I try to imagine what it'd be like if it were different. You know... if what I want is what I had.
That thought is usually thrown out the window the moment it tries to dawn on me, that's how foreign and rejected it is by my brain *lol*
It's actually not that funny... but laughing at it makes it less intimidating, less scary and hurtful.

I just want to wallow a bit, until I let it go.
Before I remember that life is alright the way it is, and it might change for the better - but it's no use going around wishing for it to happen. Neither is trying to force it to begin.


I have now come to the point where I have no idea what I just wrote, so I no longer feel downed by what spins inside of me.

And so I remind you all of how special you are, for that will never be forgotten ^_^

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Commentary comments
Arcadia & Dagger: Badness will always pull through ~_^
(and chocolate helps it on its way ^_^)

Nightbeck:I ranted ! Thanks for reminding me that it's ok to let things out ^_^

Anatema: You're just awesome, girl. Not to mention perdy ^_^

Molly: The same goes to you, darling. Let us overcome the stupidity that sneaks about, together ! *heroic gestures*

Someguy: Glad I could help. And you're already repaying the debt by being you and sharing yourself with me and everyone else ;)

Solo: If you were honey, then I would gladly eat a whole jar of you... innocently, of course 0:)

CRH: Yes. Your pants seem to help keeping me warm :p

ssj3borjan: *lol* That's all one need to come up with, really ^_^

Azure: If you read this, which I think you do, just remember to take it easy. And if you need air, I'll gladly give you some of mine ^_^

(I wanted to write a semi-personal note to everyone that I could think of, but I'm too lazy and sick to do so ^_^;
But I'm equally grateful for you, of course !)

Take Care Everyone !
Remember to remember the things worth Remembering, for they should always be Remembered.
- Mimmi

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