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Friday, May 7, 2004
One step at a time....
On May 5th I made a post, deleted it, made a new one, turned off and on comments, thought about deleting it altogether, left it up, then finally I decided to shut the whole thing down.
I just couldn't articulate anything at the time. I'm still struggling. Getting this post together feels impossible.
As desperate as I am to grab a hold of a someone and talk to about everything, I can't. I want to, but I don't want to burden and bog down. Whatever I'm going through is nothing compared to what others are. But then again you can't compare suffering, so yeah… I don't feel good right now. And as much as I know it would help to talk to a person that has always made me feel comfortable and relaxed, I can't convince myself to do it. It doesn't seem fair to return all the goodness I've received with … *gestures*… this.
I had/have my reasons for shutting down everything, as opposed to writing a post such as this, or not writing at all. But I can't explain that choice. Nor can I give a reason for why I won't allow comments *. I'd rather do this than nothing though, since you all deserve something. At the moment, I can't give anything else.
"Jag känner mig ensam med mina tankar."
I feel alone with my thoughts
"Jag behöver prata med någon."
I need to talk to someone
I did catch your comment on that post, Shin. Thank you.
To everyone that has been/is worrying about me, Thank you.
It's sad and silly how, when I need people the most, I alienate myself from everyone.
I'm sorry.
*[Edit] Turned the comments on so you can all scold my sorry silly behind, heh. [/edit]
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