Tuesday, March 30, 2004

Dude !

I got some Aussie action last night, baby !

…Ehm, I mean I watched Finding Nemo… *whips out halo*

There were so many references to other movies in there and it felt like watching one big "in-joke" *giggles* It's a really great movie and now I think I'll get Toy Story, since people keep "comparing" the two.

And the "list of movies I must see" is growing alarmingly huge O.o;;;; There are still DVD's in my cupboard that I haven't watched and I bought those... some time ago ^_^;
That fact doesn't stop me from getting more movies, of course, haha.

That's right.... I wrote down my DVD collection for a dull day. I think I have somewhere around 50. Which isn't much, but I only just started a few months back :p
I'll put that list up some day, for you all to scrutinize ~_^

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Come dance with me ^__^

I got the tax papers today and I get money back this year !!

WAZOO !!

It's pretty much the same amount that I had to pay last year (*grumble*).
The only problem is… I don't get it until August/September…

Yet another thing I have to wait for ~_^

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*Pose*
You know all those "psychoanalytical" shows, where people come on and talk about their problems and the host (or/and the audience) "sorts them out" ?

Fat people on those shows are always told that they're fat because they want to shield themselves from the world. How it makes them feel safe, so they keep eating to sustain the protective layer of fat and by feeding the fear that prompted the walls to go up, they dodge dealing with it.

Now, I gained weight because I got sick, so there's an obvious difference here. But I have to say that now that I lost all the pounds I gained and then some ... I feel vulnerable. Sort of exposed.

And at the same time I feel powerful, like no one can hurt me.

(It's contradictory, I know.)

Heh, my mom is getting kind of worried about how much weight I'm losing. I guess she's scared I'll go anorectic, which is about as foreign to me as... eating vegetables ;p
And as much fun as getting of excess fat has been, there's no way I'd get any kind of eating disorder. Because:

1) I love having breakfast. The other meals are good too, because dinner is a great time to catch up with the family and the evening snack is pretty much like breakfast... only later >_>;

2) There's nothing I hate more than to throw up. I can't even stand hearing/watching someone else throw up. So there's no way I'll get bulimic >_<

3) And this is the silly reason... I've got a thick bone structure, so technically I can't be anorectic *hides from mob*

Seriously though, I have no reason to adapt eating disorders. I'm not naturally skinny, so going for that is just stupid.

And I like my curves, which have become much more defined now, hehe. My upper body has lost the blobbyness and ehm, you know, hehe, it's really quite surprising to see just how my body curves *giggles*

I wasn't really aware of that before, even though my bras obviously gave me a hint, heh.

..... No, I'm not going to post my cup size O.o;

Anyway, I had a serious point to make... I think. Yes, here it comes:

I figure we all have walls of some kind. Physical and mental ones.

Some people can use the walls as a precautionary defence system, not allowing them to get in the way of their life. While others devote a lot of time to reinforce their walls and hide behind them.

Certain walls need to be there. Then again, there are those that should be torn down and kicked into dust >:D

Take Care Everyone !
Remember that People and Objects are only as much fun as you make of them ^_^

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