Sunday, April 23, 2006

   Jesus loves you too!!

A kid asked Jesus... how much do u love me? Jesus replied," I love you this much." and he stretched his arms to the cross and died for us. Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Friday, April 21, 2006

^___^

Get your own countdown at BlingyBlob.com hehe, sorry, I'm getting really excited. I'm on court and everything. But even bigger news--I GOT CONTACTS!!!! Wow, I've had glasses since 2nd grade, so seeing myself w/out them is so weird but awesome at the same time. I wore my contacts for 4 hours yesterday and have to wear them 6 hours today...I didn't put them in yet though...have been lazying about. Well, I should get ready, have to eat, pack (I'm sleeping over at Tora's), clean, etc. I have a consulting appointment at a chiropractor today before I go to Tora's. Well, gotta go get ready. bye Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Thursday, April 20, 2006

SUGAR RUSH

*jumps up and down* SUUUUUUUUUUUGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR! SUGAR SUGAR SUGAR SUGAR SUGAR SUGAR *peanut butter jelly...peanut butter jellly...* SUGAR RUSH!!!!!!!!!!!!! *just ate like a whole TON of skittles* Kyo: -_-;; You get a sugar rush off 1/8 teaspoon of granulated sugar... Botan: weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! *runs all over the place* Kyo: >_< oh shit, she's gonna break something Botan: *suddenly stops* Kyo: o_O;; what's wrong? Botan: *slumps into kyo's chest* feel...like...shit Kyo: o||o well don't go barfing on me!! Exactly how many skittles did you eat!? Wait a minute, you're not supposed to eat any, you're diabetic! Botan: *barf (not really...I just feel that way XP) Kyo: DAMMIT, WHAT DO WE DO?! *note--# of skittles = small easter egg full* ** **** ****** ******** ********** ************ ************** **************** ****************** **************** ************** ************ ********** ******** ****** **** Kyo: WHAT THE HELL? WHY ARE YOU WASTING TIME DOING THAT? Botan: because that's the approximate size of the egg. Kyo: WHO GIVES A DAMN? Botan: *tears up* Kyo: uh...uh...um...what I mean is...oh fuck! Botan: KYO, WATCH YOUR MOUTH! *really does throw up on him* Kyo: Okay, got to call Hatori...gotta call Hatori *ring, ring* Hatori: Hello? Kyo: Hatori, I have an emergency! Hatori: *sigh* what now? Kyo: um...BOTANATEANEASTEREGGFULLOFSKITTLESANDTHREWUPALLOVERME! Hatori: Now let's try making sense out of that...? Kyo: BOTAN ATE AN EASTER EGG FULL OF SKITTLES AND THREW UP ALL OVER ME! Hatori: ah Kyo: HOW CAN YOU BE SO CALM?! Hatori: wash her hands, test her blood glucose, give her the correct amount of insulin, give her some water and have her lie down. Kyo: oh...okay... Hatori: If she's not any better w/in half an hour, call me, now let me back to my work *hangs up* Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

   sad

I'm just in kind of a funk right now and thought maybe I'd report it. Feel kinda insecure and inadequate. Like how I'll never bring my government grade up so I won't be able to graduate and what was I thinking anyway, thinking I could maybe make my dreams come true and go to college to be a singer and voice actress? Yeah...that's it really...just feeling pretty blue. Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Monday, April 17, 2006

