Tuesday, May 2, 2006

more poetry

First of all, thanks for the comments on my poems. I have another one today. Definition of Love Series Part 2…Is This Love? I miss him With an ache A piercing, burning In my chest Is This Love? Him leaving…? The tears won’t stop My heart is broken Won’t beat anymore Is This Love? Him returning…? Can’t contain the joy Filled with gladness Overflowing warmth Is This Love? I long for him To hold me Once again So safe and warm Is This Love? Please hold me Make me One With You Never let me go I’m In Love also, I'm working on the 8th chapter of my fruits basket fanfiction. Oh, and continuing school work. My grade, in 2-3 weeks mind you, for government has gone from an f to a BC ^_____^ Happy, happy, happy. English = B (college grade, A high school grade (it's weighted)), Physics=B, Choir=A ^_^ happy Today I had to fill out a bunch of papers about senior stuff and got my cap and gown!!! So happy! Unfortunately, all day today I felt like s-h-i-t. I went to school anyway cause I didn't want to miss my classes and ended up with a fever and diaherra. But it's fine! I'm fine! cause I'm so in love with life! *forced laughter and happiness* Well, I've got a lot of government homework to do so I'd better get on it... Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Sunday, April 30, 2006

tribute post prom

This post is how I feel because of last night and because of the last week. I just thought I would put it up in honor of J-Kun and of prom. “The Definition of Love” I wonder if this is what it’s like to be in love? To feel whole until that one day who meet someone who makes you truly complete? To feel so right in his arms? So safe? So warm? That you never want to be released? To feel his heart beat as an extension to your own? To have him constantly make you want to cry because you feel so happy, so blessed? To have the very thought of him leaving you make your heart stop beating… And the opportunity to be with him make you lighter than air? To have him fill your whole heart with joy and so happy you’re warm all over? To have anything he says become gold because he said it? And to have him care so much for you in return that you can’t stop the tears? I think this is what love is. And if it is…I love you. Now and Forever. “Close to You” by Karen Carpender Why do birds fall out of the sky Every time you walk by? Just like me, they long to be Close to You Why do stars suddenly appear Every time you are near? Just like me, they long to be Close to You On the day that you were born, The angels got together And decided to create A dream come true So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair And golden starlight in your eyes of blue That is why all the girls in town Follow you all around Just like me, they long to be Close to You On the day that you were born, The angels got together And decided to create A dream come true So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair And golden starlight in your eyes of blue That is why all the girls in town Follow you all around Just like me, they long to be Close to You Ahh…close to you Ahh…so close to you Ahh…close to you Ahh…so close to you Sorry, can't really get to sites today...it's afternoon, I'm still kinda asleep and I have homework and Mass. See you all next week! ^_^ Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Friday, April 28, 2006

Exhausted

Sorry, but I won't get to sites this weekend. I'm exhausted and I have homework and it's prom weekend. Thanks for understanding. Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Thursday, April 27, 2006

two hours til tomorrow

yep, 10PM where I am . Just finished my rough draft of my ap english paper. got to speak with J-Kun a little while ago and , this is awful, i have a crush on him! I had one on him on and off since I met him sophomore year and now that we're starting to get closer I'm crushing on him! I didn't want this to happen! I don't want it to interfere with our friendship. Oh damn, I'm too tired to think right now. My body is so tired I've been falling asleep since 7. I should get my ass in bed. Anyways, today I read the finale of fy. the finale! can you believe it!? such a good series...touched my heart...not quite the love that furuba is...but still high up there well, night...gotta fall asleep b4 i puke...even more...@_@ ciao Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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at home now

My emotions have been so out of whack today though that I got really sick. I think it's the effects of having chiropractic work on my brain stem. ps--thank you to kat (kamenki) for the gloves which I am now wearing Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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grrrrrrrrrrrrreat

I'm feeling pretty sick, I have a draft of an AP paper due tomorrow that due to certain circumstances, I've hardly started, and I haven't spoken with J-Kun since the middle of yesterday so I don't even know if he bought his prom ticket and oh yeah, I've been crying for seemingly no reason...music getting to me... Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

