Thursday, July 13, 2006

headdesk

Well, in an attempt to revive my optimism - that upped and died on me - I browsed around the fanart and either voted positive or voted and left a comment. Some poor souls got their comment manager flooded. Sowwy.

Later on in the day I went to the gym and had a nice workout.

Didn't make any progress in luring either optimism or inspiration back, though. I know I've had these kinds of spells before and come back from them. It's just that ..... it feels different this time. And that worries me. Not that I'm suicidal or anything like that. No.


I'll be starting work (as in a real job, with formal pay) on Monday, at a different hotel. Cleaning. They'll need me for the coming weeks but it's all up in the air how things'll work out with my internship at the first hotel. Or rather, I'm supposed to just give up any thought of finishing it/it's finished as far as my supervisor's concerned, even though this paying job has no guarantees to last longer than a couple of weeks.

Never mind. I'm not in the mood to go into all that. Sorry for not commenting on your comments from the last post today. Doesn't mean I don't love you all. Hope to see you again on the other side, in the near future.

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Sean: *ponders* I'm looking forward to that house we're planning. That thought really helps to have in mind. Maybe I should try to get more involved or at least sketch up ideas for my own room... Good advice there *hugs* We'll never stop fighting, will we? And when we're strong enough we'll enter armwrestling competitions and swipe home the star prize! Seriously, though, you be strong too :3

Kelicious: This is why fighting addiction must be so hard, because you're always in the moment and when you're there it's kinda hard to imagine yourself clean. Good thing I'm no Pete Doherty *shudders* Mims will be happy or my name is not Mims. Well, it isn't. But at the same time, it is. So yes.

Becky: Are you sending me some happy-goodly vibes right now? 'Cause I feel like soaking myself in a bubbly bath. Something relaxing like that. Mmmmmm. Luff you.

Shabamz: It's despicable that you should have to suffer from this stupid condition =( I deeply respect you for marching on and battling it out :3

.... There was something pun-esque I was going to say about balls but it slipped my mind. A shame.

John: You're too sweet to me. Just like chocolate. No wonder I love you to pieces :3

Slick: Luckily I'm on medication for them so that 'diabolical abyss of hell'-feeling doesn't assert itself in the pit of my stomach or the core of my heart, so much, these days. But I do feel like a caged rat in a speed-induced frenzy and when the worst is over I very much resemble the same rat being autopsied. And now I'm being morbid. Apologies >.> I will survive. And then there shall be dancing in the streets.

Sarah: On the bright side, it feeds the drama queen in me with plenty of ammo. I should get a t-shirt that says "Beware! I'm loaded." and something catchy after. Maybe a pair of masks with one happy face and one sad face, on the back of the t-shirt? *snuggles* You're awesome.

Samie: Curious how slow time goes as you wait for something good to come your way or something bad to be on its way. Time is fickle Lady. And she doesn't accept bribes, either.

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