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Tuesday, March 13, 2007


Of Laughter and Tears
So, this last week was crazy, but I won't go into all the details.

However, it can be summed up in two words: emotional roller coaster.

Its climax was after I had watched the two last episodes of Grey's Anatomy. If you don't watch the show, I'll give you a quick overview of what happened: the main Character, Meredith, drowned. It showed how it effected the other characters, and I started thinking about morbid things which actually lead me to tears at one point. I started to think about what would happen if something happened to my mother. Honestly, I don't know what I'd do, which terrified me. I was afraid of how I would handle it (not well by how I reacted to these thoughts), and how I would take care of the house and the dogs, and how I would contact my dad...and other arrangements. It's just that my mother is all I have back home, family-wise. My dad is overseas at work, the rest of my family is back in Finland, so I'd be all alone here. My friend suggested that I could go and live with my dad, but I don't want to do that, as much as I love him. I felt so stupid calling my mom, bawling, about this whole ordeal. I mean, honestly, no one knows what will happen in the future, but God knows. And that not-knowing was kind of scary. But I just have to trust in God that everything will be alright. He's gotten me this far, and I know He's not going to leave me anytime soon, lol.

I also know what it means to live for God now. I'm not saying that I'm good at it or anything, but I've found that no matter what my problems are, they're pointless. Everything is for God's glory, not my own. =)

Well, take care, and God Bless. I leave you with a verse that I really found to be helpful this weekend.

Hebrews 11:1-3
What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see. God gave His approval to people in days of old because of their faith. By faith we understand that the entire universe was formed at God's command, that what we now see did not come from anything that can be seen.


~Minako

P.S: Train from Black Cat is teh smexy. X3

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