Up's and Down's

Well, happy belated Easter Sunday and happy Easter Monday everyone. I hope both were enjoyable for you. I have a fun easter picture to put up on here asap ^.^ Well, I said that last week I was sick all week, right? Well, I thought I was better and so I went to school thursday and my pilgramage friday. The pilgrimage was amazing!!!!!! (I went to Holy Hill--a shrine to Mary. I'm catholic...if you want more info on any of that, pm me) Well, saturday I was feeling a bit off. I didn't really have any appetite and whenever I tried to eat I felt sick to my stomach. I also had headaches. But, I brushed all that aside...cleaned my room, worked on a scholarship, went to pick up tora and then yasha and then atlantis children and then go shopping at the mall. That night I had easter vigil mass which was SUGOI!!!! Easter vigil mass is my most favoritest thing EVUR! When I have more energy, I will write a post all about easter vigil mass. Sunday was Easter and my family headed out to go to a hotel/the house on the rock. Well, I felt sicker than on saturday. My blood sugars were out of control and I felt awful. at one point during the hours long trip, I had to have the fam stop at a gas station and I got VIOLENTLY and I MEAN VIOLENTLY, sick. I felt awful the whole rest of the day and almost had a diabetic EMERGENCY. oy! What a way to spend the day I look forward to most--Easter. Today I was still a little sick with my blood sugars still out of whack, but at least the house on the rock was OUT OF THIS WORLD. I shall have to write a seperate post on that also. Oh, and I can't go to the concert with ACe-Kun cause he couldn't get another ticket after all ;-; and I still have lots of make-up homework I don't understand. TT_TT I am usually a straight-A student and these are my grades right now: A C A A F TT//TT I can't believe this!!! Well, right now I am exhausted and sick... -//- so I'm going to rest ja ne Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Thursday, April 13, 2006

   I am happy

Today I was well enough to go to school. I also went over to Tora's house for awhile and then shopped for her birthday presents (her birthday is tomorrow). I'm pretty played out now though ^_^; Oh well, I'll get to sleep early *zzz* I'm still very happy about finding out I'm on prom court and speaking with ACe-Kun last night. Oh ACe-Kun ^///^ *flirtacious sigh* I may go to the Dashboard Confessional concert with him on Tuesday *//* Tomorrow I am going on a pilgramage to Holy Hill near Milwaukee, Wisconsin. Then Saturday I am watching a movie with Tora and Yasha and giving Tora her presents. That night is Easter Vigil Mass and I am doing Eucharistic ministry. On this religious note, thanks to everyone for your prayers!!! Especially you Shishou. It fills me with joy to know you're praying rosaries for me. ^//^ I feel so blessed. Trying to keep this short though...oh wait, too late >_>; Sunday (Easter) my family is having a brunch and then heading to Spring Green, Wisconsin to see the famous house on the rock and stay one night at a hotel with an indoor water park. I AM SO LUCKY ^//^ then throughout the week I have to do TONS of make-up homework TT//TT and I have some appointments meeting with new doctors. I still plan on spending lots of time with Tora this break though. Oh, that's right...I didn't say anything did I? I have tomorrow and all of next week off for spring break ^_^ I suppose all this fresh-ness is why I put up my new theme. Do you all like it? *~* Um...um...I was gonna say something else important...I'm updating my fanfic today...no, that's not important...hm.... zzz Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Oh goodness...I can't believe this...

Well, first the bad news: I'm still sick TT//TT Now...all the good news ^__________^ : I FOUND OUT TODAY THAT I'M ON PROM COURT!!!!! OMG!!! One of my "friends" aka "a person who likes to use me >_>" is really mad about situations surrounding prom but I spoke with her very frankly even though it got her more mad. Oh well, I was only telling the truth and it made me feel better. More good news: I had my first sip of a wine cooler today. (Don't worry--I only had 2 ounces) It was very good and relaxed me. I guess I'm a sober drinker, lol Even more good news: I'M TALKING TO ACE-KUN ON AIM RIGHT NOW!!!! ^/////////////////////^ ahh...my happy place. Oh! And right now I am working on a pro-life scholarship but during part of tonight I have also been working on my furuba fanfic and watching RK music videos on YouTube. More later ^//^ ~Cia Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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@||@ oy, what is wrong with me?

