Saturday, August 19, 2006

blue tears
my head is about to explode.

I've been having strange dreams.
I can't seem to make sense out of them.
- but, they've got me thinking.
I feel that something needs to change.
something is missing.

I have good friends, and all.
can't complain.
- but something isn't right.

I know I'm only a kid - and I
don't really have to worry, but
I'm afraid that my life is going nowhere.
everything seems so meaningless.
I'm tired all the time, I
need routine again.

I want a job - but I have a horrible
feeling about starting.
I'm going to screw up.
I stress myself out way too much.

I want school to start -
but I'm afraid about that too.
the whole gabby and kim anger thing
means I might not get to see alexa as much.

plus my exchange students are leaving in march.
that's gonna suck...

>.<;

I can't leave the house for two days
because 4 of my family members are in calgary for the weekend.. and my mom doesn't want me going anywhere because if something goes wrong she can't come and get me.


I'm going insane in here.

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

   Electric Summer.
I'm such a child >.<;.

Haha, but I like it that way.
I like the fact I have big dreams,
and hope for the best.

for example, jokingly I said
"Alexa - let's start a JROCK band"
and we started talking about it.
but now my mind is running.

It would be so perfect.

Alexa, Singer, Guitarist, Writer
Makeup Artist, Clothing Designer.

Gabby Clothing Designer, ... ?

Jon, Guitar or Bass, Music Video director, helps with random japanese lyrics.

HAHAHA I WANT THIS.
It's dumb, It's funny, but -
once my mind starts going, it's hard to stop.
here we come world.

- seriously though, I've always loved music, ever since I was a kid I've wanted to use it as a career, I threw the dream away because I didn't believe it could happen, but I don't want to throw it away. what started off as a joke, has really got me thinking - "why can't I do it?," I mean, there's nothing stopping me - I'm talented, I'm original, I'm determined.

I'm gonna express myself damnit =D


^_^'
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Wednesday, August 2, 2006

rain-hail-rain-hail
so - today I went and sat on this big hill, I could see downtown and my town, and trees and schools and...it was really peaceful.

birds were flying around and it started to rain.

I had a chat with god.
it was interesting.
I think we're on the same page now.
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Sunday, July 30, 2006

genki-dayo
I feel. disconnected.
I feel. lazy.

I need work again - but I'm still nervous about interviews + training.

I want to see my friends again, I feel like I'm losing them.

grade 11 HAS to go well. I need it too.
I need alexa, and gabby, and I need my morning buddies...but I have this sinking feeling, and the thought of losing any of them just kills me.

>.<; I hate summer, I hate it. I need to be surrounded with people and memories and..good things. snow and halloween, dead leaves and video cameras.

I long for the smell of new pencils and fresh paper. I want school.
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Friday, July 14, 2006

HE'S NOT DEAD!
THAT'S RIGHT MYO!~!

I AM HERE! IN THE FLESH.
sorry- about never using this.

Alexa has shown me the error of my ways.
>.<;

nothing too exciting has happened.
...well. what am I saying...
Animethon did - AMAZING.

I wish I had more money , but, what canya do?

I bought:

-Nana Poster
-Megatokyo vol.1
-FLCL Soundtrack no.3
-Kitty Ears hat
-"to-ra-i-ga-n" shirt.

YAYAYAYA money well spent!!



((if anyone knows what "to-ra-i-ga-n" means in english? Trigun maybe? I DON'T KNOW - MY JAPANESE ISN'T GREAT YET))


PLEASE GOD
LET ME GO TO BC
FOR ANIMEVOLUTION.


jonno - out.
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Thursday, May 11, 2006

   hoorahh
so i'm going to be pretty unhappy if my otafest plans are ruined. i actually started looking foward to it.

AND YES!! - finally Wallflower 4-6.
thank you hezu.

anyways. in other - not-so-anime-news.
i talked to Katrina again...
she IS nice. I still don't think i like her.
likes she wants me too.

and i know alexa said, don't date her because i can do better
but the thing is.

what if i can't do better?

>.<;
i want junior high back.
i didn't have to worry about this crap
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

quote--------------------------------------
"GEE, THANKS. YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO HAVE SOMEONE, MR I'VE-NEVER-DATED
OR SHALL I SAY MR I'VE-NEVER-GROPED,MADEOUT,ORDONEANYTHING "
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....fuck.
i know she didn't mean it.
but it hurt.
and now i'm sad.

I WANT A SOUBI.



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Sunday, May 7, 2006

   382
yay for hanging out with alexa.
"I WANT TO TRADE PLACES WITH THAT CAT - PICK ME"

I've decided to use MYO more!
and i've decided to talk to people.
^_^ so yay.

I also - love loveless.
episode 6 right now.
soooo goooood.

i'm still angry with DeathNote - it won't download.


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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

   my those quieted eyes become you.
you know guys-
i'd probably post a heck of a lot more if i got some comments.
i'm not feeling the animelove here.
glomp me already.

so.
new yeahyeahyeahs CD--
SO GOOD.

i read Wallflower, haha cutest manga ever.
i was surprised - i wasn't expecting much.

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Friday, April 14, 2006

mirai wa
kingdom hearts two
complete! - i mean - not to 100% or anything
but. the general storyline, everything, final battle, end credits. OVER.

and it was beautiful.
axels last scene
the obvious rikuxsoraness
lovey dovey namine + roxas
beautiful graphics in the lasts scenes.
the world that never was.
roxas and namine merging with kairi and sora.
gaaaahh. brilliance.

one question though - why did kairi get a keyblade? when she only used it like..once.
ho hum.

god i can't wait until KH3.
even if sora and the others aren't in it.
i can't wait.

OH on a different note - i read most of othello.
WOW - so good. i don't think i'll read hanakimi or whatever. i've never been a fan of those stereotypical "girl dresses up as a boy and falls in love with a boy - what will she do!?" mangas. crossdressers are overrated. unless they're japanese.

OH AND GOOD LUCK WITH BRACES ALEXA!
I HOPE IT DIDN'T HURT!
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