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myOtaku.com: Minako


Monday, May 2, 2005

'Yello.

I'm actually posting for once because something's on my mind. It ALL started today with an especially mushy episode of the Bold and the Beautiful. So I go to thinking about last year after play practice one day... You see, I liked a guy who happened to play the part of Wilbur in a particular fall play of ours and my friend Mike knew about it. (the whole liking Wilbur thing. although I liked him too..) ANYWHO, one day, he decided to go all cryptic on me and said "Oh you like Wilbur so much, and it's okay, you like him so much..." My hormones went, "WHAAAT???" So for WEEKS and MONTHS afterwards, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I liked him. He (apparantly) liked me. I had no idea what was going on. I eventually fell head over heels in love, and it ended up with my heart being broken. It physically HURT to see him and know that I can't have him (he had a girlfriend at the time. I heard that the relationship wasn't going so well. *cough* *cough* Don't ask. -_-;).

I don't blame him at all for my heart being broken, it was entirely my fault falling for a guy I couldn't have. (Trust me ladies, it's the worst feeling in the world.)

So I got to thinking, what if me and Mike got together? I couldn't say, and I'm almost glad we didn't. We're good friends and I wouldn't want to lose that. (Well, if something should happen...THEN we'll talk. heh heh.) I also think we were both confused with our emotions and stuff. I've noticed last year that I did a lot of stupid stuff (like that horrible comic I drew *embarrassed*), but I think it was because I was so scared of this year, my foreign exchange year. I just kept distracting myself from the truth.

I'm also a bit confused too. How come whenever I think about the whole in-love-with-Mike-thing, my heart flutters? It's like for a second I was in love with him again. (I actually wrote him a song, how corny. That was a LOOONG time ago.. *embarrassed*) What does that mean? Does that mean I like him still? Eh. I'm not going to lose sleep over it. I was just wondering.

I'm not going to keep thinking about "what if's" and think about what's ahead. Though I have to admit that I do have one regret with my life...

I was never completely truthful to Mike about my feelings. (I DID tell him I liked him at one point and he took it well... then he said those things...) Next year, I have to steal him away for a walk or something and tell him the truth about Sophomore year. I don't want to live with this on my chest... right?

~Minako

Things just get so crazy living life get's hard to do,
I would gladly hit the road,
Get up and go if I knew,
That someday it would lead me back to you,
That someday it would lead me back to you...

~"Sunday Morning" Maroon 5
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