So damn tired...listening to Green Day really loud to wake myself up

Botan: Wow, that's a long subject line Anyways, yeah, so tired >_> but last night I was too excited to sleep and this morning I was still up before 6 ^.^ LAST NIGHT I ORDERED THE FRUITS BASKET UNIFORM OFF EBAY!!!! >//< squee! It will be specially made to fit me and sent from Hong Kong. The total cost (including shipping and handling) is $60. After buying it I was so excited I had to talk to Yasha. After awhile I was crying and talking about how everyone close to me gets seperated from me (long story) and how it got blurted out that she was basically my BOYFRIEND (reeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllly long story). But anyways, today I have an AP English Exam, a Government Quiz, a Government Test, and my first chiropractor appointment. Quite the day, huh? and then tonight I need to write a rough draft for an AP English paper, which I write the final draft for tomorrow night. THEN SATURDAY IS PROM! >//< squee! You see, I have a one in five chance of being prom queen! >//< squee! and Tora has the same chance of being prom princess >//< Well, better attempt to wake myself up and do more homework and go to prayer service and my exam...this is what happens when I get less than 8 hours of sleep after trying to dye my hair and ending up alergic to the dye and then this morning my eyes are still so irritated it's hell to get my contacts in. I...need....a less eventful life. Good news though--i met a new therapist yesterday and love her! Well, better go for real... Sayonara! et Dieu est avec vous!!!!!!! (Wow...I go from Japanese to French o_O;;) Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

my facebook profile...posting it cause I find it funny

Well, first of all I'm crazy. No, I'm not kidding. I'm literally crazy. As in psychiatrist and therapist and hospital lock-down type crazy. Just to let you know. Oh, and don't give me soda...you don't want to see me on soda...Colin Lohse has seen me on soda...he's scarred for life... yeah, I don't put up actual pics of me...at least not until after prom. But, I have shoulder length dark red hair (though my roots are coming back) blue eyes that you can actually see now that i got CONTACTS!!! average build...though my sketatal structure is kinda messed up right now...starting to see a chiropractor. ttyl y'all ^__^ "FRUITS BASKET OWNS MY LIFE!!! Last year at the beginning of the school year, my friends tried to get me into anime and manga. I didn't like it at first, but then I found fruits basket. And that, my friends, is the beginning of a beautiful friendship. Right now my biggest things happening are prom (I'm on court and going with JBell) and bringing up my government grade so that I can graduate -_-;; after that I'm going to college for music!!! whoot!!! way to try and become a voice actress~!" I will soon be able to cosplay as Uo-Chan (blond girl in piccy)!!! I found a japanese high school (furuba style) school uniform that I convinced my parents to buy and have me pay back with my first paycheck. My hair's the perfect length, so all I would need to do is straighten it and dye it blond! whoot! I already have the straightener and hair dye!! Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Prom

Yeah, I have to leave for school soon and I have government homework to do but I wanted to try and add a quick post. Yesterday was not the greatest day. I have good and bad days and yesterday was somewhat in between. So, during my off period I started talking to my friend JBell-Kun and it really helped!!! He really understands cause he's been through similiar problems of what I'm dealing with right now. So we talked for the whole 50 minutes or so we got off and I asked him "JBell-Kun, are you going to Prom this weekend?" and he's like, "No, why, do you want me to go with you?" and blushing a bit, I said "yes." and he explianed that he had some plans but would cancel them and go with me >///< then he called me last night to see what color my dress was and to tell me he would try to go all hardcore and get a top hat and everything. He hadn't known that I was going to prom anyway, and was on court. So I told him and explained that I'd have to dance the first dance with whatever guy I get paired up with for court. I was very apologetic and such, as I always am and get yelled at for...but anyway, I was like, is that okay? and he's like "sure, I'll just have to kill the guy out of jealousy or something." >////////////< The problem we're trying to figure out now is transportation. Anyways, like I said, I really have to go...I shouldn't have even come on...but, yeah... ^///^ So anyway, Saturday and Sunday I forsure will be busy cause prom is like 8PM-4AM. But it will be fun. BTW, I found out about my main summer job--it's 5AM-1PM Monday thru Friday--$7.25 an hour. I'm trying to get another job on top of that at GameStop. Well, I really, really, really, have to go! Oh!! I will soon be able to cosplay as Uo-Chan!!! I found a japanese high school (furuba style) school uniform that I convinced my parents to buy and have me pay back with my first paycheck. My hair's the perfect length, so all I would need to do is straighten it and dye it blond! whoot! I already have the straightener and hair dye!! ~ttyl Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Sunday, April 23, 2006

Rules to Live By

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other. THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want. FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it. FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married. SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight. EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much. NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely. TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling. ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives. TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly. THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk. FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze. SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson. SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions. EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship. NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it. TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice. TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone. Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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