I have been so sick...x_x I have flu-stuff, woman stuff, dizzyness and shakyness... If that wasn't enough, my blood glucose levels have been out of control! They're so high that yesterday I just managed not to go to the hospital. TT_TT I've been talking to diabetic nurses non-stop and mostly staying at home trying to rest. I tried to go to school yesterday but that was a mistake. I almost passed out and, like I said, only narrowly avoided going to the emergency room. I feel awful TT_TT Sorry 'bout that, but I figured I'd let everyone know why I'm so out of it and what-not. I've been sick like this since Monday morning, when I was in the bathroom (being sick) for about 2 hours. TT_TT Death and Despair--after I feel better I'm gonna be writing you a response to your comment on my last post. I hope you don't mind. That comment really encouraged me. @||@ laters peoples, please PlEaSe PLEASE pray for me. ~Botan Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Monday, April 10, 2006

Your regular program is interrupted to bring this announcement.

i am a bitch. I am a bitch and I'm am going through a living hell because of all my emotional and physical pain. I think I've come to realize the truth about my brother Hiroko. I don't know if I love him. Okay, I guess some part of my down deep inside loves him, or at least wants to. i've tried so hard to love him but he pushes me and everyone else away. he causes heartache in my entire family, giving my mother and I unhealthily high stress and anxiety levels. i have been counting down the days until I can move out of my house. His ranting doesn't cause me so much sadness anymore...I've become pretty numb. Which is sad really. My whole personality has changed because of it and I don't really like this new side of me. Sure, she can stand up for herself but *pardon my language* she's truly a hard-ass bitch. I'm sick of my brother's rialing me. I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm a bitch, I have no real friends, I'm a hypochondriac, I'm self-centered and egotistical, I'm "not all there" mentally--I can never express myself properly, I never mean what I say...it goes on and on every day. He's even beginning to say I'm a lesbian who likes hentai. Well, guess what?! I'm sick of this crap. and most of the reason he's tripping me is because he's insecure because he's gay. I am considered to be one of the girliest girls alive and he acts more feminine than I do! It honestly scares me. I'm sorry. I shouldn't complain. I shouldn't admit all this. but I'm so sick of it. He has ruined my whole life and caused my parents to go just about crazy, which makes my life even harder. Hell though it will be, I want to go out on my own just to get away from my family. My own family! I have tried suicide...I still think about pretty often even though I get pumped full of meds. I don't think it's all depression...I think it's my family. They always are telling me how I'm not good enough, how I need to get stronger, that I shouldn't show emotion. Dammit anyway, I'm a romantic, not a rationist. And now I've broken my vow and I'm sworn. I just don't know what my world has come to... Please pray for me. All this has been going on and today I was really, really sick and can hardly spend any time outside of the bathroom. I just wish I could find that reason to live. I thought I found it with music, but my brother's knocking me down again. I can never win. "as if to knock me down, reality comes around" This song describes what has happened with my life. "the logical song" by supertramp When i was young It seemed that life was so wonderful A miracle, oh it was beautiful, magical And all the birds in the trees Well they´d be singing so happily Oh joyfully, oh playfully watching me But then they sent me away To teach me how to be sensible Logical, oh responsible ,practical And they showed me a world Where i could be so dependable Oh clinical, oh intellectual, cynical There are times when all the world´s asleep The questions run too deep For such a simple man Won´t you please, please tell me what we´ve learned I know it sounds absurd But please tell me who i am Now watch what you say Or they´ll be calling you a radical A liberal, oh fanatical, criminal Oh won´t you sign up your name We´d like to feel you´re Acceptable, respectable, oh presentable, a vegetable! At night when all the world´s asleep The questions run too deep For such a simple man Won´t you please, please tell me what we've learned I know it sounds absurd But please tell me who i am, who i am ,who i am. Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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Sunday, April 9, 2006

Sorry

Sorry 'bout the weird posting stuff last time...otaku was on the fritz (at least for me) for a day or so. Blog Layout and Design by me in paint

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